Nexeternity

I woke up last night with a flash of the ceremony. Its really not what anyone thinks it is... it cant be... if not they would want to do it. So healing, it shows you the beauty of existence. How everything is truly made out of light and love. How light your body can feel and how light its energy can flow through it. I wish more peopel would try a Bufo ceremony.

@winterknight Thanks makes sense.

@non_nothing They ask for your email to do the online course. Its free.

@Shin Hey Shin! I am doing the course and really enjoying it. Thanks so much.

@winterknight I understand your answer and I agree. But from a more regular standpoint, just talking like regular folk... how do you think you would react to what would normaly be a frightening situation? Just out of curiosity I ask, I know its fundamentally an unanswerable question and no one can really know how they will react to things in the future... I am just asking for fun and want to hear your response just for giggles

@winterknight Not sure if this was asked before but... Do you think that you could face stuff that most people would get nervous or fearful without feeling any nerveousness? Like if you had to make a speech in front of lots of people or a more extreme example would be if you were about to be killed... do you think you could stay in that peaceful place?

I got the insight yesterday about the everything is love thing! Really felt how everyone and everything, every being, is doing what it thinks its best for itself, even when totally misguided. Its all a love operation, it just gets twisted, or at least it seems to get twisted from out limited perspectives! But its all love, and its all okay!

Whats the biggest diference you felt the day before and the day after enlightenment? Whats the biggest change?

I am really happy. The bufo ceremony was so amazing, my heart is wide open. My violin playing is going great!! I have been sending whatsapps and facebook messages to everyone telling them I love them haha Hope anyone reading this has an amazing day!

@Mikael89 @purerogue Guys please avoid the back and forth bickering...

I wrote a post once about stuff that helped me with my depression, I did psychoanalisis too... its good stuff but it didnt do it for me... It works for others though.

I have seen the videos and articles criticizing Teal Swan and Betinho. Leo has a video against him too, so does Mooji. Honestly I watch Teal Swans videos and take notes on them, I buy her books. When I watch a video by Betinho I like what he says and the way he says it, great transmission, great energy. Everyone makes mistakes, everyone fucks up. I am glad all these people exist though, to me they help much more than they hurt. Just my two cents.

@herghly Not sure its the best resource but what I read made sense to me heh. https://aandbcounseling.com/avoid-picking-demons-someone/

Pretty intense as usual... One of the coolest things I saw was that little ebb and flow of resistance and the letting go of it, the getting in the flow and the slightly resisting the flows of energies. Seeing those little inauthenticities and authenticities creep in and out of my movements, my thoughts, just my actions in general. Its really crazy the tension we hold in our bodies... and I would even say our psyches and emotions. How we need to free ourselves from all that tension but without overly forcing it. Lots of gratitude and surrender to the earth, sun, water, air. Lots of asking for forgiveness for all that sin I hold, all that egoic stuff I still have plenty of. The feeling of laying flat on the ground and all I need to do is hold my arms facing outward, opening my body, surrendering, and letting the medicine, shaman, and entire universe just do its thing. Amazing medicine. Really amazing. Oh I forgot a scary part... at one point after the second time I smoked I felt like I was going crazy, like my reality was falling apart and I went too far, I had a flash that I was having a psychotic kind of melt down and that I just ruined my life and everyones day... it was all just fears, in the video I was just screaming a bit but nothing really crazy happened. I feel like now that I have total faith in the medicine and the shaman and my life is going pretty well that the medicine is going deeper and trying to unconver all my deepest fears and resistances. I also felt this bit of pride that I was "doing a good job" after the first smoke and after the second one knocked me down I saw that there is still arrogance in me and how I must stay humble always. One last thing... I got an insight into tension, structure, rigidness, denseness and hardness. These are all things that I tend to complain about, the tension in my back and neck, the lack of efficiency of certain structures and conditionings, the rigidness and denseness and hardness we see in ourselves and the world. The thing is though... as I learned from being totally opened up with my psyche totally opened up... well the universe needed to develop these mechanism in order for things to be able to exist... if not... all of existence would be blob of chaotic energy. So in a sense... some gratitude to all that tension... a little less arrogance about me thinking I know how relaxed or free things should be.

@Lynnel Not sure! Must be. Probably just any type of purification work you do on yourself. The Bufo is just a blast of purification I think.

