SaltyMeatballs

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  1. You can simply Google this stuff. Also, you could consider intermittent fasting by skipping breakfast altogether. Why do you think you need breakfast anyway?
  2. And not just once or twice but continuously.
  3. Learn some sysadmin skills and host the website yourself on Linode. It will cost around $5 per month.
  4. I came across this course as I was researching how to improve my social skills: https://highvibecommunication.com/hvc The guy seems legit with quite a bit of experience. I was wondering if anyone has taken this course and if it's worth getting it. Thanks
  5. Instead of building muscle mass why don't you focus on calisthenics. Like for example, mastering handstand pushups or a one arm pullup. Not only will you learn a rare skill, you will be gaining muscle which is proportional to your body weight, giving you the natural gymnastics physique.
  6. How am I doing right now? I am confused about what I should be doing with my time. I don't feel much drive towards anything right now, with the exception of understanding my emotions and doing spirituality. I managed to let go of some emotional blockages and I am doing much better than last week as far as my mental state goes.
  7. When I was a kid I moved to foreign country and faced numerous survival challenges. As a result, I developed many defence mechanisms, most of which have become hinderances to my overall happiness and satisfaction with life. Moreover, when I was in school I couldn't ever really "fit" in. I was too afraid of being vulnerable and showing my true self. Through journalling, seeing a therapist and psychedelics I aim to gain a better understanding of my insecurities and my shadow, ultimately letting go and shedding away what no longer serves me. This journey is difficult and Im using this thread as a way to stay accountable and deliver on my intentions. As of now, I am not suicidal but rather mildly depressed. I feel shame and some degree of guilt. I also feel that I'm responsible and that change is possible given the right tools and patience.
  8. I'm currently practising the "Letting go" technique which I learned about in the book by David R. Hawkins: Letting Go: The Pathway of Surrender The technique is extremely simple but quite difficult to do in practice when it comes to more difficult emotions like depression. I can see the potential in using this technique. All the emotions that I feel throughout the day, no matter how difficult, can become stepping stones towards full awakening and bliss. I can turn this into a game, and challenge myself to let go of as many emotions as possible, even the positive ones. There are a few concerns though... How do I know that I am practising this technique properly? Is it really as simple as feeling into an emotion? Why does my mind try to make it into something more complicated than it really is? Even if my intention is to let go, I feel like there is a part of me that is resisting and trying to manipulate and control the present moment, using this technique. There seems to be a very subtle distinction between trying to let go and simply just letting go. How do I reconcile this? If I fully let go and surrender to the now, what does this mean for my career, relationships, family, the food that I eat and how I spend my time? I worry that if I surrender, I won't be able to perform to commit to anything or achieve any success because I have simply let go of wanting to do these things.
  9. I think what's really holding me back and paralyzing my progress is this need to know. I get all whiny and upset when I don't have an answer to something. This may be one of the reasons why I have been soo depressed lately. Examples of things I don't know right now are; What my life purpose is If I should stay at my current job If I should go to college What skills I should be developing If I should move out of my parent's place The first one on the list is what makes me the most upset. The above 2 videos dovetail nicely together because the central message is to let go and to embrace the emotions. I also remember reading The Surrender Experiment by Michael A singer. I really resonated with the message of that book and I intuitively understood that this is exactly what I need right now... Is to open my arms out fully, accept the fact that I don't know, follow my intuition and trust that the universe will deliver. Through this process and enough practice, I expect that I will become a better conductor of the creative flow of energy of the universe.
