Charlotte

Exactly! @Serotoninluv A little lightbulb moment happened and I laughed ? awareness is curative

Watersports?

@Baotrader so good to hear from you brother ❤️ was thinking about you all day yesterday. You're aware of the minds rationalities as you haven't acted. You have already taken back part of the 'control' by being here ? Ride the waves graciously bro, your doing freaking awesome.

@zambize ??

@Arthur Fsir enough. Whatever works for you would be great if you documented it. @zambize @Arthur and guys please don't talk about where to source drugs from. Refer to the forums user guidelines. Thank you ?

No but they can still abuse it for the wrong reason's no?

*Blinks slowly* Woah ?

Excellent question to ask yourself if you use them regularly. Ultimately you can become addicted and abuse anything as I'm sure you already know that. In my opinion, only you will know if your starting to abuse them. But also, how are you supposed to embody your insights and contemplate on the lessons learnt if your jumping from trip to trip? Maybe first... Contemplate deeply using a journal on why your actually using them.

@Ar_Senses Can you not ask the doctor for blood tests? For checking your organs, vitamins, minerals, white blood cell count etc?

@Ray Try it and found out. Direct experience is king. Keep us posted and good luck!

Your at a stage where 99% of people will now quit. Do the opposite. Don't quit.

Sorry I meant the mental psychological 'self' image you created, not the physical one. Really interesting to read. Thanks for sharing

@Butters When the thoughts arise... Chose to consciously let them go in the moment. Straight away. No thinking. Just let go.... Just.keep.letting.go ?

@Sahil Pandit oh please do!

@zambize I appreciate your perspective, it's very interesting to read it from the opposite end of the scale. Is it hard to maintain the image you've created? Also how does it feel when you receive negative feedback?

Why do people seek approval from others? I'm going to talk from direct experience here as I did (and if I'm honest still do in small bits). It's incredibly low confidence, identity crisis, low self-esteem, low worth etc. They need to hear it from other because they value others opinion's greatly. Others are 'above' them in some way.

@Leo Gura ? no sorry... When I put... I meant it as in.. BLOODY HELL Leo! I weren't actually calling you Jesus. My British slang ?

I'd love your perspective on something that has occurred. I've been attending private therapy. I felt there was some unconscious repression going on and I wanted to unfold it. This therapist is like no other I've ever seen. She gives the humanistic approach which is why I chose her. In our last session I uncovered something huge which led me to truly feeling unconditional love. It just radiated through me for an amount of time. Today she asked me what had changed from our last session and I told her I was beginning to feel this boundless love. She asked me to locate it, where did it reside mostly in my body? I told her in my solar plexus. She then asked me the size of it so I showed her. She then asked what would have to happen for it to grow just a little bit? She said don't think the answer, feel it I said acceptance. She then said... Are you ready to let that love grow? Do you feel ready? I quickly replied No. I then broke down in absolute hysterics after realising this. I was crying and laughing at the same time (no joke). Something unbelievable just fucking hit me so hard, I was shaking, my temperature sored through the roof. Whatever she helped me uncover, floored me. I felt the most unbelievable joy I have ever experienced in my entire life. It was indescribable. It was like winning the lottery. Through crying eyes I asked why I wasn't ready... She said just accept it. I then realised fear is the reason I cannot accept it. She agreed. Any opinions?

Exactly. @Solace massively helped Solace, as always. Thank you deeply ❤️ @Leo Gura JESUS Leo... I've literally teared up reading your reply. It's touched something deep within. Things are starting to piece together, I feel like I'm slowly seeing the puzzle pieces come together. Fuck me this is deep. To surrender to love is to completely surrender the self. It really is. I can see it, I can feel it . OH MY GOD ? Thank you!!!

I onesies this

? Go crap ?

The self that wants/needs/desires ego death is itself sustaining the self. Let it go. No shit, just let it go. Become aware of the self sustaining mechanism.

?? I buy organic as much as possible and drink shit loads of purified water. Literally follow Leo's 'how to shop for healthy food' and also read 'how not die' by Michael greger. He's the shiz. Me now...

Exactly? Jesus ? Have a look at a typical healthy vegan diet. I go for 80% healthy af with 20% being my wiggle room for frozen pizza or eating out etc. "The gaaaaaainz" ?

I've been attending the gym, doing yoga twice a week eating one large plant based meal a day (nutritious most of the time) and I've just started building muscle for the first time in my entire life ?. What I'm trying to say is I've not necessarily been counting calories, just eating my one meal until I feel satisfied and also eating as close to nature as possible. Try not to over complicate it because you can easily get sucked in to all the muscle building hype.