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Diary of a sexually repressed girl

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On 13/03/2022 at 10:48 AM, Preety_India said:

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I feel sexy right now. 

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On 13/03/2022 at 0:11 PM, Preety_India said:

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On 14/03/2022 at 5:37 PM, Preety_India said:

Rarakrumi 

The archetype of the male or masculine snake. 

If the opponent surrenders he will protect. If the opponent Protests, he will punish.. Or refuse to protect. 

Rarakrumi is the male character 

The male Archetype is the snake and Rarakrumi exhibits traits of the snake Archetype. 

The mother goddess is the feminine archetype and her young daughter is Sarasiliya. She takes inspiration from her mother goddess Wadjet. 

The feminine represents the color blue and green. Blue for calm

The masculine represents the color red and yellow 

Red for attack and passion. 

Yellow for protection and direction.. 

 

Maintaining a balance between feminine and masculine depending on the situation. 

 

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Princess Jalveni

And the Snake Bhuragajar

The princess sleeps every night waiting for the snake to appear and fuck her. In return the snake provides her protection from enemies. This is a fictional story I created of a princess who has fallen in love with a snake that has all the masculine qualities. 

The snake lovingly wraps around her body and then enters her pussy and fucks her deep. She orgasms multiple times and then the snake slowly silently leaves. The snake comes every evening and night to wrap itself around her body. 

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Let's see the visualization for each character and deity. 

 

Rarakrumi

 

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Sarasiliya

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Princess Jalveni

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Snake Bhuragajar (deity) 

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mother goddess Wadjet(deity) 

 

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Just mother goddess (no name) 

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13 hours ago, Preety_India said:

Back to basics. 

Anyway.

I was thinking about masculine and feminine polarity. 

I was heating up the chemistry and intimacy between Rarakrumi and Sarasiliya. 

The feminine goddess daughter. 

The masculine rarakrumi (now don't  imagine some Greek statues :D

Rarakrumi is rather ugly looking. 

So you won't have the exact handsome masculine vibe here.. :P

So at first Sarasiliya is not exactly attracted to him. Can't blame her. xD

But he has to trick her to get into her vagina. 

He needs to do something after all. 

He tries to chase her around relentlessly. Making her feel owned. 

This is all about feminine sexual surrender. And it's not too holy or moralistic. 

In the end rarakrumi approaches her and let's her know that she either surrender to his wishes or hell will come. 

He got mercurial eyes, stares at her like a snake. 

He is diabolical and he will do anything to get her. 

He checks her ass. And thinks she is a fine piece. 

He tries hard to sexualize her as much as possible 

Sarasiliya tries to evade him. 

But he won't give up. 

He chases after her. 

I'm using a picture of an old Indian actor Jeevan to mimic his appearance 

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He looks at her, stares at her. He wants her. 

Rarakrumi chases her relentlessly.

He develops intimacy with her. Bonds with her. 

But Sarasiliya is still not attracted to him. She feels disconnected. 

 

 


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6 hours ago, Preety_India said:

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So the story of Rarakrumi and Sarasiliya continues. 

Rarakrumi has almost groomed Sarasiliya to become his. He is around her all the time. And he takes great care of her. Maybe over time Sarasiliya might fall in love with him but not for now. 

Rarakrumi is special, his masculinity is mercurial, seductive deep hypnotic like a snake, both frightening and beautiful. 

Rarakrumi gets her the most beautiful necklace he could buy. 

One night Rarakrumi sits next to Sarasiliya on her large oriental beautifully carved bed. And Sarasiliya complains of headache. Rarakrumi offers her a drink (which has been secretly spiked with a substance that can cause drowsiness and intoxication). She hesitates. Rarakrumi keeps pressuring her to drink. She drinks it full. After a few minutes, she begins to feel groggy and falls asleep on the bed. Rarakrumi then picks her up and takes her to the upper chamber. He puts her on the bed. 

This is his place. There are bodyguards and fences outside of his chamber so nobody can escape. 

After a few hours, Sarasiliya wakes up. And then she sees Rarakrumi sitting in front of her, staring at her with a deep hypnotic gaze. She asks him where she is to which he replies that it's his chamber. 

Sarasiliya's face is swept with deep fear and concern. She runs to the nearby pillar near a window (a large window) and cries vehemently with her arms around the pillar for support. 

