Psychonaut

I wished Leo would have never recommended the use of milligram measuring spoons. :-/ @iTommy I once snorted 150mg of DMT and that was just because I had no way of smoking it. That amount of powder didn't even fit into my nose and was running down my throat and out through the front. The powder was literally everywhere. Luckily it was nice and sparkly for me while tripping in 5D hyperspace. However I doubt I would even "fit" 200mg of powder in my nose.

That's why I put it out there. Rather be honest and hope someone will refute it. However, what difference does it make if I am God or not? I really don't know. I will try 80mg and 100mg. But If 100mg still doesn't do it. Then I think I need to abort DPT. My technique of administering is quite on point in my opinion. I have 5ml Cryovials. I measure out the powder into the vials on the scale. Then add about 1-2ml of warm water. Shake it until everything is dissolved. Empty my bowels and use an enema to clean out everything. Very gently insert the syringe with spit as lube. Very slow so it doesn't hurt. Press the plunger gently as not to squirt it in and cause discomfort. Leave it in for 15 minutes while lying on my bed. Maybe it is just because I am taking a lot of other substances atm: Microdosing 4-AcO-DMT, Phenylpiracetam, Noopept, Oxiracetam etc pp.

Lol I can't take any of this seriously anymore. Am at 65mg DPT 25 minutes in. Boring, I am just going lift some weights now. Seems like a better use of my time. Maybe I die of cardiac arest. Who cares. I am not the first. Makes me think, when the best thing I think of doing is lifting some weights. Is that a good or bad thing? Is this the best or the only thing I can do?

Maybe I don't want to understand. Maybe I don't think understanding has any value to it? Tbh I don't think there is any value to anything you are saying about God and everything. It is like listening to cars pass by on a road. It doesn't concern me. So Dpt is not really for me then.

I don't get Dpt. It's just a nice experience with a lot of Kundalini energy. Music feels great. I wonder how much I need to increase the dosage. I have done 20, 30, 35, 45 mg so far...

If she doesn't like it. She can go. Noone cares. If she is not interested in you. She can go. If she doesn't think you are the best in the world. She can go. If she doesn't want to please you in every way she can. She can go. You don't need her. Yet you spend time with her. By choice. You have better things to do. If you don't have her now. Get rid of the bullshit that is keeping you from her. It is bullshit. Trust me. Purge.

I can feel everything.

To me it is also nothing like that either. It is one of the most gentle psychedelics for me. However a lot has been cleared out of the way using other psychedelics prior to using DPT. That image is calming to me with a slight vibe of sadness. @Aakash @Leo Gura I would also be interested in what you do during the trip. You have a rather basic video from when you started on how to use psychedelics. However, to me at least it seems like you have a strong bias towards contemplation and trying to understand something. I personally have been a rather practical person in the past. I am mainly interested in knowledge that I can use. For example, how to fix things, how they work and just how to have a better experience overall. So I guess, you will have a very different experience to me, because you think of very different things. This might seem wasteful to you, but on my last DPT trip I was thinking of better ways to fuck my girl and was able to feel what she does. Heck, if I have sex on weed I can completely leave my body, feel what she feels and give her exactly what turns her on. This is one of my core desires. To be able to feel myself through another body. To be able to feel my presence and effect on someone else through their reaction to me. To be able to not just feel my penetration of the world, but how the world is penetrated by me at the same time. To be able to feel so much that I just dissolve like salt in sea water.

Plenty of new fucking videos on pornhub every day. Can't understand why you are still thirsty.

Here is another analogy for you. Ever seen a Bugatti pull a trailer? Gotta first pull your trailer with your VW and drop some of your baggage on the side of the road. If you just attach the regular trailer everyone has with junk to a Buggatti that is a bad idea. Once you step on the gaspedal you will rip the trailer coupling. Yes sure it might work if you caress the gaspedal. However the Bugatti is made to go fast. Why care about the trailer? You might not care about it anymore. But it has quite a load on it and it will hit people on the road. You are just being an asshole. Empty the trailer a bit and then you might even be able to take a few people for a ride in your 2 seater Buggatti that is pulling a trailer. This analogy is just so ridiculous, but I love it.

Just no. Nonononononononononononononono. Bad kitty. Bad advice. I spank you. There is no reason to drive a Bugatti Veyron as your first car. Yes sure some might be gifted and be able to learn fast. But most are going to crash into a tree on the first curve. Take it slowly, it is not like you are going to die tomorrow and only have one day to get enlightened by brute force. VW Golf -> BMW -> Audi S4 -> Audi RS6 -> GT-R -> Koenigsegg -> Bugatti

I took 5-MeO-DMT 2 years ago after about 30 acid trips and using up 1 gram of 2-CB within a few months. I must have had 20 or so 5-MeO-DMT trips. I don't think I really got anything out of it. I don't think I was ready and might not be ready yet. Still going to try to get some more.

I have found that indeed some not so developed girls think I am gay, because I like anal play. Be a bit careful when you introduce it. For the shit eating get some help.

So how do I raise my level of consciousness? Or will I be going up and down for the rest of my life?

Micro-dosing is a lot of fun, especially if it is a high micro-dose. Cutting up a regular 125ug blotter into 4 pieces should yield you with a 30ug "micro-dose". That is quite something already. Half of that would be considered a "traditional" micro-dose.

