Sven

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  1. Vsauce did a video about this Apart from that I would agree with @Barna
  2. What is the difference between 5MEO and "regular" DMT (if you dont mind me asking here)?
  3. @Mikael89 I don't think that's exactly right It's not as if NOTHING matters after enlightenment. I recall Leo saying that after enlightenment everything which we usually chase like money cars and the like, becomes like a cherry on top. Nobody ever said that these things become completely and utterly worthless. Everything is just enhanced. But you wouldn't go chop your left hand off for fun when you become enlightened. That doesn't make any sense So in that way, there really is no way to see "how enlightened"(...) someone is. Again: this should not even matter! We are all here in this together. Ego judges. Original Being/ give it a name does not. It's all YOU. Again something Leo said somewhere (not any quote specifically): it's easy to love the good stuff. Loving nazi's and terrorists is hard. Remember?
  4. @Shin has hit the hammer on the nail here as far as I'm concerned. Also, any judgements towards anyone ultimately are reflections of yourself which want to make yourself feel better by putting others down... and we all do this. Even when you are enlightened you might do this, the difference would be that you would recognise it as illusion immediately and wouldn't be affected by it. Plus, comparison would come from a different source so to speak. Definitely a good idea to make your feet wet with different teachers, but ultimately it's only you yourself who can transform yourself
  5. So how is it now? You had a headache you say, anything else? Did the modafinil indeed have a lever effect for you? Are you feeling the same as before the week or different? If different: positively or negatively so?
  6. Do you meditate? Have you read books on astral projection? An absolutely amazing series I've read and had an out of body experience after was the three books by Robert Monroe (Journeys out of the Body; Far Journeys; Ultimate Journey).
  7. Is it the first time you're going to do ayahuasca? Have you used DMT?
  8. Yes I think you guys might be onto something. I believe I did at some point quit listening to music. I say I believe because frankly I need to keep up with my diary. I just don't remember what I did a month ago. But the "overcompensating" might be true. Normally my mind is completely cluttered with just a ridiculous amount of nonsense e.g. "monkeymind" is strong here. Now that I have begun meditating again as I mentioned, it seems as the most stubborn parts of the monkeymind stay active, taking form as earworms (among other things). You say it got better over time @Lalelou123? Any reason for this? I always tend to think in causal relations since if there's no source to be identified how can I form a solution, right? As far as all the de-sress and (body) relaxation responses go: I will keep meditating daily. I am definitely considering starting a daily journal here just to serve as a push factor towards daily practice. And then simultaneously let go of the "need to change things". I still feel like I'm missing a key element here, though. It's just bugging me. It might be stress as was mentioned. Maybe the earworms are just a sympton of something more fundamental?
  9. How do you deal with your tinnitus? @John Lula
  10. Well that could be clinical depression man. Anyone in your family who has depression? It's in genes. If you don't know the reason otherwise, you gotta try. What changed? What was the last time you felt you had your shit together? And then the obvious stuff... but I'm gonna mention it anyway: slowly start exercising, be consistent with it. Plus, do you have a job? School? Being cognitively active helps more than you might think. But from the place you're in I get that that's difficult. I was in that place a year ago. What actually ended up helping me was moving to another country (I moved from the Netherlands to Ireland and worked there for 7 months). And then also an option is this: go to a professional ayahuasca ceremony. Might help a lot.
  11. But Le... I mean. But Solace..! Haha. Thanks for the post. Freedom is in awareness. When eventually I find the courage to let go of myself then I will join that space of freedom. That would be a wish of which I presumeably don't know the magnitude as, right now, it seems just like something 'nice'. But rumour has it: it's nice times a million. Would that be right?
  12. Yes post back I'm curious. I too had that attitude about amphetamine by the way (different story all together of course). I got my driving license because of it. I had big nerves. But the way amphetamine affects the body is ridiculous so the effects were easy to observe and say about "Well I'm not gonna do this ever again (at least not regularly by far)." Which I never did. Modafinil being way less strong might not show it's negative aspects as evidently. So it might be fine for months, but maybe you then get used to the effects and cannot do without. I'm saying 'maybe' here on purpose because of course Leo had many positive things to say about it and it even being suitable for daily use. Just looking at the whole perspective from an unknowing place. anyway I'm sure it's fine so I look forward to your reports later on. Have fun and keep meditating on it as well haha!