Update: Everything is really amazing. I feel like I have been able to better integrate the past 4 experiences with this one. I dropped my sleep quota by like 2 hours straight up. Those demons were really sucking up my energy!! For the record, I used a condom so that wont really help you not catch something if you are with the wrong partner. I did some research on demons and it seems that you can get them from sex and also from letting someone control you into doing things you dont want to do. That makes sense to me. I was worried you could also get them from hugs or dancing with someone but it seems that is not the case fortunately!!! I feel so good and confident that I even told my mom that I hoped one day she would try the medicine lol... not much of a chance, shes pretty conservative when it comes to mind altering substances, but I had to put it out there!!!

@MM1988 You need to find an activity you like doing where you will meet people in the process of doing it. Thats the key. You will be happy because of the activity and the people you meet will be attracted to a happy person. Also... be honest. Even if the truth makes for some bad conversation that tecnically makes you "look bad" its still refreshing to see someone be themselves and be vulnerable. If you are a nice happy person that has the opportunity to run into new people on a regular basis you should find someone to connect with in a short time span.

Once a month should be fine if you are using them responsibly. If you keep working on yourself between trips, keep trip reports, see yourself growing and changing for the better... well then you are on the right track.

@Leo Gura Nope. Was not even on my radar. Going to ask around...

I hear you man. Life sucks sometimes. Thats great that you made a post like this expressing yourself, and its great that youre crying, super healthy reaction. Teal Swan has great videos on how to feel better... I used this one a few times. Dont be so hard on yourself and dont put so much pressure on yourself. No one is rushing you to figure things out. Try and do things that will make you feel good about yourself, like making someone smile, doing something for someone, giving someone a gift or sending them a nice message or whatever. Its a small step but it helps, you kind of start realizing that you can actually make the world a bit better just by doing something small. Hope this helps.

I think its not so much that we like approval but that we are so hurt by dissaproval. We come into this world not really knowing how or why and we start having thoughts, emotions and actions that people tell us are wrong, or absolutely bad. We start believing this and boom we start getting all tangled up making aspects of us wrong and aspects of us right. I think this creates so much trauma that any sort of authentic approval starts lessening that heavy load we have on our back and we are reminded that we are ok, that we are doing life okay.

@Lynnel Thanks! Yes Bufo Alvarius. 5 Bufo, 6 Ayahuasca, 2 Temazcal (Sweat lodge) and 1 San Pedro.

@Leo Gura Yea! Its really amazing. Feels like the Tao Te ching transformed into a blunt. I need to update... Upon further reflection and rewatching my video I saw that I had demons inside me. It was pretty much an exorcism, you could tell my screaming was those bad boys pouring out of me. I talked to the shaman about it and its definately because I shared sexual energy with people I shouldnt have. Never really felt I truly understood those warnings of "be careful who you share your sexual energy with". I honestly thought it applied more to girls than to guys, and also before I used to have such a hard time getting laid that I would brush that advice off. Yea... no more. Going to be way more careful going foward.

Bufo ceremony # 5 I usually like to make a thread about my trips but I decided I would just post them here instead. Pretty intense as usual... One of the coolest things I saw was that little ebb and flow of resistance and the letting go of it, the getting in the flow and the slightly resisting the flows of energies. Seeing those little inauthenticities and authenticities creep in and out of my movements, my thoughts, just my actions in general. Its really crazy the tension we hold in our bodies... and I would even say our psyches and emotions. How we need to free ourselves from all that tension but without overly forcing it. Lots of gratitude and surrender to the earth, sun, water. Lots of asking for forgiveness for all that sin I hold, all that egoic stuff that still comes up. The feeling of laying flat on the ground and all I need to do is hold my arms facing outward, opening my body, surrendering, and letting the medicine and shaman do their thing. Amazing medicine. Really amazing. Oh I forgot a scary part... at one point after the second time I smoked I felt like I was going crazy, like my reality was falling apart and I went too far, I had a flash that I was having a psychotic kind of melt down and that I just ruined my life and everyones day... it was all just fears, in the video I was just screaming a bit but nothing really crazy happened. I feel like now that I have total faith in the medicine and the shaman and my life is going pretty well that the medicine is going deeper and trying to unconver all my deepest fears and resistances. I also felt this bit of pride that I was "doing a good job" after the first smoke and after the second one knocked me down I saw that there is still arrogance in me and how I must stay humble always.