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Just finished Leo's last video about the 9 stages of Ego Development, realized that i am a mix of Strategist and Construct-Aware with hints of Unitive stage. I can sense how magical and chaotic Reality is, at all times i have this altered perception like i am in a microdose of shrooms, then i realized that most of my unconscious behavior is motivated by fear of this whole process, an attempt to slow it down as much as possible. Although i rarely do formal spiritual practices, i am always in contemplation and "sadhana" mode in a day-to-day basis, i think this triggered a rapid consciousness expansion (if you know what i mean). Those last few years i have been in a groundless state, flowing with the ever-changing chaos, trying to be present and not resist it. Intellectually, i can see a causation link of all events of my life, but, in a strange sense, i have this feeling that there is no causation at all, like things are just "happening" and i have little to no control of it. This whole process made me super reclusive and silent as i rarely feel like i can truly relate with people anymore. Finally, i have been facing this issue with motivation after my normal state of consciousness passed through such rapid transformation. It is a real problem for me to REALLY want things like money, success, social life, stuff from stage orange. My consciousness became so fluid and relative that i have a hard time committing to anything, i fail to see the point but i know i am missing some essential part of the picture. Leo said a few times that he never had this problem, he sees life as a video game etc. I remember when i was at stage orange and i was motivated to earn money, make friends, have sex, have a great body shape etc. I am curious to learn how people that are in those stages deal with this purposeless/groundless situation.

Didn't he told his enlightenment story in his book? I thought this was common knowledge. I like him, he is on point with his letting go teaching.

Not entirely. The achievement also comes from Self-Esteem, meaning that if you don't have enough self-esteem to begin with, you won't even consider achieving anything outside of your comfort zone. Turns out that self-acceptance/self-love is a huge part of self-esteem. Without it, your self-talk is so negative, your ego-structure is so divided (a lot of shadow stuff pull you in all sorts of directions) that achievement becomes almost impossible. Self-acceptance means that you feel safe with yourself. As you feel safe, you try new and challenging stuff as you won't berate yourself every step of the way as someone with low self-esteem does. Let's say that you have some trauma around learning, someone called you dumb and was traumatic so you repressed the shit out of it. Now you don't accept any indication that you are not super smart, now you will feel bad anytime you don't act like a total genius, meaning that you will stay in your comfort zone forever, trying to protect your fragile sense of ego. Self-acceptance leads to a feeling of "that's ok" if i am not a genius or if i don't learn something right away, i trust in the process, even if it takes more time for me to learn than to most people, it's ok.

Well, to a materialist, psychedelics cause only meaningless hallucinations and the ones that use them are deceiving themselves. Also, the psychedelic experience is a threat to a materialistic world view, in fact, it was psychedelics that got me out of stage orange, i was an atheist, although pretty open-minded, so i experimented with psychedelics and went to ayahuasca sessions in heavily religious settings.

What? Do you mean like Ritalin or something like it? Stage orange people are exactly the ones who would totally use drugs to maximize learning (or Yellow but i guess yellow would look for more sustainable alternatives). Because they think everyone is Stage orange or bellow, so they are on the top. They also can see how simplistic, biased and delusional stages bellow can be and this can give them the appearance that their view is super intelligent.

Get the fuck away. If it is not possible to get away, minimize interaction time, don't chat, don't even be near the person. Negativity is toxic and contagious.

Acceptance is not the same as doing nothing. Acceptance is giving up the bitching and moaning part and go straight to the solution. If there is no solution, accept, and be at peace with it, but most things in life are not like that.

Psychedelics will blown your paradigm into dust.

I like his videos, he brings an interesting perspective of the journey.

Yeah but there are different strategies. One can be toxic dominant and aggressive and the other toxic codependent and needy. Either way, i get the fuck away from both of them. I have met a lot of people that i consider toxic but superficially seem like the nicest person ever. My grandmother is like that, she puts a super nice facade, smiling, doing things for you and appear non-threatening but when she is positive she can't get what she wants from you, she will turn against you in a blink of an eye. She talks bad about X to you and bad about you to X. She is super needy, talks non-stop the first chance she gets and she gives no fucks about the other person, all she wants is someone to pay her attention at all costs. She can talk to you 1h on the phone without any need for you to say anything. Again, at first glance, she is the nicest lady ever and i am sure she believes it because she does all of that with ZERO self-awareness and self-reflection. She is literally an energy vampire and will drain your life out of you. Her life is a mess and everyone around her is a mess. This can sound harsh but, truly, i don't want to be even near her because it's ALWAYS a losing situation.