  13. @Barna well I am not stable psychologically. So maybe it would have an effect that sober experiences would mean less than modafinil experiences as a human. Unless the lever effect is possible indeed. Dopamine effects your sense of value so that you are motivated to do things you're not usually motivated to do. If then the modafinil experience ends e.g. you are sober, and you were to compare the sober experiences with the modafinil experiences, you might long for something other than what's already here: the present moment. Don't get me wrong. I am completely neutrally if not positively oriented towards modafinil. I am only curious after this: under what circumstances would an individual be able to apply the lever effect and under what circumstances not? Has this gotten to do with mental strength? Level of awareness? Or, on the other hand, is the lever effect granted automatically? Simply by referencing in your experience to the modafinil experience and working from there? These were the questions I have.
  14. Yes it's a broad sense. But both effect dopamine in a similar way, though of course in a different scale. The source is just the molecule structures, you can look those up online
  15. Man seems intense. Never had anything like this. Is this rare? Reminds me a little of the stuff Robert Monroe went through - he learned to "astral project" - but could be totally something else. He would lie down and then just have insane vibrations going through him. It allowed him to "leave his body" when he accepted it. @Martin123 that sounds magical; waves of energy hitting the planet. How do you know this?
  16. I was excited when I heard about it. Then found out it's family of amfetamine even though I believe Leo said it's not. Sure it's lots less strong. I think if it can indeed be used like a lever that sounds great and I'm curious for that possibility. I'm just doubtful about the lever effect but maybe it could work.
  17. I see I see. Well I did just come up with a question. What about masturbation? Is there anything as an energy related to the orange chakra - to give it a name - which has a natural cycle like the wind, and the tides, and life and death in general? It's all based on cycles. Sexual energy is also natural. Yet there's these people out there all about "no-fap". Any useful perspective you can give on this? ?
  18. Isn't it a little tiring to answer to everyone's questions? hahah. Seems like a part time job over here
  19. What is kundalini to you? I actually don't know anything about kundalini, but I read on google (just now) that the kundalini energy can go along with energy jerks in the body (like the image). Is that something you experience?
  20. Anyone read this book? Arrived today, have not looked into it yet. But the message seemed helpful. 2 more days for another masterpiece from Leo..! Have a good one
  21. Thanks @Serotoninluv for the reply! What kind of stage of your life was that? Or is that not of importance perhaps?
  22. Hey guys, So I was listening to a song and thought, especially looking at the lyrics, it seems poetic or maybe metaphysical. But I can't seem to decipher it. Any of you an idea? Also, the songs just really good haha. Carbon Based Lifeforms i an amazing artist. Take it easy!
  23. Or these lyrics from ~42° by the same artist: "It isn't really a thing, nor does it exist in one particular place You could say that it is an optical phenomenon that only appears when the atmospheric conditions are just right, and so is the sunlight It is also dependent on the viewer's position, that should be in this one particular place It isn't something divine or angelic, but it's appearance can be truly and utterly breathtaking And some would say that it is borderline magical"
  24. Have any of you suddenly started crying in public or just in general because you suddenly realized that there is Beauty in everything? Without the consumption of any substances I've never really experienced this fully. I ask this because today I was working out (gym) just now and I suddenly understood that the pain threshold we as humans experience is only an ego barrier. And then I saw how SO MANY THINGS are only self-made barriers. And then I had some tears, which I repressed since I was in public. Haha. Any thoughts on this? And have a good day my friends!
  25. Well, first of all, I didn't fully cry. I just had some tears. It was not that grandiose of an experience, otherwise I would not have said "Without the consumption of any substances I've never really experienced this fully." But what happened was probably comparable with what is known as "the runner's high". It is comparable because when you experience a runner's high, you have basically pushed through a "pain barrier", in that case more of a cardiovascular barrier I suppose, which gives you a burst of energy. So this was something like that. After that, I realized that with enlightenment would come also the permanent capacity to see pain as a mind-made phenomenon, and not something which actually keeps you from doing something. But biologically I don't know how far this should be stretched as of course we need to experience pain in order to know our boundaries. Otherwise, we would get hurt and die. Thanks for all the replies guys! I am still trying to find clues, or rather, trying to avoid red herrings... Which there are so many of!! It's absolutely ridiculous actually. Every once in a while I break down completely and realize I've been completely following red herrings. Not sure what else to say. I've been considering journalling on the forum. Not sure if that's actually helpful. But I am digressing ?