  10. Over the last 2-3 months or so, I've become increasingly more depressed and unfulfilled with life. Today, I struggle to get out of bed, perform simple daily tasks and work effectively at my job. I practice meditation everyday, I generally eat clean and have a strict exercise routine. I also take supplements and recently my blood test results were in the green. I'm not suicidal and I have no intention. I don't even know why I'm posting this and I don't expect any quick and easy fixes either. This feeling is also not a justification for me to blame my career, family or current living situation. They are good. Yet, I feel like crap. I made a list of things I could potentially do to get me out of this rut but these steps feel insurmountable. They are not big steps either.. like schedule a zoom call with a therapist. I have also noticed that there is a part of me which WANTS to stay depressed, as if it's part of my identity and needs to be defended/maintained. I just feel hollow and empty inside and everything that I do brings no satisfaction or sense of achievement. What do you think I could do? How would you deal with this situation?
  11. @catcat69123 @Breakingthewall Thanks for your input. The solution then, it seems, is to continue raising awareness. What psychedelic would you recommend to best deal with this?
  12. I love listening to this when I am at my lowest. The key is to observe all the feelings that arise and let them go. Don't get sucked into the fantasies.
  13. The past few months have been low. I have forgotten what it feels to be alive and happy. Yet, at the same time I recognise that this state is transitory and can only lead to wisdom and better understanding of myself.
  14. Through Kriya and introspection, I have noticed how I unconsciously push away and attempt to avoid the shadow elements of the psyche. I am more aware of the various false expectations that the ego-mind constructs. Most importantly, I have observed a lack of self-love and self-respect. Leo's latest video on conflict has given me a new lens through which I can make sense of the many divisions in my mind. For example, there is part of me that desires to be "perfect" and to seek the approval of others. The flip side of that would be to admit that I am a finite human and that perfection doesn't exist as long as I continue being human. The only choice I have is to reconcile these conflicting parts, allowing them to coexist in harmony with each other. I can do this by being more vulnerable and practising radical honesty. A beautiful insight I gained from an LSD trip 2-3 years ago is that reality is ultimately perfect. My mind reached a profound state of unification and the duality between good/bad collapsed. I was finally at peace, at least for a very brief moment. Expanding one's consciousness is a powerful way to make peace with war and conflict at the micro and macro scale.
  15. This feeling of not being "good enough" and that I am in some way deficient is both a blessing and a curse. On the one hand, it pushes me to pursue self-actualization but it also creates suffering because of the dissonance between how I am now vs how I could be. The thoughts and physical sensations that accompany this experience... If I had never been unsatisfied in my life, I would have not discovered actualized.org. I would have not tried psychs and gone on meditation retreats. In other words, the very fuel which creates a burning desire to pursue self-actualization/spirituality has been suffering and pain. Paradoxically, I appreciate and am grateful for the pain but I also wish that it was never there. As a result, the only alternative as it seems is to confront and embrace it. It's to keep moving despite the pain and suffering. To welcome it, befriend it and most importantly, to LOVE IT. Life it seems is a perfect simulation/training ground for me to develop my love for the finiteness of the human experience.
  16. I want to learn letting go. I want to learn to fully feel into my anxiety and pain that I feel in social interactions. One thing that popped into my mind is joining Toastmasters again. The level of fear and anxiety I get from this is insane, which is, exactly why I want to do it.
  17. @VictorB02 Thanks for taking your valuable time to share this. ?
  18. What exactly is your life purpose? Can you tell us in a few sentences? What were the main obstacles you faced towards finding it? What advice would you give to someone who is totally clueless about what their life purpose is?
  19. People like RSD Max suggest working on your Instagram but I was wondering if it's truly effective at attracting more girls?
  20. To avoid the jitters try taking it together with L-theanine and chamomile.
  21. He's useful as far as getting you out of a lazy rut and start pushing yourself. But that's about it.
  22. What if, this or that... I guess HOPE.
  23. The worst is when I did public speaking at toastmasters. But basically, anytime I sense that someone is looking at me, immediately i start to feel anxious. Also, when I am talking, I am extra cautious with my words. I think that these are coping mechanism I developed when I moved to a foreign country as a kid.
  24. Thanks! ♥️♥️
  25. Learn to code. Thats one of the most valuable skills you can learn now. You can then use that skill to develop your business. If I did it, anyone can.