Harikrishnan

So i had a profund shroom trip 1 week back i dont know exact gram of thing i eat but it was higher than last two times. Last time i felt like someone was contacting me and giving me answers. This time also same thing happend. My intention before trip was everything regarding being sucessful in life. First visuals started to change and while looking at sky my mind went still and everything stopped, it felt like a frame, nothing moving and when mind slowly moves sky also slowly float. My sense of self was lost and higher self took control over the body, body was moving arround. I was told not to worry and i will be sucessful like i want. Things happening in future was played as it is said.(i knowing things happening in future). There will be insights througout journey and you have to listern to it. I need not worry about future everything that will grow you will happen at right time. Everything happend in life was great for my growth and it couldnt be other way arround (i always regreted about my past wasting time.) At this point tears came from my eyes . I was crying. I saw life as life as a group of frames. Saw like there are parralel realities happening. I can choose any mindset i want and live. All this felt really good, but what made me felt upset (i dont know what feeling it was) is my best friend who is married came to this image and i saw her with her husband and it is being said he will divorce and she will be with me. I really like her but i never wanted her in my life. But for past couple of days i am developing a huge interest/desire to her. I think iam deluding myself. If iam how to move away from it.

I shared it with 5 of my friends, And none saw it. Now i even hide this forum and everything from people sight when iam travelling and checking his content.

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Thanks. I have a very long way to go. I will be mindfull.

So what should i do here. Act like it dosent matter. Or supress my supress my this kind of emotions.

To me its like acting unusual than what i am. Maybe i dont know.

What does it even mean? Can u explain what he told? I dont get it.

Feels Good.

There was a post about Magick here deep stuff and there is someone i dont remember his name here who is very well with that style. Search you will find the post and person

Dubai is a nice place but still treat people like slaves. Are racist. I was once arrested there for not carrying papers. Police treated me very well. There are nice people in there police dept.

Omg i never saw that post. I am the preoccupied- anxious. Also, i was the ambivalent/Resistant child, i rememeber i used to cry everyday when in was in kindergarten for a year, missing my sister and mom i used to run towards her class then

More i reflect on myself i finds out that i want things quickly, everything from relationships to finances i want it quickly. I will be having lets say a relationship for instance with a particular person and then i want to get it quickly and i will be having lot of thoughts about it and then i will be having emotions of lack of it and it makes me kind of powerless and miserable and finally in 3 or 4 days i completely let go of that need, and in this time they will loose complete attraction to me and she acts like a unknown friend of mine. This has been happening for past couple of my relationship, and i feel like i am in certain kind of loop. I find this happens in other areas of my life like i love to write and i start with something for couple of days and then i develop some kind of lack and i stop writing. Is it because i am not having delayed gratification? If so how to develop it? Or is it something else.

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You from Indian subcontinent? ?

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Naah let me take a lottery. ? First a vision need to be there and then work. With use of loa work will be more easy since there will be less resistence. Practice practice practice first use Loa for small things like getting a message or call from friend, then getting free food, getting a interview call, getting a job, then a relationship (most people go for relationship first and might get stuck and loose positive momentum) by this time you will develop strong trust in Loa. Then you have to go for your millionaire vision. Then to areas where you love. Visualization will take you all the way to everything you desire.

I found this video really interesting there has been lot of what she means when she says; now lets see what He means when he say

I think awarness also place a role, like if u are more when doing skill instead of mind going all arround the world, there will be better result.

So i have been going to yoga classes for past 2 months,(Mon-fri) and skipped many classes. class consist of mainly loosening exercises and some asanas (10 asanas) mostly. During asanas some of old memories comes up both good and bad, looking at it mindfully without it dissapears i think its removing past karma. Sexual thoughts decreased, need of sex decreased. No of masturbation decreased. (When doing no fap there is a kind of neurosis or some kind of i shouldnt fap like thing happening in mind but here there is nothing like that). One night i even had energy release of needinees of sex from my system and other night i was laughing at my own needinees for sex. I also think contemplating is also becoming little more easier. Like insights coming easily. Sad part is my meditation sittings have decreased. But i make it up with being mindful when doing asanas. I think yoga will help people who ask about how to overcome needinees for sex, remove sexual thoughts,porn addiction and overall be healthy.

Both are different. Its like being horny all the time vs enjoying the sex when it happens. To explain little more i didnt get sex that often and i wanted it all the time like was desperate to have sex even when i was having decent meditation but now with yoga am not having much sex thoughts and neediness. and maybe as knock pointed out i was uncomfortable with my body and that created it and with yoga i was able to clear it.

@KnockYeah i also think so, those all asanas stimulating lower portion of the body might have done the trick. B/w what u said emotional/mental problems have a physical origin from your body. Can u direct me to some books on this topic i have leo's booklist if his boollist contains this book then can u tell under which category and number, or else book name.

Nice design. I would have not added text like who am i in it coz like its giving away what artist meant by his design easily. Let the people guess oh what is that design mean on @abrakamowse t shirt. Does it mean he is thinking who am i or something else ?

Thank you ?

@Knock it depends. Some asanas where easy but asanas like Bhadrasana is hard even now while doing that asana my leg still dosent touch ground.(its a great asana) Dhanurasana was hard first but now its easy same with halasana. Can u explain on this little more. @ajasatya Yes hatha yoga is legit even with 2 months of practice am getting good result. My emotions are pretty good lately and iam having good motivation to move away from victim mentality and build a passionate life.