Milos Uzelac

@zeroISinfinity Thanks for the validating support of me in my present state and of my botched and unorderly sentence phrasing of expressing mu thoughts. Where are you from or your family originally and located now? (Trans: Hvala ti na podršci, odakle si ti ili tvoja porodica prvobitno poreklom i ako mogu da te pitam gde se sada nalaziš?).

6:10 am CEST time zone. ? Focus breath meditation intended time 40 minutes; managed time 20 minutes; with several minutes of actual breath focusing. Report and Noticed obstacles: 1.) I have/had a recurring thought pattern attraction, during these last several days and weeks, in home quarantine with access and in search of politcal analyst prediction visual media, in visualising a fantasy about writing a post on the Society, Environment and Politics thread, bases on my thinking and assessment of deeper inner meaning* and connection of newscast on video of world politcal events and creating a thoughtful, insightful and sceintificly inffered personal prédiction about the possible headings and outcomes of larger geopolitical events (such as the future of US/China relations and warning of their current world peace, between superpowers, endangerment and predicting and sharing posts about the possible future heading of the EU and the future of membership of some of it's current member states). In order to, I assume this is the underlying motivation, to attract people to view my content, comment on it (so I get get/be in the center of attention of people I judge as higher consciousness, more developed and better than me as who's verdict on my analysis and predictions I want to hear) and to give affirmational positive feedback, to my self, in short a praise, of the sort: "You are doing the work, congratulations in your thinking it is sound and on right terms, in accordance with this spiral dynamics development of consciousness work". (an imagined image of a @Leo Guracomment saying and that of Serotoninluv in the similar manner) of my articulated and correct linguistically expressed thought content on the Society, Environment and Politics thread. I can't focus what else I wanted to write as a thought pattern distraction and attachment, will do an edit later, after a 5 hour sleep/rest session and add another, if it occurs, reccuring thought pattern obstacle observance after the mediation session of 30 minutes, that I have in plan, after I wake up at about 12:00 am CEST time zone. End of detailing of results after this described arisen reccuring thought pattern during attempted breath focus meditation of 40 minutes report at 6:20 am CEST. (note: I am losing/lost a bit of the original track and intention during writing this journal section and got distracted by my own sentence correction and thought patterns during writing this .)

14, 34, 35, 44. Where the (still not total and complete in habits and day-to-day experiences) the rude awakenings (or personal apocalypses (to explain rude revelation of truth of my current state of existence and how I got here through past action karma accumulationn, and where are my realistic assessment options of heading towards) for me personally and partly for my familial bonds collective ego. Thanks for the well-crafted and informative share@MsNobody. I must confess when reading your well crafted list I felt an ease from your words a little, so thank you also for that feeling ❤️ génération and for setting the time and effort to make this comprehensive personal committed research inffered list and for laying out for me personally and for others I hope, to see the contained evolution potential in the perceived crisis and endangerment of current collective state from a roughly developed country POV.

?Half-asleep Lucid dream of running for my life and being hunted by some rednecks with hunting rifles and shotguns. At 7:30 Am and 7:50Am my time zone. Fell into a short state of after, willing in the dream to wake up, out fear of "not dying in the dream" of what can I describe as a fluctuating visual-perceptive state, neuro-physiological state of not being sure if I am awake while seeing my room in a blur before me, while sensing that I am hyper-blinking with my eyelids, unwillingly, and being in this fluctuating and cognitively unsure, state of self-perception or self-awareness, of whether I am dreaming or am I awake and actually seeing this before me. I will later in the day write some narrative details and descriptions of the dream, and move this post to a newly created Lucid dreaming related journal thread.

@Serotoninluv Thanks for the sources you supplied here on this thread. I Will set aside time to read some of them later and take some notes, basically to stack up on some arguments if I encounter some conspiracy theories narratives popping up or being pushed to me in my environment in the few days to carefully and consciously try to dissect and dispel them without causing an emotional backlash for me the person that might be in question.

