Yonkon

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  1. @egoeimai @Roy First I broke up because I didn't want a long distance relationship, but then I decided to give it a try 1 hour later. (now we live closer and its not a long distance relationship anymore) Then she broke uo because she couldn't trust me because I wanted to spend the day alone. After that she explained to me she has something like borderline, which makes her push me away when she gets scared. Then she broke up some weeks after because I was going out with friends and didn't reply for 8 hours. She is reflected and after those incidents she comes back and takes responsibility for her over the top actions and accusations.. She is quite clever and spiritual. I am really confused.
  2. Hey there, i use bioenergetics everyday and i love it! It helps me to express my anger and repressed sexuality like no other technique can and it gave me a huge confidence boost. Do you know Devaraj Sandberg?
  3. LSD is great but it takes to long for tolerance recovery (2 weeks) You might say "just increase the dosage and then you have enough to integrate in 2 weeks" but i feel this is not my way of going about this whole shabang. Ideally i want to trip every 3-7 days with small to medium dosages, this would fit perfectly to my lifestyle. Any ideas?
  4. @Serotoninluv I didn't know that, thanks! Could anyone tell me how long the tolerance reset for 50µg LSD would approximately be in your individual case?
  5. I tested out a fair share of spiritual practices and qiqong seems to be the most suited for my personality so i want to commit. (I love to move and i can't sit still) But now a questioned entered my mind: Has qiqong the same purpose as sitting meditation or yoga? I want to become healthy in body and mind, calm my being and open my heart. Is QiGong the right practice for walking this path? Imagine that i commit to a life long mastery of Qiqong, where would this lead me, what will get out of the practice? Another Question that is related: will all practices lead me to the same thing the one way or another?
  6. I've read it often enough: open the heart is the next step, become more loving and accepting etc. But how to you actually do this? Visualize the opening of the chakra? What are your methods/books?
  7. @Esoteric I've read and watched some Kahn, exactly what i was looking for. "Whatever arises, love that"
  8. @Thought Art I just finished it, wow what a ride. I've read many books but that one struck me deeply, almost painfully. Thanks for giving me the push.
  9. @Thought Art crazy, there is this girl i fell in love with who recommended me this book incidentally. Then through accident i stumbled upon this book weeks later. Now this. I have to get it now
  10. I want to discuss the statement above, what are your thoughts? Recently i heard that Terence Mckenna died of brain tumor. His doctors assured him it had nothing to do with his psychedelic use, but he firmly believed that his cancer was a direct result of his drug use. I don't have this as a quote, a friend just told it me like that. So besides the quote being true, what are thoughts on this problematic? Will using a shortcut to consciousness have a backlash sooner or later? Will it be "punished" through cosmic law? I don't think this is the case, but to be honest i still have some doubts.
  11. @Esoteric great answers! I noticed that tend to the superstitious personified god due to christian upbringing. Absolute freedom is scary, but that is what the whole thing is about.
  12. @Leo Gura what about filtering your tap water, is it save then?
  13. @Leo Gura is it ok to boil tap water and then drink it? Also for what do i have to look out for when buying water?
  14. Great work, very inspiring! I wish you all the strength you need to execute your new goals
  15. Hey guys, It's quite frustrating. After years of thinking and pondering, of taking the life purpose course, of contemplating and meditating i still don't know what i really want out of life. Sure, i want to be happy. But what does that mean, what do i want CONCRETELY? I can't formulate my top goal without sounding fake to myself. "Make 10k passive income" "become enlightened" "get super healthy". I mean yes of course i want that, but not really.. It feels like all of those goals are something i "should" achieve. I got those goals handed from society, from actualized.org, from self help books and gurus.. But not one goal feels like MY goal, my authentic goal that I really want to achieve. It feels confusing and crazy scary. What the hell am i going to do with my life? I wanted to become a great musician, a davinci esque artist. Someone who creates mindblowing art. But more and more i come to realize that these are just grand compensations. I feel insecure and worthless, i feel not enough. I try to become superman because my dick is tiny. And all my ambitions, all my goals are motivated through that lense. To show how good i am, to show that i am better than other people. I don't want that anymore, that's what i want! This was super rambly but i had to get that out. Anyway, can anybody relate to this? Has anybody overcome a similar situation and can give some guidance?
  16. @Shin Yes, great technique. I get the feeling that when i'm always present, i am missing something. My thoughts: "When i stop thinking and planning, what will happen to my life? I will never figure things out. I have to think, otherwise there is no progress, no solution." Feels like an addiction. And probably limiting beliefs? Very interesting. Thanks!
  17. @UDT i am relatively healthy and fit. I'm skinny and sometimes i eat garbage but most of the time i feel energetic and clear. Yoga and Bioenergetics helps a lot with that. I started to lift weights but then the exact same problem appears: I don't give a fuck if i have muscles, i just want to be admired. I want to be sexy so i don't have to feel like a lesser human. No intrinsic motivation, only insecurity and shame.
  18. @Shin thank you, this is good advice. Being ok with not knowing and uncertainty sounds exactly like something i need right now What, in your opinion, is the best way to deal with those kind of emotions? I work with the Sedona method and the work of byron katie. This mostly works effective. @K VIL actually i had a good day when i wrote this, because this insight was freeing me in some way. But a lot of anger came with that realization, so i had to blow of some steam. Letting go of goals, how spiritual and awesome is that! Sounds hard tho, any advice how?
  19. @Knock Beautiful, thank you! When i started to let go from getting girls and begun to focus on my life Purpose i got my first gf. Crazy how that stuff works.
  20. @Tiny Nietzsche may i ask how old you are? I started to teach piano a while ago and right i'm not that skilled either...
  21. @outlandish Ah, now i get it. I will edit my post till tomorrow and add the golden nuggets i could find
  22. @outlandish Sorry, i really thought this is incredible helpful for most people on the forum, i mean is there a better place to post it?