Charlotte

@Outer everything in the room is my interpretation of what I 'think' it is. It's Ultimately nothing. No outer I don't feel it all the time. Some days more so than others.

@Rilles Mushrooms riles, I have loooaaaaads of them. @Outer Ultimately nothing, nobody, concepts and beliefs. @Joseph Maynor This is exactly what I need to practice more of, not taking any meaning from thoughts. I do it in day to day life quite naturally but when fear arrises it's a different story.

@PsiloPutty Thanks Psilo. I feel I honestly need to work on this surrendering sober first, it's really starting to tick me off, I used not give a shit ?

@Outer he didn't do it for spirituality purposes or personal development. He did them for recreational purposes and my mum has done in the past. What intrigues me is my mum's episode came when she was around 3 years into it. I contemplate all the time outer.

@Nahm Bit confused as to what you want me to do Nahm sorry ? am I right in thinking you want me to delve into my Mum and Uncles history? @Outer The doctor told my Mum (at the time) it wasn't hereditary, it was just an episode. Also my uncle was doing mass amounts of LSD at festivals. I have another uncle who has done psychedelics and other hard drugs through his life and he's absolutely fine.

@Rilles Thanks for replying. There's certain levels of consciousness that using psychedelics can put you in and also I'd like to know my deepest darkest fears, maybe gain a little direction in life and also quit my ecig, I want to use them as a tool for PD and to maybe have glimpses. @Leo Gura thanks for replying Leo, yeah your right. @Salvijus Thanks dude! @Nahm Be my guest Nahm, you know me, I'm open

I was microdosing for a while and still the fear remained. I need to learn how to not care.

I have to do math in order to progress to my LP (booooooo ?) math is not my LP @Lynnel your right, I asked to be moved down a level because I was sat there watching paint dry but now the class they have put me in is over populated and too hectic so I'm going to ask tomorrow to move AGAIN ? they'll love me there won't they.

It's about what you bring to yoga (or should I say don't bring) not what yoga brings to you.

This is fucking amazing ??

I thought so ? @Barry J never know though, some people are very serious on here

@Barry J are you joking? ?

@John Iverson first, calm down. Bro! ? Breath. Secondly, ARE YOU 100% sure that you get a fever right after yoga? You could just have an on and off fever. I'd journal that shit. Thirdly, doing yoga does twist and turn insides SO DON'T WORRY ABOUT your bowel movements or whatever. Accept what ever comes up and RELAX. From what I can see, with how emotional you are your probably causing your own sufferin (via worry/anxiety), sorry to be blunt.

@Shin ??

@Lynnel but Lynnel! I just don't get math ? I'm not joking, it just didn't click in my head! I'm just sitting there like ? @njuufa thank you!

I understand that but there's more resistance to becoming a leader, plus I'll be able to have a deeper more fulfilling LP if I take the hard route.

What I find really helpful is releasing I tend to only pop my weight on one foot when doing a task stood up e.g. brushing teeth, cooking. I should be stood firmly, with weight distributed evenly throughout each foot firmly on the ground. I also activate my Mula Bandha (pelvic floor) when doing anything stood up, bending, crawling, basically any posture which isn't rest positions. I find this also increases my body awareness. I also lead from my centre at all times, out of the mind and from my centre (core).

Love this! Really resonate with it. Whilst watching the wage slavery video I contemplated about being the 'leader' type and little voices where saying "you never have been the leader type Charlotte" and then I thought of instances in my life where I felt I portrayed excellent leadership type skill's. Another voice said "You still need your mum's opinion on stuff" And I thought "yeah okay, something I need to work on" so then I thought deeper about this belief I had, about wanting to stay a sheep and not being a 'natural born leader' as some people put it. I then realised ego wants me to stay a sheep for security purposes as leadership requires a massive fucking leap of faith. I also realised NOBODY is a 'natural born leader' or a sheep, we peg ourselves (I think) based on confidence, self esteem and beliefs. I then realised I can be a fucking leader and the resson I've stayed a sheep (and would of stayed a sheep) is purely based on beliefs...

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@Lynnel Oh I have them also ? Yeah you make a lot of sense, it does go too fast, we have like less than a year to cram everything in before 3 exam's, it's lots of information to digest ? but I chose it and I'll make it work somehow. Yeah I have awful memories of math back in school, I just remember being really shit at it ?

Each to their own but I'm more of a connection based individual, I'd never participate in 'casual sex' it's so egotistical and a massive turn off for me. I'm a 28yr old female.

If your an emotional person with high levels of stress you'll suffer with energy depletion meditate and relax more maybe?

Snap! ???

Sorry hijack the thread, @Leo Gura can I use kriya yoga if I have low back pain? I saw some postures which require jolting like movement from the waist that didn't look go for the back AT ALL

@Michael569 Cheers Michael ??