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@kalter000 Be careful.

I wouldn't expect someone who live by the higher values to be negative, I mean they are already living the high values right. I can't see them just faking their way through. What's possible though is that they would potentially become negative...

The more masculine you are the more directed and structured you are. The feminine is about flow and formlessness. From what I've noticed to so far, most girls who are really feminine are also really self destructive and they are all over the place emotionally. They are almost drama queens where areas neutral/masculine females are not. I've been having this attraction towards feminine ladies. I've been wondering if all feminine girls are impulsive and low conscious drama queens. Is it possible that very feminine women are able to manifest self control but still be feminine?

@AlexB very nice. Very smooth. Good luck with the rest of the journey.^_^

@Simon Zackrisson I've been reading the Way of the Superior Man. Some stuffs I just don't get. whats your views on being masculine and feminine?

I like to do this but I can't during the winter. Because if it makes me prone to being sick. I do it during the summer though. Since there's sunlight so its easier for my body

Real dope. Keep it up

I sit on the floor leaning on a wall with a on my lower back/middle back

I'm 17 yeas old. I discovered Leo when I was 15 or 14^_^ All or most of his video applies to my life. They've really helped me through.

oh Yes, please^_^

@kalter000 exactly. Porn is like gasoline. I've personally experienced the side effects of porn. It was fine in the beginning of course but I've been doing this for year after year, hundreds of times. It makes you guilty. It makes you feel depressed than you already are. It makes you unmotivated. It makes you even more low conscious than you really are. Thoughts on becoming a rapist also scared me "what if I'm in a situation and I can't control myself?" What scares me is losing so much control and losing integrity. @Andess My advice to you is focus on other things rather than having a no fap journey. Once I started a journey to become an ultimate badass I begin to not even think of porn anymore. Maybe a little urge will hit me but it never really get me to do it. I used to masturbate like 9 times a week. Now it's changed to 1time every two weeks. While I never even set up a no fap routine yet. There have been really cool stuffs happening in my life recently that I just can't seem to remember to masturbate. The secret really is having a high vibration. If you are feeling great, inspired, motivated, integrated, radiant you'll just absolutely find no reason to do such low conscious act. If you are low conscious most of the time though then consider yourself done. However do so ask for support if you need.

Entry 5: Accept them. Love them to Death. My favourite poem written by Rumi. I've been learning more and more about Surrendering. Right now as I was writing this journal I kind of realize something new. I've been meditating and synchronizing surrendering to it in which I develop a moderation technique similar to Do Nothing technique. One thing I learned is that I just can't just rationalize my way through Surrendering. I got to use my feeling. I litterally have to approach everything with love especially my emotions and my demons. To slay thy demons we got to do the opposite. Instead of fighting we love them. We entertain them, both our demons and angels. I like to use words like "embrace" and "surrender" because it really generates certain feelings in the inside. They are different than saying "love" and "accept" although they probably would mean the same In terms of progress I have noticed a slight difference if we compare them within the range in a week. Comparing myself from last year I've actually gotten more conscious. I'm able to be more conscious in places and surroundings that I'm not the most conscious in. I'm more aware in school. I'm becoming more tolerant.^_^ The only time I suffer is when I am tense. I'm attached and unaware. When I try to build a pool out of my inner ocean.

First we got to define the word Integrity.^_^

Very simple. But it's hard to Surrender when you are low conscious. Regardless try this: The problem might be is not because you are not accepting pain, but you are not accepting that you can't accept pain. Then it leads to you "not letting go of not letting go of not letting go of not letting go of control" until you finally get hit with Silence. But it wont last for long depending on how strong the emotion is^_^ they come back like waves. Just be mindful, remember that it's not going to be easy to surrender if you are always trying.

@Leo Gura oh shit. I should try this.^_^

@WickedIrish if you do ever feel any emotions rather than peace -- like astonishment or curiosity do you feel like you are attached to the emotions and feelings?

Haha. I suffered way too much. Still sometimes or often I choose more suffering than less

I just turned 17. I discovered self development when I was 15 as well. Now my commitment is much stronger thanks to this community^_^ it's very nice to start when you're really young

@ChristopherW I had this problem too. I started with 5 minutes studying - 10-30 minutes break though^_^ and build from there.

Really good advice guys. One thing you can also do is create a to-do list. Make sure you don't overwhelm yourself by putting in the whole projects/assignments especially if you have lots of them. For example if you are doing an essay you just put in small things at a time like the introduction. Then move on to other stuffs. Not sure if this works for you, but this is what ive been doing. Try it though^_^

I was like what idea, oh you just got here. Welcome to the forum, fellow self actualizer!

I like to dance. I don't think it does any harm of any kind. In fact it kind of helps with my development

I think we all have sense of humour. It's just that we don't express ourselves. We can be really funny around my friends but maybe not to people we don't intimately know. To me therefore being funny is just being able to express yourself to anybody. Threat everybody as if they are already your friend.

If possible I think we should have a chat room.

yea, this is really interesting too. Maybe Leo should make a video about 'How to make your parents less Toxic so that they don't suffer and infect each family member'