@zambize Thanks alot I apreciate brother,I din't expected even a response so I'm glad this works. Yea I try those things but seems very difficult (and I'm aware what is emotionally hard is key) but is like I had this mental block trauma thing wish doesnt allow me. I go outside and I already start panicking/fight and flight response, is like a negative spiral thing,I try be positive but my mind doesn't allow me much. I did some journaling,but seems not taking anywhere yet,definitely helps for organize.
@Serotoninluv Gracias/Thanks,daily I do educate myself from the medicine so when I do it I sort of prepare what would happen still I have to let myself go and expectations.
Thanks both of you guys for respond,means alot.