FractalFlux

I somehow ended up designing and printing these flashy, esoteric, strange-loopy actualized.org stickers Imagine walking through your city, seeing this sticker, discovering actualized.org and having your life changed as a result. If someone is open to the kind of topics Leo talks about the design will speak to him/her. I will only leave them in places where it won't annoy people (no store fronts, cars, street signs or stuff like that). Selected spots with uplifting atmosphere. Maybe you don't care about this at all, maybe you think it is a cool idea, maybe you want to do the same. So feel free to design your own stickers, or message me if you want the file. Let's spread the message! Love

@Keyhole If Leo's Logo is actually widely associated with paedophilia that is a problem that goes beyond me using it on stickers.. If the logo is changed I'll change the design That association is certainly not made where I'm from. Oh and by the way; Reality itself is a cult lol

@Moreira That is actually the first legit concern I've heard. However watching one or two of the videos should clarify that @Keyhole Who in their right mind who hasn't heard of the FBI bullshit would associate Leos triangle with paedophilia lol

Thank you for expressing ~it~ so eloquently

Whoa this is escalating. I like it. Of course I know I used a lot of weird symbolism, including the literal illuminati eye, but I also know what it really means lol I guess no answer is also an answer @Leo Gura Posting stickers in public areas is considered either littering or vandalism and is obviously illegal. I would therefore like to officially let all you good, law-abiding citizens know that: I have taken half the stickers and stuck them to the inside walls of my secret cult hut. I have taken the other half and thrown them into the trash. If the stickers somehow end up in the streets anyways that must mean an individual completely unrelated to Leo or myself has taken them out of that public trash bin and distributed them out of his/her own will. Peace

@Leo Gura Any objections?

@Kidorikko Thank you! Just playing my part I'm sure there is some good stuff in your native language as well that you can share with people @tenta ...no oh?

@Hansu Thank you kind sir Actually I just went with the cheapest "shiny" outdoor material. In my design the Eye and the Ouroboros are white, I only found out after ordering that with this material "white surfaces appear silver". But it turned out great, I even prefer this over the white version, couldn't have gone any better lol

Haven't experienced this in sober meditation yet but sounds like mdma

Blablablabla All the nodual stuff is pointless

Aaaw that's a tricky one. I'd say both yes and no - it is a strange loop Shoot clear light through a prism and you get a rainbow. The chakras are like the individual colours of that rainbow. Do they exist on their own? Not really. The chakras are a reflection of the mind-matrix used for creation. They are the different aspects of the divine (clear/white light). With kundalini and nondual states they merge back into One (or "None" if you prefer). It is possible to perceive reality through the lens/layer of pure energy/chakras/nadis. Had a few of these experiences myself. So are chakras really real? Yes... no.. Do you really exist?

@Nahm Insanity is a good keyword :): @OBEler get your basics right before tripping again! Leo talks about this a lot. Take care of your body (body is mind!), and trust that "ordinary reality" is the same as "God-reality". But don't just believe that it is true, act like it is true! (Because, you know, it is ) I do daily Kriya Yoga + I seem to have an inclination towards consciously exposing myself to darkness / shadow stuff from time to time while nonetheless staying focused on Love/Light/Truth and all that other hippie mumbo jumbo apart from that idk, I have always been drawn to this stuff naturally @Leo Gura Cheers!