Chocolate thread for me shared that 13 hours ago moment with you. Damn the distraction is intense, and I ought to study now. Consumerist woes. Justifying myself on keeping scrolling in order to find some useful sources to stack up on to read later.

Read an article about him in Bloomberg Opinion yesterday that TMBS posted on twitter, there he laid out the strategy for California to act as an independent nation-state along with other bordering states, effectively in governance and decision making in the unfolding crisis, given the deep corruption, withholding of urgent PPE supplies, politicizing and state selectiveness bias behind the scenes because of the upcoming election and central authoritarianism of the current Federal Government administration's ineffective response to the pandemic crisis and its impacts on a state by state basis, this latter part I inquired by watching Democracy now newsreels.

Yes this seems very truthful, given the fact here in Serbia and of course other less developed Eastern European countries with a low-birth rate and demographically old populace, they really care that you have as much as children as possible and that you earn enough money to nurture them all, by receiving short-term state benefits for each new born. And demographics as scientific field and it's overall disciplines is overall celebrated and prestigious, it is a very national politics strategy, for having at disposal more citizenry, critical field and a central to state's overall future planing trajectory here of what to invest in and fund etc. This interest in its demographic statistics and ways to facilitate sexual reproduction of its citizens by the state is what, the French postmodern author Foucault called biopolitics, in short its an overall government's strategy to facilitate as efficiently as possible new and to extend older life as much as possible for it's strategic goals and to at the same time us the citizenship leverage to manage it and control it as much as possible in order to aim at fullfiling it's overall national strategy needs and goals. I think this "government is the problem, not the solution" undercurrent in the consciousness of many living in America and various fear mongering about the government in general, was deeply hammered in by Reagan and his economic and ideological heritage and his neoliberal ideology tradition language still being actively disseminated and promoted by the Republican party and it's zones of influence and some parts of the Democratic party. It is basically, at least I often see it as such, the ideological worldview of the ruling class being unconsciously reproduced by its citizens and the ruling class in this instance are monopoly and oligopolic interest group billioner CEOs of transnational corporates and industries and their wealthy shareholders in the government, who oppose à renewal of government anti-trust laws upon on them like in the end of the 19th and beginning of the 20th century in the U. S., the sort like Théodore Roosevelt imposed then.

Also had the relapse problem again, I got my desires now as coping mechanism and crutch due to deadline and work schedule study anxiety or as a result of an anxiety relief mechanism after a procrastination session of watching videos on YouTube. You have a free downloadable book in pdf form of Your Brain on Porn, on Academia.edu that @DivineSoda referenced. I have a non defined plan yet to tackle it, during quarantine, when I get the desire to instead sit in my chair and focus breath meditate on it or when the deasire for it arises, to use these scientific sources to get a clearer picture perspective in my head that if I jerk off to it and ejaculate now and get an instant dopamine reward system release neuro-physiological feeling as , of how it actually affects and helps better my psychological state and cognitive abilities and opportunities for longer term thinking and planning my future realistically if I choose this quick get reward scheme in tackling my anxiety and psychological fatigue issues. Good luck in this, I am with you currently on the way.

@DivineSoda Thanks for the well and meticulously crafted text and experiences share, put me at ease before reacting on some comments that I think are lacking in research and terminological nuance and precision (for example as I read Marxist) in certain topics and exhibited some judgements that were biased based on, I assume, that certain persons past experiences identity and personal survival outlook and negative experiences with it. Like myself presented here for example 5g EMF effects etc. in other areas where I lack knowledge. Blessings to you and thanks again, have to get on my procrastinated work now ?

