Brandon Nankivell

Unlikely to be 250ug. Best bet as always is to take a smaller amount if unsure. You can always take more.

Noted

Bang on ey. Tried 5meo for the first time recently and the environment was the only thing I felt was stopping me from letting go. Finding it challenging to find an environment where I can feel comfortable to scream my lungs out if that would eventuate but will find a place. Thank you for the emphasis on this.

Funny, my first DMT trip, the sole, unrelenting message was "slow down with the success stuff"

I love your songs mate

Peter Ralston: https://chenghsin.com/workshops/

Acceptance

Accepting everything

Current understanding: I've had what felt like a very potent yet incomplete awakening to infinity, where the 'thereness' as described by Peter Ralston, of objects in my surroundings, became so 'there-like', it was insane, and started feeling I was behind the eyes of other people I'd encounter. My surroundings merging with who I normally identify as me (my body etc). A fear arose that I am everything and therefore completely alone... Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuckkkk.... I'm just gonna go back to mowing the lawn or something... Where I feel I don't understand: I remain ignorant to what you mean by my current POV is absolute infinity. What about other forum members and their POV? If my POV is absolute infinity, how can it be, since others have their own POV (I guess I can't prove it, but I assume so). In some sense their POV is still the true me, as God, Infinity, but I as Brandon, the one writing this, don't know what thoughts other forum members are having and what their POV is like, I can only guess. There may be something in the analogies you provided that I'm missing. Something to do with time and how my reel is the only one playing and another reel (another POV) will play when my body dies. But aren't all the POV's running right now, I'm just not aware of precisely what the other POV's are like of other forum members?

Have a mentor that has helped guide me through breakthroughs, the mind loves to jump in and say, "It can't be this simple!" "Truth is simple and truth is difficult. In fact it is difficult because it is simple. It is so simple and your minds are so complicated that you cannot understand it." -Osho

I speak for myself: I don't get the impression that Yogananda lies.

Actualized.org seems to attract more intellectually oriented truth seekers but I am curious about those who follow bhakti as their meditation practice or have devoted themselves to a Guru. What has your experience been like? What insights have you had? Why did you choose this way? Note: This was meant to be posted into the Meditation section

Sounds good, was feeling a little while back it was time

Choose to pay more attention. If that's difficult, then engage in a regular meditation practice and keep your head and senses clear with sunshine, good breathing, whole foods, good sleep.

Nobody is forcing you to continue engaging with your friend. If you are in a situation (like a job) where you must interact with your friend, then simply accept that they aren't willing to go there.

Pursuing self-realization

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Second this. Connects offer exclusive career opportunities, social life upgrades, around-the-world 'home bases', comradery, accountability, intro to even more great connections. This list goes on.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uNg13Ju5HN8

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZJwX2jTXWwQ

These feelings are temporary. All part of growth :).

Watch your thoughts. At some point they will settle down and you will experience peace.

Welcome. What brings you here?

David Hawkins offers a starting point with his map of consciousness. The Ten Ox-Herding Images may also appeal to you. Leo's video. The transcribed and translated lectures by Yamada Mumon are great for going deeper. Spiral Dynamics is a staple in the Actualized.org community. Models aside, the one I heed most attention to is the simple question: How much peace do you feel on a daily basis? Gotta let go of measuring all-together at some point Hope this helps.