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@Shin Yes for a decade straight. Im on every popular app and website in my country. I got 3 dates out of it total which ended in rejection.

@Shin I dont know what the fuck happened. 5 Years ago I would have said its just a string bad luck, "dont worry too much , by the time you are 30 you will surely have gotten SOME experience, its ridiculous to assume nothing will happen in 5 whole years I mean you are just a normal guy". That was my mindset back then and well here we are. This shit is holding me up in my spiritual work so much, I cant even think about taking a psychedelic in my current state of mind. I just want to get past this relationship bullshit and move on, but I just know I cant until I figured it out. I know it wont fullfill me on paper but I cant move past it.

@Nahm Im working though 6 pillars of self esteem exercises right now @Shin edit

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Thanks to everyone who replied I was a bit drunk and at a bad place emotionally. Its better today and im working through the emotions. @SFRL Im not

I dont get it. I dont know how to do it. I sit there and feel the emotions, depression feels like a cramp in my lower stomach and pressure on my chest. I can sit there and say "okay now just allow it" but its all intellectual. In my head I think it shold be some kind of release and maybe some tears in my eyes. I think that would feel good but I cant actually do it, I dont know what I am supposed to do Im too much in my head. I usually just there silently in my room looking into the air, feeling nothing but that pressure, slowly but steady suffering. Does anyone have any idea on how to make progress on this?

I have problems integrating this paradox regarding negative emotions. You should accept emotions and allow yourself to feel them. So it doesnt matter if you accept them or not, you have to suffer through and feel them anyway. BUT once you accept and feel them fully they are often released and you feel better. But when you accept them with the intention of getting rid of them it wont work. Thats why I find the "letting go of emotions" releasing question from sedona a bit misleading and I often use the "accept the emotions" one, but I often find myself accepting only to feel better because that helped in the past and it wont work. So how do you properly work with this so you dont have the intention of feeling better?

@non_nothing how do you not suffer if it feels unpleasent, makes your mind go crazy and wont let you sleep?

@Leo Gura Can we get a wiki or something where we can put all the information gathered in the threads together? it wouldnt even have to be hosted here, just recommended. No newbie is reading through 60 pages.

Will the talks you give there be recorded and posted on the blog or something?

@NoSelfSelfbut once you even show the slightest bit of interrest in their head it goes "ok, I can have him whenever I want. Not interrested". How do people even get toghether? I dont get it. It cant be that hard because everyone does it but for me it feels like an endless maze.

@Shin but how can you show any interrest or get into contact at all if literally everything is needy? Its driving me nuts.

If God created infinite experiences in an instant what is intelligent about that? If its simply all the possibilites that exist thats about as intelligent as brute forcing a password? What is the purpose of my life if my exact life exists in infinite ways with just slight variations and my ego just plays out one of the infinite ways my life could unfold? Its like that filmreel methapor where star wars could be filmed in an infinite number of ways. Who cares about or what is the purpose of the version of star wars where laser swords are 0.1 inches longer?

Has anybody some techniques that are basically mechanical step by step processes to raise self esteem that I can do? I'm just not the kind of guy who reads something and then everything clicks or whatever should happen. Everything I read for me is just information stored on a very unemotional surface level. I also don't want to go out and do crazy shit in public and stuff like that. I want to work at it alone from my home. Bonus Question: Are all emotional problems like depression somehow linked to self esteem? It seems like a big part of a healthy ego. I know my ego is not healthy because I get shit automatic thoughts throughout the day that bring me down. At the time I'm just trying to brute force against it with daily hour long positive affirmations.

Maybe its just my eyesight gettiing worse but sometimes after yoga the straight lines on objects, for example the edge of a table gets wobbly. Can this happen from yoga or am I just bullshitting myself? I do kriya daily for 2 months now.

I could basically make any game I wanted, im that good at programming. It just has to be 2D because everything else would be too much for a single person. I can make music and sound effects myself too. There is a lot of potential. I couldnt compete with big studios but thats not what I'm after, I dont want good graphics or tell a hollywood story. What I'm after is some genius game mechanic or idea. Like what minecraft, tetris or pokemon was. Just something that wasnt there before in any way. I'm brainstorming in the back of my head for years now but all ideas are just ideas that already exist or combinations of various existing things and im not motivated to start working when im not 100% passionate about it. How can you get that AHA moment that just puts a genius idea into you head and makes everything fall into place? Is every idea really just a rehash of existing things? How to get your mind truly outside the box?

@Aimblack any guides for posture?

I found it, you are all wrong! I saw it in his commonplace book video. It's Jenkem. More Info: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jenkem First enlightenment goes in the butt, now enlightenment comes out of the butt. This is a great example of things going full circle!

If a girl starts talking about whats bothering her and how she feels about life you are officially friendzoned right? Often there is shallow talk phase when I meet someone at first, and after a while when we know eachother girls tend to open up to me. How could I not always immediately let it get this way? She wouldnt open up to someone she is attracted to right? In the past I thought this means were getting closer but now I just roll my eyes when this shit starts, she just uses me to unload her emotions.

I dont know why Leo didnt mention this one as it is relatively well known in nootropic circles. It is less of a brain enhancement nootropic and more of a social lubricant altough it apparently has some brain benefits. It lasts a long time (12+ hours), is cheap and lowers your inhibitions but not like alocohol, people usually wont be able to tell you are on something. It can be used as a tool for dating, social anxiety, important business meetings and so on. Physical addiction is a thing with this one but I personally dont find it very addictive, but if you do it daily you will get withdrawal since it works on the GABA receptor like alcohol and benzodiazepines.

Anybody know which strechting exercises one can do to do maha mudra properly? I have two problems 1. I cant bend forward without bending my knee 2. I cant put my heel between my ballsack and asshole and still keep the foot straight so that I have room to put the other foot forward. I have my heel a bit in frontnot touching me.

I think every man has made the experience that after opening up emotionally to a girl that the girl loses attraction basically instantly. Thats why most guys are stoic, because that is the behaviour that is rewarded by women. Also, David Deida says femininity is emotional while masculinity is to be like a rock, undisturbed by the waves. Its better to deal with your emotions yourself as a man.

Its clear that if you try to think of nothing like during meditation random thoughts will come if you want it or not. But why does it seem that you can take conscious control of thought when you want to think of something specific and direct your mind? So do you have control over mind or do you not ? Mind at my level of consciousness seeems like a tool to me, a tool you can pick up but when you lay it down it doesnt turn off and still creates a lot of background noise.

I often see myself debating people and ideas here because I want to know how I am wrong and maybe gain a new perspective. If its about being right and just convincing myself to be right I wont even engage in discussion on the internet. But I will sometimes point bullshit out in others in real life .

Can someone just lock this thread please, I was starting it with a genuine question and its turning into a pity party once again.