Long story short: The ultimate nature is playful I am eternal I am timeless I delight in my own creation Short story long: Hello friends It has been a while Nine months have passed since I fried my ass off with 200µg of LSD last Septemeber. After a lot of integration and working on myself in everyday life I found myself in a good spot to drop some acid again. Once more tripping all alone; no tripsitter, no safety nets. This time at an isolated place in a nature reserve where I am currently working but with half the dose – 100µg of LSD. I was worried the acid might have lost some of it’s potency due to being stored at room temperature for over a year now, but these worries were unjustified In comparison to my last trip: Less visuals, less sacred geometry. No Kechari Mudra this time ;-) Deeper, more raw energetic kundalini stuff + some surprises More Death | more Non-Dual | more Love ! So here’s what happened: 18:00pm : I drop the tab, read “The teachings of Don Juan” and listened to the fabulous “Leylines” Album by Aes Dana. ~18:45pm: Can't read anymore, I start dancing. Dancing is great way in & out of the trip. Strong desire to be more aware of my body. Exploring energy moving through the shoulders and neck – I should straighten up my posture! Only slight patterns and visuals at this point, but my mind is already going places.. After some dancing I come to a dead end, gently drop to the floor, arms out to the sides, and watch myself die. I seem to somehow have skipped the comeup and directly went from "barely any effect" to "full blow trip"! Tingling at the base of the spine, light in my head. Here the unspeakable territory of yogic states begins. This is what I saw Dry analysis is ego, Light shines through in emotions This life is my offering to you, Shiva Angels and demons guard the same door Ravenous energies moving up the spine With pleasure I kiss shut deaths eye How does a self self-terminate? In the end there is nothing you do, you just give in to what was your deepest desire all along – you surrender and explode in ecstasy! There was no-Self to begin with! Oh dear Lord! Self-awareness kicks back in, but the meditator within me doesn’t want the endless orgasm to end – “I can last longer!” – so he keeps the body unmoving and goes for some more rounds on the strange-loop of (non)existence. I arise from my ecstatic slumber. I get up and go the bathroom, pulled by strings beyond my control, and face myself in the mirror. Hard to explain what happened there. I see myself as I am, with all my tensions and imperfections. My face morphs through various beings, from angelic benevolent rabbits to demonic shapeshifting lizards. From time to time my reflection disappears comepletely, leaving just the empty bathroom. I take off my clothes, look at my body. Imperfect by flawless design. Divine, tempting! I watch myself transform into a woman – androgynous mastermind Goddamn shapeshifters! ;-) I walk back to the living room and sit down on the floor, meditation posture. I vividly experience “energetic blockages” in the right side of my body, specifically in the right abdomen slightly above the navel. Left is conscious, right is unconscious. I had been increasingly aware of several “dysfunctions” on the right side of my body over the last months, now it all was very clear. The root of the energetic distortion lies deep within the right side of the pelvis, hard to explain. This is my karma, this is the work I have to do! For the first time I connect this to the appendectomy I had 10 years ago. I repressed the entire procedure! I let the memories surface with as much love and awareness as possible. Funny to look at it from the nondual perspective; I cut out a party of myself Because it would have killed me Interesting That was the first part of the trip, the peak; Surrendering, experiencing some esoteric/mystic/ occult/ecstatic far far out stuff you can’t talk about without being tackled from left and right, merging with the Absolute, reentering into karmic existence and clearing out some baggage on the way. Lovely. The second part of the trip was all about embodiment of nondual consciousness and how I fail at doing that. Huge lesson. Here's what happened: I stand up as God, as Myself. I look out of the window; flawless nature, the sun is setting. I gaze into the sun. Aligning the small ego self with the big Godself. Merging with love, drowning in love Infinite Pleasure, Infinite Love, Infinite Death, Infinite Anything Hey, babe… I’m the sun I love it all so much; I want to go outside, I want to be with my creation! Egoic fear starts surfacing. I know I am all alone out here in