The bodies of Maeve Kennedy Townsend McKean, a granddaughter of late US Senator Robert F. Kennedy (who himself was assassinated, before becoming a potential presidential nominee, as his brother the late U.S. President John. F Kennedy) , and her 8-year-old son, Gideon, have been found after recently going missing in the Chesapeake Bay. On 2nd of April Maeve Kennedy and her 8 year-old son climbed on a canoe and paddled it across the bay to retrieve a ball that after a game fell into it and a sudden gust of wind in the middle of the sea bay swept their canoe and turned it over and they both appeared to have drowned under the force of the currents. Their bodies have been found after a six day search. Since so many of their famous family lineage have died, that some people have started to believe and brand it as a Kennedy family curse, could this be a case in the past lives model of explaining such peculiar and seemingly predetermined cases a result of intergenerational karmic law of redemption and equalising of past acts. Or am I projecting my own biases regarding how I view my own past tulmouts experiences in my youth and why I went through them. Here's the video from RT USA: Would like to hear someone's insights about questioned posed if it's on your radar. Hope you're all well still during this and safe.

They often brand this kind of excellent, passionate and convincing thinking as socialist utopianism etc. But as Zizek once pointed out what's really utopian is to think that just making incremental changes will sustain an unsustainable (in regards to ever widening gap of inequality - its related structural issues - and environmental destruction) neoliberalism trickle down and oligopolic generating economics system.

I haven't read this Camus book yet, sounds like an interesting and maybe development useful and enriching read during and after the pandemic crisis, but here the School of Life channel puts forward the most key lessons regarding the universal parallel, that Camu tries to communicate through the book, between relatively unchanging collective experiences and general past and present societal stances regarding right before, during and right after disease outbreaks and of course deeper analytical views on the human condition from the existentialist perspective. Camu said to his friend writer friend Andre Malraux in a letter in March 1942, that he wanted to understand what plague meant for humanity: ''Said like that, it might sound strange'' but he added: ''this subject seems so natural to me''. Camu then put forward the idea, that in fact actual historical instances that we call plagues, are merely concentrations of a universal precondition, they are dramatic instances of a perpetual rule: that we are vulnerable to being randomly exterminated, by Bacillus, an accident or fellow humans. Our exposure to plague is at the heart of Camus's view, that our lives are fundamentally on the edge on what he termed ''the absurd''. from the view of the narrator of this clip and famous philosopher Alain de Botton. One of the main messages and lessons, that Camu communicates to us is this: ''We assume that we have been granted immortality, and with this naivety come behaviors, that Camu criticized: a hardness of heart, an obsession with status, a refusal of joy and gratitude and the tendency to moralize and judge. The modern people that are affected by the plague, in the book, associate the plague with something backward that belongs to another age. They are in their eyes modern people that have advanced technological help at their disposal, they are surely not going to die like the poor wretches of 17th century London and 18th century Canton. They exclaim from the quote of the book: ''It's impossible it should be the Plague, everyone knows that it has vanished from the West.'' says one character, ''Yes everyone, knew that'' Camu adds sardonically, "except the dead''. Camu's message: ''There is no escape from our frailty, being alive always was (no matter the time period) and will always remain an emergency. As one might put it truly an inescapable ''underlying condition''. The plague for Camu in the book is a metaphor for the ''susceptibility to sudden death, an event that can render our lives instantaneously meaning.'' And yet in the novel still the citizens deny their fate, even when a quarter of them are dying, they keep imagining the reasons why the problem won't happen to them. ''The book isn't attempting to panic us, because, panic suggests a response to a dangerous but a short-term condition from which we can find safety. \but there can never be safety - that is why safety for Camu we need to love our fellow '' damned'' humans and work without hope or despair for the amelioration of suffering. Life is a hospice, never a hospital.'' Camu writes; ''Pestilence is so common, there have been as many plagues in the world, as there have been wars. But plagues and wars always find people equally unprepared.'' I wanted to share this video because I thought is full of useful insight's that can be very helpful in positioning adequately and emotionally oneself in this time, keep struggling for your future despite the current circumstances and their uncertain consequences and have an optimistic long-term view of one's fate, having in mind, what Camu accentuates in the La Peste, what is that diseases reveal universally about society through history and one's position and a path forward in them in total. Would appreciate also a lot if you have time enough to share with me your feelings and thought's during this time regarding some statements mentioned in the video: ''The plague is not a punishment for anything deserved, suffering is entirely randomly distributed, it makes no sense, it is not an ethical force. it is simply absurd and that's the kindest thing we can say of it.'' ''The whole thing is not about heroism, it's about decency. It may seem a ridiculous idea, but the only way to fight the plague is with decency.'' Someone asks the main character, what decency might be, and Dr. Rieux's response is: '' In general I can't say'' remarks the doctor, ''but in my case, I know it consists of doing my job.'' I hope you are well and safe!

