Leeway

During meditations it happened a few times that it felt that everything alligns together. I've made a visual in my mind of two energy who are moving around, becoming one, that was the moment it was the most quiet place EVER. It was so quiet it scared the shit out of me and I felt my heart pumping blood very fast as a reaction to this experience. Also the little sounds that I heard all merged together in this nothing/oneness experience. I am aware that the meaning I put on to this experience: scaryness (thoughts like; am i dead? maybe i should come back otherwise i won't get out of it!), makes me come out of it. I want to surrender to it.

@RawJudah I mean that I'm done with doing activities only in sake of occupying my time. My weeks were completely full of busyness. This year it got to an max that everything in me said: enough. I craved to just be. I never considered being - and am stunned with the fulfillness of it!

Amsterdam, the Netherlands

Looking back I feel I went through different lives, although introspect they all make sense to me. Started as a singer, graduated as an actor, focused on interactive social theater (schools, hospitals), moderator/hosts for events, teaching laughter yoga, working for disabled elderly women, atm graduating bachelor social work. I loved every bit of it, but I'm done doing. Grateful I found this community.