Saiph

I think the degree of absence of mind identification is the key experience your looking for. I've done them all. With shamans, alone, with people. Everything from salvia to 5meo. In my 2 years of intensly exloring psychedelics I've just realized how happy I am to be the being that I'm not, the being that is God's being that we seem to experience on psychedelics. We experience during sleep, pleasures of life. Your morning coffee. Your everyday glimpses that forces us into the present moment. It's there and everyday life with regular people who have so called "enlightenment" too. It's just that they think they need a substance, a new trip, a new relationship to fill in that mindmade void. We dont need that. And by simply being aware of being aware you have it and consequently feel its creativity, peace, joy unfold and melt all your inner resistence like it would do on meth, a billion dollars, or 5meo. Its just the mind eqating it for the happiness. Be here now be all inclusive of your true being and thats the direct path to 5meo without it. Nothing wrong with tripping. But happiness is freely available and thats the only thing I was looking for to begin with. It ends and begins with being.

I wonder since many of you are 20+, 30+ and even 40+. What should I do more begin 18 years old? Here is what I do: -30min meditation every day -30min reading. -Not masturbating compulsively. -Doing intermittment fasting. -Going to the gym. -Started running a business which is doing fine now and will set me up. Here is what i do that I need help with: -Quitting playing video games: What should i do instead of playing videogames, when it's dark outside and winter etc. -Begin conscious through out the day -Finding practical ways increase positivity (morning routine stuff)

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Hey! I do not have a giant essay for you but here's some tips -The human experience is amazing, give yourselves love(sounds cheesy ik) spend time with yourselves - go out in nature alone or whatever and keep look at your self that you hate and you try to get go and smooth it out with love. When you resist looking at the part of you that you don't like, let go, if you can't let go of that, let go over that again and go "meta-let go" - This kind of "meditation" is very good I find for just loving yourself and letting go. -Listen to sad music and try to cry if you haven't cried for a long time. Just remeber that just because you had some acne doesn't mean that reality isn't beautiful. Reality is fundamentaly beautiful, reality isn't made of anything else but beauty. Try to connect to that by imagining your best self, your beautiful childhood memories etc. If this won't help I would advice you to go try a microdose of LSD or a small dose. LSD made me finally let go and become who I wanted to be all the time. Hope I helped you even though someone can give you more advice!

This is a song inspirired by my first enlightenment experience.

How do I make my life fullfilling by going to school? I am a 16 year old and it is 3 years until I need to choose a university to go to. I've watched all of Leo's videos, I meditate for 30min everyday (been doing it for almost 2 years) and read a book a month - it has helped me with A LOT, can't express how grateful i am over the fact that Leo makes videos. But anyways, my lifestyle is not that great. I am addicted to caffeine, video games and my consciousness is sometimes quite low due to the fact that i go to school with my friends and i get easily distracted by school and other meaningless stuff. I have absolutely no idea of what I'm here to do in life. Life seems like just something random i just got and I need to suffer for another 80 years until i die and can finally get rid of my life. So i am here now in this life, what do I do? I am usually not sad, but after one and a half year of trying to figure out what i am about to do in my life I am slowly starting to loose motivation and the spark to live a actualized life, even tho I KNOW that the only reason I am alive is to become a actualizing human begin. All of my friends, family and people that I interact with can't seem to help me with this problem. I want deep inside a creative, truthfull and a conscious way of begin but my ego is in the fucking way, I am in my own way. I usally wake up feeling like a victim even tho i try not to get trapped to the victim mentality. I want to sometimes just get away from life, because I really really don't want to work at a meaningless 9-5 job. The only reason i want to live is because of i want my career to be amazing. I know a lot about my self, but how do I actually get started, where do I begin and how can i possibly get the deep motivation to get started with my life? How can i find my purpose when there are a lot of people pulling me in opposite directions? I am young so I do not know almost anything about the world. please help Need some viewpoint, Thanks.