Try again, maybe is subconscious resistance. This is often the case with therapeutic tools. My father drank ayahuasca a couple of times and didn't felt a thing (according to him). I wouldn't belive in him if i hadn't heard of a few cases like that. My suggestion: try again and again until it "works".

He really is

Your post smells like codependency behavior. Toxic people are in a negative spiral, it has momentum and will drag anything with them. Unless you are some super enlightened master who can elevate the frequency of those around you, get the fuck away. Go work on yourself and find people who do the same. Stop trying to save a drowning person if you yourself barely know how to swim.

Nudes. I am dead serious.

Thanks I am always alert for this, luckily, i am super intuitive about people, I can read people pretty good.

Yeah, i know, i know... It is sad that we can't have a raw communication like that. "Let's just hear what this wise person REEEEALLY thinks about anything". We could learn so freaking much! This is possible in 1-on-1 conversations where nothing is being recorded, though.

Whatever, dude, i couldn't care less with this "is this a cult or not" debate. I pay attention to the message, and I decide what I do with if it, all I want is to learn, evolve. If I respect the person and I consider them wise, I do this exercise of "what if it is true?" when learning from them, it keeps my mind open and I learn a LOT more than if I listen to them making judgments about how delusional they are. It is like mindful learning. Most people are too reactive and judgmental to what is told to them, especially if it does not fit their narrow reality model. To me, this is a sad waste.

Bro, don't give me that filtered shit, i want the raw truth, fuck those people who are close-minded and stuck in this judgmental state. If it is only for 5% of your followers, so be it. Share it. SHARE IT!!!!!11

Sex on LSD. Make-up sex. And the few occasions where I didn't had to be concern with cumming (mostly due to substances use like LSD, alcohol and MDMA) but still maintained a full erection. In those, I could be fully present and give everything to the girl who came/squirted over and over again.

Stage orange can't differentiate green/turquoise from red/blue.

He does have some good points where the aversion to authority can be caused by unbalanced masculinity, as we reject it in ourselves, we reject in the world. Our ability to accept authority can be reflected in our relationship with ourselves, as we also reject our own authority, making decisions, following plans and being self-disciplined is almost impossible because it is constantly met with unconscious rejection. But he is completely delusional about Trump being a good masculine role-model. He fails to see how unreliable and selfish Trump is, which is the opposite of a good masculine leader. Yes, Trump has some strong traits, you don't become president of the US by accident, you could see this in debates where his strong frame demolished his opponents. The problem is that he is so unconscious and narcissistic that giving him power is like giving a loaded AK-47 to an overly-ambitious chimp.

Schizoids are also unaware of his feelings, emotions and body, which will be a bottle-neck to his self-development. They lack root, ground, how do you want to reach the sky without a proper foundation? Their path is not the path of the mind, but the path of the body, because that's where their biggest weakness lies. Without a solid ground, trying to go too high can be dangerous, one step away from schizophrenia. As a schizoid myself, I noticed that most of my "natural tendencies" are, in fact, an escape. As we run to our heads to escape our bodies, we run from people and the world. Yes, we have this contemplation skill developed through a lifetime of being in our heads but we also can have massive blind-spots due to lack of connection with the body, which can be disastrous, in my experience. Don't ever underestimate the wisdom of the body and feelings. That's how our higher-self communicate, not through our logical mind, where any intuitive thought would be drowned out among a continuous stream of random and useless thoughts.

I don't know, man, if you read their books you will notice that the authors also complain about the same stuff that we see today like people wasting their lives distracting themselves endlessly, eating copious amounts to satisfy animal desires for stimulation, chronic negative thoughts, low self-esteem, lacking focus/concentration, lacking presence etc. I guess all those things are relative, life doesn't come with manuals, even if there is fewer things to distract yourself, the ego-mind will find a way,

I love the New Thought Movement, a lot of great little-known gems like this one. The fathers of modern self-development books.

@Aspiraling Wizard Blank mind = no thoughts = peace Doesn't matter if you call him beta or alpha