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Leo explains it well in this video. Also, if you don't study, you don't know what you want. And yes,

I think, I am not the only one who got inspired by your last retreat. I would like to see a guide on planning a retreat. I am also thinking about doing a meditation retreat at home, so I think that this would be useful. @Leo Gura, what do you think?

You literally breaking your own "rule". And I am not hitting myself with a metaphorical hammer. It's the best description of what I thought and felt. (I need to check your Shadow Work post though )

Hey everyone! My question is really serious, if I choose badly, I will piss away a heck alot of time and emotional labor. I am 14, I started this journey around 4 months ago. I came to know that the self is an illusion (not enlightment though), I am becoming more conscious of the fact what is worth doing. I think I watched 30+ hours of Leo's content, and it changed my preception of life. I came to a place where I think I need to decide how I should get emotional "control" and "control" over my "negative" emotions. I think I have 2 options: to experience pain to the point where suffering is no more, or I should find the beauty in physical and mental pain. I started doing Strong Determination "Lying" (because I am lying on my back when I meditate) combined with the Do Nothing technique for only around 30 minutes a day and I see drastic changes. I started seeing seperation between pain and suffering. It worked until I took a day off. After that day, I started becoming a fucking victim again and blaming others when I know deep inside that I am just a weak minded fucker. On the other hand, I am planning to become a (both materialistic and lifestyle) minimalist this summer and I have experienced finding beauty in everything a few times. One time I was sitting on a bus and looking through the window, I almost started crying seeing the beauty of nature and human engineering. This path seems valid too, but I find slowing down difficult (especially with exams comin' up and I don't have the right priorities in life). I see both paths valid. Which should I choose? Should I do both of these things? Are there other options? Thank you for your answers, I really appreciate 'em alot!

@Nahm Thank you for making me awere of my own stupidity! I can do Strong Determination Sitting while just enjoying the present moment. @Visionary Can't be finding the beauty in everything just a surface level solution, aka fake growth? This caused me to seek help. Please write about your experiences! @SOUL Never thought of doing this through visualization! Thanks, awesome idea! Just to update you, I am really thinking about the "finding the beauty in everything" option. It would cover more things in "Leo's Sage Checklist", which is required to live a good life. Thank you for all of your answers so far!

Hello, hope you are getting better! I have little experience with these kinds of existencial crises, but I will try to answer you questions. It may seem like that this mindstate will never go away, but nothing is permanent. Even though it may feel permanent, you can still get through it. According to Leo's research, it's a life of a sage. It can be painful to get to - your ego will mess with you alot, it will beg you to live an unconscious life. Notice that "negative" emotions always come from the inside, and that awereness alone is curative. Because the ego wants it's desires to be fulfilled. If it does not get happiness, pleasure or anything what it values as "positive", it will feel bad. And no, there is no absolute good and bad, it can be proved by logic and direct experience. All religions, cultures and people can have different ideas of "good" and "bad" and you can't prove any of them right. This is where I need to be very careful, otherwise I could fuck you up. An easier solution would be to chase pleasure if you can. Go out and find what makes you happy and do it! You will understand that there is better alternatives than being depressed and not doing anything against it. A harder, but more productive solution would be to see how you have low consciousness and dig into your depression. Watch yourself being depressed and see how you create the situation. Go, contemplate and meditate! Get the most out of it to raise your consciousness! Hope I helped you! I wish you the best!