My friend I feel you on this I struggle as well now to keep my focus and hyperactive mind fixed on topics that I have to learn for essays I need to write and exams that I have in plan for passing in summer. I got carried away by incoming information from the virus updates around the world and distracted easily by chatting online with friends and focusing on taking up opportunities for possible doing favors for certain youth pro-worker organizations, to translate a video-clip in my mother tongue Serbian, for that audience of that organization here in this country that I posted in the society thread the US military-industrial complex war maneuvers and geopolitical plans in the wake of the coronavirus - and that's what distracted from writing my essay today. What I will try to do is to set time and discipline for a focus breath meditation for concentration and reducing of anxiety that I feel now and write out my study time plan since we got the news in my country as the virus infection spreads among certain parts of the populace, they will also probably put us here on 24-hour lockdown like in Spain and Italy for an undetermined time. I will use this time to boost my learning speed skills and techniques, as I am slow and tend to focus too much on completely connecting the dots on one paragraph and being able to reproduce it in my own words which takes up time which I need to manage and organize better in regards, to time spent and focused on certain partial things and not the whole picture, in order to read achieve what I planned on reading and what exams I want to study for to pass. I am in a sociology department on a state university, what are you studying, why are you studying and in what environment and where are you studying it at (a private course or public institution) I think these are the crucial questions that you have to inquire yourself about in order to find methods and pathways about your study motivation and best strategic path to increase it (like researching besides something connected about the topic at hand in free time), mine is descriptive, heavy on learning and learning to use new concepts correctly and using them in literary purpose writing sense when explaining and making conclusions from the study of its sustainment mechanisms of social order in question and it's future heading and sort of various dot connection and metaphor using from different scientific disciplines, natural and social. If you want to start this as a thread for learning techniques I can post what I find or advice and insight that I gain from practicing to study better and more efficiently in the speed in which I cover a topic, proper focus and time allocation, here tomorrow. Sorry for the long post and lack of clarity and a long bulky post, I have the same strategic problem for at home studying for faculty and catching up in attendance and coverage of our zoom courses for sociology - I am in fact lagging heavily behind now.

The slight shift in sensual perspective when watching the video comes for me at 0:36 when the zoom enters the molecules of the blood cell. Fascinating infinity representation video! Thanks for sharing and opening about the similarities with your trip.

@sileneI meant that primarily for The Empire Files vidéoclip narration style, but yes of course RT as a network funded by the current Russian government has to have some bias and silent consensus of on what not to report on (mostly regarding the dealings and plans of the current Russian government in detail) and how to frame the reports of current Russian's government role and policies in the world and of their geostrategic ally China, in order to have a consensual stability among the employees, producers, managers and owners in the network for their efficient mutual functioning and avoiding topics which might trigger disagreements and wider conflicts, and would inhibit the function and cooperation of their employees and total survival as an RT network affiliate in the U.S.

Note: Keep in mind there is a lot demonization going of certain individuals and countries by the narrative style of the narrator, which is never a high-conscious approach to a loaded political topic, in the clip but information provided is condensed from NY Times and NPR Articles and articulately and precisely delivered. Also shows the bias and potential fear of possible revolutionary and uprising activity by, the endangered and layed off American workers from the most hard hit private and public sectors, and rest of the populace in the upcoming spike weeks in America when that state official in an official press briefing shown at the 6th minute equalised and crafted the term : Marxist theocratic kleptocratic Iranian régime in one sentence, for unbeknownst reason from my POV other than because of fears of revolutionary activity at home listed above.

