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Love that. I feel like emotional connection is the key for me personally, without that it just feels kind of empty. Of course you do need to have physical attraction too, it goes without saying.

Sexual repression's such a tough one, because sexuality is simply a part of who we are - so when we repress our sexual energy, we're repressing ourselves, ultimately. I think the key thing is just accepting and integrating your own sexuality - it's a beautiful, intoxicating part of who you are, and repressing that aspect of yourself just isn't good for your well-being. I get it, though, it's something I've struggled with a lot in my own life - sexual repression goes hand-in-hand with emotional repression, it seems to me, I notice how aggressive my sexual expression tends to be when it's coming from an emotionally-repressed place. And, ugh, it's just not very pleasurable or loving, I fell madly in love with a woman recently and I couldn't imagine touching her with that sort of sexual aggression.

I remember a few years back when I was wrestling with thought, a question arose in my mind: What would it be like if I couldn't think? It was an interesting question to contemplate, to notice what sorts of emotions arose in response to the question - helped me to better-understand the role of thought in my life.

Notice what is preventing expansion.

Do practices like yoga and meditation that bring attention into the body. Intuition is something you feel rather than a mental process, so body-awareness is key to it I think.

Become intimate with that feeling of discomfort - notice exactly what it feels like in the body, and where exactly you feel it. If you notice pockets of tension in certain places in your body, allow those areas to relax and breathe. Notice any emotions that might also arise as you do this, and just allow them to be felt. The key is to feel.

Also very welcome.

You're very welcome.

Someone on another forum posted a supposed channelled message from Jesus the other day, funnily enough, in which he talks about why he came to earth - I thought it made for very interesting reading, so I figure I'll share it here: https://www.jeshua.net/about-us/who-is-jeshua/

Somatic therapy is very good, apparently: Link explaining what it is here.

The complete absence of inner resistance.

So true.

@Tristan12 Cheers buddy, really appreciate it. ?

@Tristan12 Cheers mate. Just feeling a bit sorry for myself, and then hating myself for it because I know it's not an attractive quality. I am gradually getting better, I think I'm just scared as much as anything (my inner child's always been a bit of a wreck ).

Ugh, I wish I couldn't relate to that last one so strongly. Why does my heart feel so bad? I feel like screaming. Or crying. Or punching something. Fuck everything. I'm so sick of it.

Makes sense. You can also gain a lot of insight from your mistakes, though, so he might still have gleaned some valuable insights from his past missteps.

The absence of the contraction of fear, the absence of which allows love to flow freely.

I watched some of it, I've listened to this sort of thing quite a lot over the years and it's in one ear and out the other at this point to be honest. I should probably just give up trying to wrap my head around it.

Seems to me that it's more like you'd be a traumatised, dysfunctional person who had a glimpse of enlightenment. Is it really possible to be traumatised and enlightened at the same time?

Speaking of which, here's another one she shared with me that I always loved:

@Tristan12 You're so welcome, glad you liked them! Yeah, the VAST song is just beautiful, isn't it? It was shared with me by the same wonderful woman who shared the very first song on this thread with me, funnily enough, which is also an achingly beautiful song (ah man, she had the most amazing taste in music).