nature, but it could be possible for some coworkers to come by. They can’t see me like this, walking through the garden, all ego-less!? Inner conflict. The same resistance you feel when for the first time engaging someone you truly love; fear of how it will turn out, fear of the unknown. But an irresistible urge to do so anyways. You have to trust, and step forward with love! I put on some shorts (huge mistake! :D) and made my way outside. Why did I even lock the door? Was I afraid someone would come by, rob, rape and murder me? I just kicked in my own front door and shot myself in the head! (with Love) Nothing to be afraid of now, hahaha It feels good to be outside But there are still old patterns, memories… God would have just walked off into the wilderness I turned right and slowly, consciously, step by step approached the garden and with it my synchronicity moment of the year, a funny little allegory about psychedelics and God-Consciousness; God-Me walks into his garden and sees a rabbit, feasting and nibbling on the tasty, fresh and young strawberries God-Me had planet just a week ago. Gotcha! God-Me stands still and intensely focuses his piercing gaze on the God-Rabbit. The rabbit abruptly stops eating, crouches and contracts in fear. God-Me loosens his tight gaze, squats down, extends his hand and mentally says “It’s okay you little rascal, come here, I want to love you!” The rabbit runs away. What a shame, I just wanted to love it. I sit down and reflect. If I really am myself, the rabbit, the strawberries and the garden, what does this mean? No time to reflect. I hear the sound of an approaching car - coworkers incoming!! They can’t see me like this, sitting in the garden all ego-less! With fear I contract and run back into the house. I am the rabbit! I want it to happen without drugs, that’s the only excuse I have Fear is the basic mechanism of separation; fear of Death, fear of Love, fear of Self Back inside, back inside my egoic safe space. I realize there was no car approaching at all. I just imagined it. What a shame, I could have just loved it. Too much of this love kills me Inside I sit in meditation and contemplate what just happened. I realize I have to give it another try, I have to come out of hiding. In addition to the shorts I put on a shirt and again venture outside. Now I feel more comfortable about being outside. I have to slowly adjust myself to these new levels of consciousness. So much energy in the system. I sit in meditation. Again I hear the sound of a car approaching. Same old fear, wanting to run inside. But NO! I am creating this! And I choose to create out of Love, not out of fear! I sit still. No coworkers. So much energy!! I get up and spontaneously do some impromptu Tai-Chi / Kung-Fu / Martial Arts. So that’s what that stuff is all about! Most of it must have looked uncoordinated and weird – my first real training session! Some of those movements however… If you really focus, intensely zone in… Mind&Matter moving together This is how God creates! Directly – effortless will I TaiChi-myself into a fascinating realization: Who cares about a few mosquito bites… I am a motherucking MACHINE ELF! The intelligence that guides the separation, the code that runs the divine operating system! Eternally recreating myself… My heart bursts open, it feels so good to be back, I missed myself so much! Like a father, like a mother, like a son, like a daughter, like a brother, like a sister, like a teacher, like a friend, like a lover “I love you!” Is that really true? “Sure babe, I’d tell you anything. I AM you!” Not much happened after that, I was just awake for 6 more hours. I meditated in the house, again naked but wrapped in a blanket, exploring visions of myself as a Sage, bathing in this new awareness. Dealing with the aftermath of chemically induced kundalini, trying to get the energy out of the system… Then I fell asleep at around 6:00am Takeaways from the trip: Love! A call to authenticity and spontaneity! I already am on that path, just gotta keep on walking… The destination is radical but it is worth it! (+there is no other option lol) Getting more grounded in the body! More Yoga, maybe start doing TaiChi. There were two more paragraphs I wanted to write. One about how I failed my own Zen Koan challenge (realized the answer but didn’t act it out). The other about Love only being perceived when there is something to be loved. But I don’t know how to express that without starting nonduality-wars ;-) So I’ll just leave it at that. Here’s a goodie for you to chew on: I am that I (1) create the Two (and remain in between) Did you get it? Love you all!

