Awakening scares the shit out of me

[TheGod]

I've shifted my default state of consciousness with 5MeO-Dmt. I haven't done it for the last 6+ months, but I feel like I'm becoming more and more conscious. It's not a thought, but rather a feeling. Universe doesn't feel to me as separate as it used to neither do other people feel as real. Actually, I feel like I'm losing my mind and it brings about a lot of fear. Ultimately, I'm afraid that this bubble of consciousness disappears. I'm terrified of it. On the other hand, I'm fully aware and conscious that I'm trying to reduce my state of consciousness and it only makes me more conscious. 

Lately I've been having some sort of god-realization without taking any substances or meditation. It's just like a wave that comes in and overwhelms me. When it happens I feel a lot of fear so I'm trying to distract myself as soon as possible. 

Do you guys know what is happening to me ? I really hope that it's just fucking ego resisting the truth. In fact, when I was doing other psychedelics it always was like this. At first a lot of fear and after ego-death there is no fear. 

I need your advice, 

Thanks 

[Hojo]

panic attack, its just ego.  Probably from not fully coming to terms with death.

Edited March 30 by Hojo

[Davino]

10 hours ago, TheGod said:

Do you guys know what is happening to me ?

You won the lottery but you don't know what to do with that much money

This will help:

 

[Princess Arabia]

Change your name. That'll do it.

[Bazooka Jesus]

Don't be afraid of fear. Fear is just another word for excitement... it's the thrill of riding the divine roller coaster ride. Don't resist it; let it wash over you, flow through you, purify and transform you.

And if that wasn't convincing enough, here's a little pep talk by the master of Oscar worthy (zen) slaps himself:

Godspeed. ✊️

[Princess Arabia]

1 hour ago, Bazooka Jesus said:

Don't be afraid of fear. Fear is just another word for excitement... it's the thrill of riding the divine roller coaster ride. Don't resist it; let it wash over you, flow through you, purify and transform you.

And if that wasn't convincing enough, here's a little pep talk by the master of Oscar worthy (zen) slaps himself:

Godspeed. ✊️

I enjoyed that. So true.

[Javfly33]

On 30/03/2024 at 3:00 AM, TheGod said:

 

Do you guys know what is happening to me ? I really hope that it's just fucking ego resisting the truth. In fact, when I was doing other psychedelics it always was like this. At first a lot of fear and after ego-death there is no fear. 

I need your advice, 

Thanks 

There is not a bubble of consciousness. 

What you see around is not a physical reality. Is Infinite Consciousness / BEING / YOU.

You are in Your Own Dream, which turns out, is also 'my' dream. 

There are no bubbles of Consciousness, only Consciousness. 

Surrender to GOD and to PURE IMAGINATION .

[Princess Arabia]

6 minutes ago, Javfly33 said:

Is Infinite Consciousness / BEING / YOU.

It's just it. Nothing being anything, as it's everything. 

Edited April 2 by Princess Arabia