I would argue that shift needs to happen to happen in already established corporations, not start ups with small number of employees, with large ammount assets and of workers with longer work experience, to get them as employee representatives on corporate boards of directors and enable them the ability, based on how much they worked in the corporations, to have the ability to a part of the stock of corporation and to invest in it or sell it on the financial market as based on votes and as representatives of other workers. If I made some logical mistakes correct me. I will share you a clip of Rick Wolff on the TMBS who explains, this accuretly and precisely, how this workers on corporate boards concept works in some corporations in Germany with more than 150 employees , were the workers have right to own, after sufficient employee status experience part of the stock of that corporation and use it in the role of representatives for all workers. Here Wolff, as a guest on the The Michael Brooks Show, outlines some Democratic Socialist policies in some German company's that are mandated by state law there. It starts at 13:00. Hope this helps you understand if you want develop your arguments.

Boy a lot of questions @rememberand a lot of them valid and crafted with care, I will answer you as soon I finnish some of my work and family commitments.

It's an entire church sunday ceremony here haha

I feel this topic is a response to the tone of my last comment on your thread. I was kinda annoyed on the passivity and obedience of people, that this is the new normal and that it isn't a opportunity to have an argument on their side why demands for economic change and reform is now necessary for protecting the lives of workers. I partially understand your points one must look out for ones ire and anger that may have an opposite effect despite if it's backed up by correct and rational backings why the necessity of change cannot be postponed anymore, if the live of your close ones and family are at stake. Fight governmental stoked fear of the pandemic with activist stoked fear of long-term economic unsustainable consequences on the most vulnerable still during it and particularly after it.

@ivory I understand you fully on the long post thing, happened to me almost yesterday you get carried away and lost in correcting grammatical errors, if it's a long text, and I noticed on myself, have a strong tendency to get lost and carried away in this "logocentric" - as Leo borrowed, the term from postmodern author and theorist Derrida, state of consciousness and closing your experiential alleyway strictly on obsessing over correct, ideally connected and logically cohesive, words, sentences and phrasing. It's a hard pull I still don't have the hindsight and techniques always to resist the pull. I will check out those excerpts about Buddhist doctrines, thanks a lot for setting the time sharing them and your wisdom, when I get my current life organization together which I kinda screwed up yesterday, in regards to cleaning up my room and apartment with my father together (since our whole nation's capital has been put in a mandatory quarantine till the end of the weekend ), and catch up with procrastinated on student work, that I got distracted from by this aforementioned post ?. I have some university assignments and I am now in the rush to finish them and send them via e-mail to corresponding professors. Thanks for commenting, sharing your past tulmoutous experiences and wisdom regarding how to go about difficult times when going through health issues and sharing your wisdom about this post @ivory. I hope you're doing well now, that you and your friend's and families have some securities with you regarding the possible economic impacts on most Americans, because of the catastrophic mishandling of the pandemic crisis by the current administration and their lobbyists and that you're currently in good health and safe.

Is this ironic humor or do you waste your time believing that Republican Christian Right created Red Pill culture war/political tool online to get gullable youth to start believing and buying into their ideology.