GoT has many cool hints at archetypes, nonduality and consciousness, GRRM seems to be on to something That is probably part of the reason it has become so successful. The Faceless Men always reminded me of a Zen Monastery, the only part that is fantasy is that they are assassins that kill for money and are literally shapeshifting You enter through a door of black & white, leave your personality behind and train to become nobody, and you are beaten with sticks in the process The hall of faces reminds me of the net of being, just portrayed with a little hellish touch^^ When you are no-one, you are everyone!

Good One

Spontaneous and authentic Laughter is a direct connection to Source, Light shines through all the layers of bullshit

@kieranperez Well said. After all acid is just another drug, the trip is yourself You are the only person that knows what's right for you. Deep down you know what to do, just listen

Don't expect the LSD to give you a seven-point-plan to achieving your life purpose and dream goals. It only amplifies and thereby reveals what is already there. If set and setting are right and you are able to surrender it will chemically override all your personal mental BS (=ego=conditioning) and it will be clear that what you really are is nothing but loving awareness. All you want is love (=consciousness=harmony=You) in what ever form you are chasing it this time around. On the peak of LSD you are just that, sought & found, mystery & revelation. Nowhere to go, nothing to achieve. It is all right here. But you will come down. The LSD only shows you the possibility, your sober mind still will have to get its shit together and accept the calling. So yeah, no quick fix. I still think you should take it, 100µg is enough. I have experienced first hand and observed in friends that the initial awakening, induced chemically or not, simply blows a certain amount of conditioning out of the system. That's what happened to the people talking about life changing trips It is hard to get the motivation to keep on walking if you don't know where the road leads in the end. If you decide to trip, and "bad stuff" comes up, things get dark and demonic: Surrender. You are not in control anyways. Surrender. Die! (in death we are One). Be reborn. Embody the source Hope this helps. If you trip, I would love to read a trip report

Weird, isn't it? The poles of duality originate from the same source It is all one, and because it is one, it unfolds in harmony Check out the I-Ching

@Enizeo Yes that should work too, it is also an organic acid with pKs value similar to fumaric acid. You will of course have to do the maths for this one too

One more thing about potency and purity, I think I now understand what@Hsinav was talking about If you convert a freebase into a salt, the molar mass of the salt will of course be higher. In this example; 1g of freebase 5-MeO-DMT are equal to 1.27g of 5-MeO-DMT Fumarate. If you use more fumaric acid than needed you guarantee a full conversion, however the excess fumaric acid won't evaporate, it sticks to the salt. Therefore the product becomes less pure and less potent! However you will also have more mass than what you started with; the effects cancel each other out, you just have to know about this when dosing. About the purity of acetone @outlandish : Depending on how the acetone was produced it can contain byproducts like calcium oxide (harmless) or phenol (toxic! and some part of it will definitely not evaporate but stick to the salt). There are different grades of chemical purity, listed for example here. The grade should always be stated on the bottle. I don't know what is sold at your average hardware store, but I certainly wouldn't recommend using technical grade purity. I think you can get high grade purity acetone at any pharmacy, but they will probably want to know what you are using it for, since it is obviously not for cleaning

Okay a 5 hour blackout is heavy, you should definitely lower the dose With some experience and meditative practice 100 µg are enough I think

Sure, happens to me regularly There is often a time frame of ~ 5-20min during the peak of which I have no memory whatsoever. Funny thing is, that "blackout" doesn't equal physical collapse, in one trip I was hiking through a forest while it happened. Came out the other end perfectly fine. It all works without you trying to control it, IT JUST HAPPENS, perfect harmony

@Hsinav @Enizeo @outlandish The recipe for 5-Meo-DMT: M(5-MeO-DMT) = 218.29 g/mol M(Fumaric cid) = 116.07 g/mol The formula we need for this: M = m / n In words: Molar mass (g/mol) = mass (g) / amount (mol) Let's do this with 1g of 5Meo. M = m / n <=> n = m / M n = (1g) / (218,29 g/mol) = 0.004581 mol = 4.581 mmol One molecule of fumaric acid has two carboxyl groups and therefore reacts with two molecules of 5Meo. => We need half the amount (mol) of fumaric acid compared to 5Meo. (4.581 mmol) / 2 = 2.2905 mmol How much fumaric acid (mass in g) is equal to 2.2905 mmol? M = m / n <=> m = M * n m = (116.07 g/mol) * (0.0022905 mol) = 0.26586 g = 265.86 mg There you go, 265.86 mg of fumaric acid to convert 1g of freebase 5-Meo-DMT into the respective fumarate. If you use more fumaric acid than necessary you don't lose potency, your solution just becomes sour. But, of course, don't do this at home, it is illegal!