Rarakrumi comes closer and assures her that everything is going to be okay, if she follows certain rules. He tells her that she is a captive now, she belongs to him, and only when she surrenders completely she can get out or escape from his palace, till then she will be with him, in his bed every night and he can do as he pleases and she won't have any right to protest. 

 

 

3 hours ago, Preety_India said:

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In old Indian movies it wasn't uncommon to make a woman give up herself (surrender her body). 

 

 


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2 hours ago, Preety_India said:

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At some point, Sarasiliya will surrender to Rarakrumi. This is the point of romantic fantasy. He loves sexualizing her and she has begun to like his seductive charm. 

They have sex. He forces her on to the bed. And he ties her up and begins to penetrate her deep. Then he gives her a deep kiss. She resists initially and acts coy but soon surrenders to his rapid  penetrations. Here Rarakrumi is displaying a Tarzan like masculinity. He owns her passivity and resistance in bed. He makes her weak and dominates her, he shows her who the real boss is. At the same time he isn't violent, just gentle and making her moan and whimper for more. He is deeply seducing her to the point where she cannot resist anymore. And she gives in. There's a feeling of relaxation on her face, it's like conjugal rape, I remember the scene from Gone with the Wind, where a drunk  Rhett Butler forcefully carries Scarlet up stairs and rapes his wife in bed and next day she wakes up liking it meanwhile he apologizes to her(women be damned :P, they always do the exact opposite of what you expect). 

This passionate scene between Rhett and Scarlett is the same kind of passion between Rarakrumi and Sarasiliya 

The conjugal rape scene. 

 

 

 

 


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2 hours ago, Preety_India said:

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It's over. The sexual tension. Rarakrumi has finally conquered Sarasiliya in bed. She is his. He owns her like a boss. She on the other hand has experienced a complete surrender. His vagina pulsating with the excitement and embarrassment of surrender, her femininity completely owned and conquered, she experiences a deep sexual rapture. The seductive charm of Rarakrumi binds her to him forever. The hypnotic snake has bitten her innocent pussy at last. She is no longer a Virgin. She is captured, groomed and made to surrender to the desire of a man who desperately wanted to penetrate and fuck her good. She is now his princess and consort. He makes her wait in bed every night for him. He makes her moan. He makes her want more. Pure sexual arousal and splendor. He brings out the feminine in her. He makes her whimper like a dirty girl. Now her body has turned into something else. She cannot hate her own body. Her body constantly craves his penis. She can't help it. It's like withdrawal symptoms if he is not around. She has little control over what her pussy wants. Her pussy desires to be fucked every night. Her body heats up like a hot oven, her breasts become firm, her nipples get hard, her whole body vibrates with sexual heat and passion, she feels orgasmic, she feels sexual and aroused automatically for his penis to penetrate her deep, she can't help it anymore. Her body is going wild with tenderness and this deep deep sexual desire to be fucked. Now her pussy starts pulsating and she can't control these vibrations. Rarakrumi smells her excitement and helplessness as soon as he enters the chamber and sees her struggling in bed. He takes off his clothes, undresses her carefully bit by bit, and proceeds to penetrate her the way he did the other night. Her body becomes tense and warm with sexual passion and she surrenders again and again and again and again to his ruthless penetrations. 

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In Hinduism we call it Vaasana or deep sexual pleasure. 

Now both Rarakrumi the snake like charmer and Sarasiliya are bound in this Vaasana state forever. 

 

 

1 hour ago, Preety_India said:

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Your penis is the snake that bites my pussy every night.

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And this is how it continues. 

 

 

 


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Because I wanted sexual satisfaction. Deep sexual satisfaction. 

 


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My sweet Schnuggle bun 

The snake has bit youand it will stay where it is never letting go, crowned by its jam my sexy princess. Crowned and Owned 

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I love you infinitely. I will find you forever in every life time because you and me are one. You and me eternally breathing life and bluming 

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12 minutes ago, Marcel said:

My sweet Schnuggle bun 

The snake has bit youand it will stay where it is never letting go, crowned by its jam my sexy princess. Crowned and Owned 

Yes my dearest husband. Love you. Kiss. 

 


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I feel quite relaxed right now after releasing all my sexual energy into this journal. 

 


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I'm happy today. 

 


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The sexual chemistry and intimacy between Rarakrumi and Sarasiliya. 

It's intense and liberating. 

 

 

 

 

 


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