Acid for me is not a great tool for insights. My "insights" on it are mostly related to my life. It gives me a different view on it. Change this Think about this in this way Change your behaviour to this. At least for me it is a self development aid, not really a spiritual insights aid. It is possible that it is just my bias, as I have been a practical person and so I value practical insights that I can implement easily. A more contemplative person might get deep insights on longer trips. It kind of depends on you, at the beginning acid can be effectively used to peck away at the mind and take out some of the pieces that are falling of and throw them on the bio compost in the garden.

To me at least when I was micro dosing acid, it felt better to have one thing revealed at a time and give it some time for you to implement. This is in contrast to receiving a whole bucket of things on a high dosed trip, with half of the things falling out of the bucket on your way back home. @Justincredible76 Just quarter the tab into 4 pieces, that will yield you 4 trips within 2 weeks.

If there is something available for you to learn (be revealed to you) you will not require a large dose. You could even micro-dose and go for a "two day break between every micro dose" schedule.

How do I as "a human being" care about something that I know is purely imaginary? How do I not fall into the trap of just saying "its not real" every time something bad happens? For example "My dog that I love more than I will ever allow myself to love another human being just died" -> Reaction: Ah he was just imaginary. The way I saw him was just an idealisation. An imagined perfect being. It was only able to survive because he as a dog was not able to disprove my image of him. Of course he was imperfect, just like we all are. Humans will eventually destroy an image you have created of them to which they cannot live up to, a dog cannot. Everything my dog does will be seen through my lense of "motherly caring love". With this approach I will essentially dismantle everything. Am I supposed to take everything apart? What is going to be left? How do I decide from which point of view to live? On the one hand everything is imaginary and perfect, because it is my creation. On the other hand I can fill this body and live as if everything is real. How do I stay in the body when my pain pushes me out? How do I continue to feel when all I feel is the pain of myself and everyone around me? How do I get rid of this imagined pain. Even though I imagined it to be, because I wanted to feel it. I imagined the pain and the desire to get rid of it. I imagined I would write this and now I am. I wanted to feel everything, even though it might feel "bad". From my point there is just everything, which I wanted to feel and imagine to be. There is no distinction within it. I imagined the ability to feel. I imagined I could imagine. I magine.

I used to have a huge list of things I was looking for in a girl. But now I seem to care less and less about most of the things on the list and only one thing remains. Open-mindedness. If the girl sees you as a high value male and she is open-minded you can introduce her to all the things you are interested in. For example my current girl is overweight, so overweight that I would have not approached her in real life. We met on Tinder and I just went with it. I told her that she should try the ketogenic diet and she is doing that since monday. Having lots of "requirements" on your dating profile, especially on Tinder exponentially decreases your chances of getting matches. The only thing I have on there now after general positive things about me is "Looking for an open-minded girl interested in a deeper connection".

Thank you for the immense effort of compiling the summaries. I am a bitch when it comes to having things look nice, so I started to transfer the word document into an online overleaf latex document. Overleaf project (read only link) https://www.overleaf.com/read/tggzzjhjnmjh So far I have only done the first 2 chapters (20 pages [10%]). Just wanted to see if anyone cares and prefers the latex formatting style? It took me 50 minutes for 20 pages, extrapolating to 200 pages that would be 8.3 hours. It's an online editor so one could split the work. It's a lot of mundane find and replace. If anyone is interested I can pm a link that allows editing. Actualized_Textbook_latex_v0.1.pdf

30mg was better. I think I made a mistake somewhere along the process when taking 20mg. This time I relieved myself of any extraterestrial matter and actually washed everything out for maximum absorbtion. I didn't do it the last time and I always clean it before anything goes in there. Will continue doing so. Seems like that is important. At least for my ass. Very energetic trip. The energy is very maluable. 5-MeO-DMT has a lot of energy too, but it only wants to take me to one place. Seeing that place has some value to it. However at least for this trip, I felt like DPT was much more about "me" and here and now. Like a session of psychotherapy. I feel like sometimes people forget that problems have to be addressed at the level of consciousness at which the "problem" arises. The experience of 5-MeO is nice, but I will always persist. Either until I voluntarily or unvoluntarily leave this body.

Even in baking noone uses volumetric measurements besides Americans. They don't count though because they are fat and eat disgusting food. Recommending microscoops over a milligram scale makes 0 sense to me. Yes a scale is inaccurate for low doses. My kitchen scale shows 0g until I have at least 5g on there and then jumps to 5g. My milligram scale does the same thing. In fact all scales seem to do that. I usually start at 10mg, so it doesn't matter to me.

Gonna order a strap-on in the shape of my dick, so my girl can fuck me in the ass with my own dick. Good times.

I was just being practical. What needed to be done anyways was just done. It was not like I was using a straight razor either, it was just a sharp knife. But hey, you gotta say what you gotta say because you are Leo. I will just do what I do until someone makes me stop, which won't happen. I just wanna lean back, drink some Pina Coladas with my pals on another planet and share the story of how I didn't die on planet earth. All the shit I do is just part of that. A funny story. I'm already holding its bits and pieces in my hand. Gonna try 30mg next I guess.