Florian

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    @Leo Gura But another question. If I would awaken could I still be following the life purpose of becoming the perfect fighter/boxer or would this melt away? I mean at first glance this seems like a "foul" life purpose. Not really "loving" and even though I think that I know that it is actually loving (I guess in the end it is loving regardless)  because of my background motives I'm still kinda unsure whether I am actually just deceiving myself with this life purpose. (I have a journal about my life purpose on this forum where I get deep into it, so if you have some time to waste you can read it)

  6. Posted

    5 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

     

    No, because you are asking for a contradiction. You asking asking God to create a cat which is actually a dog. Even God cannot do that. You must be clear and consistent about what you want God to create. You can't ask for a cat and then complain that it doesn't look like a dog.

     

    Brainfuck. Why can't god do that? Isnt it like that already? Aren't you just deceiving yourself that god can't do that just like you are explaining it?

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    Yesterday I read in some post on this forum that you have to invest at least 4 hours a day into your one thing to master it. So today I tried to spend 4 hours mastering my craft. Until now I did 1 hour and 4mins of feeling my body and doing various excercises from the book Zen-Body Being then I had a break for 15mins and then I did 42 mins of reading the book Five Rings by Miyamoto Musashi and writing down notes + just contemplating what I just read and thinking it out more and thinking deeper into it (my zone of genius). Then I made a break for 10-15mins and now I am writing this here. I think it's enough for today even if I didn't manage to do the 4 hours. Before I started with the body feeling excersises I set the timer to 1 hour 30 mins but I couldnt do it and then I set the timer for 1 hour for the reading and contemplating but I couldnt do it either. I kinda expected that and I mainly wanted to see where my limits are and how much more I have to grow to be able to spend 4 hours a day practising deliberatly. I still have more then half of the day and I could do more and maybe I will do some letting go or some sport but it's fine either way.

    Tomorrow I will try fixing my sleep schedule again since I fucked up again. I will try to wake up 10am and then keep my alarm at 10am.

    Starting monday I will add going out and observing people to my routine building since I noticed that sitting down and letting stuff go for 10mins a day is easy (until now at least) and I have energy to do more. But I might also add more to letting go like contemplating about a topic where I want to become more free and writing down exactly what I want to let go to become more free. So my letting go routine might be looking like this then: 10min selecting a topic, thinking about it and writing down how I hold myself back -> 10mins of letting this stuff go.

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    I just had this realization: The perfect fighter doesn't fight.

    Why? Well, I guess this is relative to my definition of a fighter but if a fighter is better the more free he is and the more he is able to control his opponent  (he is doing this by using his opponents fear whether it's done conciously or not) then he is perfect when he has no fears but why would he fight if he has no fear? -> I see now my definition of a fighter is one who acts out of fear but maybe it's possible to fight somebody and act out of love I guess

    (Because a fighter uses his opponents fears to control him and eventually win the fight but this need to control his opponent and win the fight is just motivated by his own fears, so if he gets rid of his own fears he has no motivation to fight anymore.)

  9. Posted · Edited by Florian

    Sleep pattern now: -Get rid of all computer screens after 9pm

                                       -wake up and get out of bed before 10am

    -> after one week of this, next routine start and +5mins onto feeling exercise (21.07)

  13. Posted · Edited by Florian

    @Preety_India it's about letting go emotions. The book about it is on Leos booklist. I think it's just called The Sedona Method and it's written by Hale Dwoskin

    Edit: Basically it's about letting go asking yourself some questions, but there is also this great explanation about 4 deeper wishes that every human being has that are the cause for those emotions in the first place. You can let these wishes go as well and then it clears you up a lot deeper. The wishes are the wish for control, recogniton/love, security and being seperated. Obviously to understand those you should read the book, if you want me to write more about it I can do that though.

  14. Posted

    13 hours ago, Preety_India said:

     

    I will see if I can put my witchcraft to any use. 

     

     

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    What did you mean by that?

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    Have you ever heard of the Sedona Method? I just read this whole journal and thought to myself that the Sedona Method could help you a lot. Probaply because I just use it so much and to me it's like I guess what 5-Meo-DMT is to many people here (don't take this too serious I don't know much about psychedelics it just seems like many see it as the pill for everything here)

     

  15. Posted · Edited by Florian

    First step in a fight: reading the opponent (grasp their rythm) (understand their identity)

    How?: -body language might help

                -maybe there are certain patterns in humans like personality types I can use to identify my opponents rythm

                -test him by testing his possible fears and seeing his reaction (body language can help here)

                -observing my opponent while feeling rather then thinking to grasp his rythm feelingly

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    Today I tried to fix my sleep. Used to go to bed at 4-5am and woke up 3-4pm. Managed to get up at 8am today but slept around an hour during the day. Then in the evening a few hours before I wanted to go to bed I started feeling really sick and it got so bad that I could only sit down in the bathroom with a big headache feeling like I have to puke... Couldn't even get downstairs to eat something... So I went to bed too early and woke up an hour after....... that sucks hard cause even though I was feeling relatively fine again now I can't sleep...

  22. Posted · Edited by Florian

    I'm 19 right now btw and I am thinking about killing myself if I failed when I am 30. Not necessarily because of depression but rather because it gives me a feeling of freedom right now to think about it that way (I have nothing to lose and I will be free if I fail anyways) + it might also be some kind of motivation to have my life on the line with all this (like David Deida wrote in The way of the superior man that when you tell a male friend of yours about one of your goals you say to him that you will give him 1000 dollars or something like that if you fail.. I just remembered that right now and it feels like its fitting here). These points kinda contridict each other though right?.. Maybe I am just deluding myself with this and I am actually just still thinking about killing myself because I still am depressed deep down.

    EDIT: maybe I am not deluding myself because even if you lose for example 1000 dollars after failing a goal it's kinda giving you freedom anyways and the thought of dying if I fail is also giving me a feeling of freedom, so actually not contradicting each other?

  25. Posted

    Things I work on after I built current things into my homeostasis: -eating healthy, cooking for myself

                                                                                                                         -sleeping healthy

                                                                                                                         -stretching 

                                                                                                                         -Sport (strength, endurance)

                                                                                                                         -reading

                                                                                                                         -contemplatiing/thinking about fighting etc.

                                                                                                                         -fasting once a week 24h

                                                                                                                         -going outside and observing people, learning to read body-language

                                                                                                                         -getting rid of porn addiction (probaply completly quitting porn)

                                                                                                                         -getting rid of videogame addiction

                                                                                                                         -stop wasting time on YouTube/getting rid of YouTube/internet addiction