I've been feeling a lot of this lately when walking out to get supplies and seeing people obediently accept this condition and not feeling any concrete anger directed toward the government casual treatment and lies in the beginning of the spread the virus in my developing economically and mostly blue than orange country but there is, I think, a dual notion to this, rather it depends on the perspective, and socio-economic historical development of current external circumstances. What we are seeing now, I would argue, is the result of unhealthy and unsensitive overextractory in work and exploitative orange economic policy of those on the top of the hierarchy direct toward an obedient manual labour and office clerk blue, in terms of general global relations on the spiral, 1.) who has lost the time manueverbility to work on himself, due to longer working hours and stagnant wages, that would enable one to have lifestyle that allows enough free time allocated for one self, 2.) being financially tied to repaying interest added debt on borrowed loans which restrains purchasing options and requires long term investment saving and thinking, which most people, working those previously mentioned jobs, tied to sustaining their families and raising children have hard time acheiving with these odds and pressure always stacked against them 4) very few opportunities of social mobility up the economic ladder and almost no secure and long term room for re-qualification opportunity chances Conversly businesses success, personal enrichment and achievement no matter what, orange oriented collective ego, which holds productivity and success in the innovation fields as one of their top values which they, on the top of the income and wealth pyramid measure and value individual humans (they are also often established at the top, for a longer period of time now, an claim most of the earning and most benefit receivings in societal hierarchies) puts the emerging green- embodied in mostly the new technology and virtual savvy and socialised millennial, gen X and Z generations-in the same pressure and position of blue of struggling against the odds in the competitive world but with the difference of having much more in general, in their collective go group, knowledge leeway, options and technological skill demand opportunities to survive through this crisis. So in the physical labour productivity and birocratic efficiency collective blue ego which is most of the developing and underdeveloped world now, this upcoming economic pressure will fall hardest on them. And therefore I see it as a systemic balance necessity and structural need of sustainability of the current world unfettered and largely unregulated capitalist system, of transnational corporate oligoplies in the international market, that was devised by successful collective ego orange elites to perpetuate and solidify their now endangered economic power structure based on their worldview and ideology, which is what they are attempting to do, since most of the world governments current are unilaterally influenced by them in carrying out their policies and legislation passing. It's therefor also justifiable for the development of the blue collective ego, which is most of the planet, and the development opportunities for the whole spiral I think in general, to respond now in the wake and after this crisis, not with obedience and conformity but with rage, demands from orange, collective mobilisation and organising around their common economic interests or as you said emotional reactions and stocked hatred by their ideologues, even if necessary to wake them up from their slumber and display a show of force, total violent disruption and subversion of regular inequality perputing, business as usual, economic activity of corporations and governments alligned with them to scare orange enough to give into some of their demands and to start thinking if cooperating and reform proposals of their more green and even blue value system oriented political opponents in order not to risk an entire system breakdown and even more damage to their wealth generation mechanisms than radically reforming them. This an abstract scenario of an developed nation (particularly I had in mind the United States possible coronavirus pandemic social outcome). I realize now I may have a made some mistakes in the spiral dynamics development path. But I still think my argument is still valid for the development of the collective ego in general to orange in under-developed blue countries. It would be beneficial for their growth and therefor growth of the whole spiral if they as you mentioned: ? Form and fight for a formation of a blue collective ego interest group which, led by mostly green developed and compassionate individuals, would give into emotional reaction to current crisis with rage, orange rationally crafted demands for justice and show of force and willingness to take risk in negation to their previous conformity and obedience, to orange, coated in fake blue regalia and blue political language elite, in order to fool them that they are still one of them, in their respective countries. ? Have revenshistic and vengeful attitude towards till now calaice orange exploitation and lack of care for their future and their country's national and local economy future, and have again demands for revenge for real perceived injustices stocked by someone more debeloped (in the SD sense), articulate and rational in demand and knowledgeable on the history and nature of their current position than them and willing to take the risk in sticking his neck out for them out of compassion to see a portion of society having opportunities to start developing and having real granted conditions for leading better lives for them, their families and their close communities. That's what I see as the role of some green nuanced intellectuals and activists interested in politics and wider societal state in my generation, I am 21 now. Some groups like Blue Labour fraction of the Labour Party in the U.K. now are similarly adopting this strategy, by forming a party by orange and green intellectualls to act as interest group for collective blue blue-collar worker egos, in Britain after Brexit.

Thanks and blessings to you for sharing this! Come's right at the time after I hope I finish an essay I have tonight to relax and feel at ease a little. I hope you participate as well and that is of use to you for coping with your specific situation as well.