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@Matteo Wow. What a great read! Thanks for sharing! So young to be what you are. How wonderful to have a friend who is also able to be so vulnerable. Know you both know the connection! So sweet. Enjoy the adventure of you! ❤️

There really aren’t bad and good just a circus of individual preferences. Control is rooted in thinking which is illusionary ultimately, so relaxing, stomach breathing, letting go of concerns, just being in the flow of the now is a state of mindfulness. Look for the difference between acting mindful and mindfulness. ‘Acting’ makes us perk up, ‘being’ makes us relax. Notice the nature of consciousness is that it comes and goes. When it’s here, now, we are present. When we are not present, we’re ‘sleeping’ through life. So mindfulness at work is the same as mindfulness not at work. There’s a deeper thought pattern about work vs not work that takes time replace, but this is the freeing of the mind, it’s worthwhile and needs some patience. It leads to effortlessness by default, when all of our illusions such as this are no longer believed. The truth is called the truth because it’s the truth. Lol. The ego believes. So believe in your self, until the notion is hilarious. There’s a paradox/circle/practice of making more finite distinctions until we’re no longer separate, in terms of consciousness. Thinking and pain are the mechanisms that convince us everything is real. “Defend the body/person” thoughts (ego) kicks in, veils the true self, and applies a percespective of separate ‘me’. This triggers fear, because it implies we are real, which implies we come and go, exist and then don’t exist, live and die, etc. This feels bad because it’s being in a state of incorrect thoughts about one’s self, which does not resonate with the truth of self. Yes, definitly be doing daily practices. Manage which ones to do so you don’t get stagnant. Mindfulness across the board. What you eat, how you eat, what you watch, read, relationships, self talk, honesty, personality, everything. Sometimes I think it’s good to look at this like you’re doing the real work, the actual liberating work all day everyday. To let all of the baggage this can stir up go, we have meditation and sleep. The over all cleansing process could be sleep, then meditation, mindfulness, always mindfulness. Allow the falsities to reveal themselves. Stomach breath and relax through the rougher purifications of the mind, then sleep to rejuvenate again. Being consciously aware and mindful enough to actually see through the facade of your own ego, your very own mind, is no joke. You can see this in the world. Jokes are funny because they are inappropriate. Comedians make jokes about everything, like, anything goes! But nobody is gonna make a joke to someone else about the degree to which their mind is free, or not free. With the truth in mind, even the most unacceptable jokes are funny. But speaking directly about one’s freedom is never funny. A deep part of all of us senses something profound about ourselves. We are tricky, tricky fuckers.

@molosku Curious, what might be an example of the ‘other belief’ this opens the door to? Thanks

@Hsinav Thanks for drawing my attention, I deleted them. Some weird fluke the way it posted like 5 times.

@JackL Sorry man. For some reason I assumed this was your first trip. Have fun!

@Epiphany_Inspired https://www.nhs.uk/conditions/stress-anxiety-depression/overcoming-fears/?

Are you trolling, or just being vague? You took benzos, you didn’t take anything, they were in your system? Are you maybe on a trip now?

@Galyna You’re certainly headed in the right direction.

Phonetic alphabet contains no F ‘s, but these are the trappings of life, and it’s important to learn to let go.

@Nathan Drugs involved? Just went for like a walkaboute? Was something troubling you at home that led to goin all Forest Gump on it? Is there something you want to be pursing or getting going in your life that you haven’t been able to get yourself to start? Something you know you want to stop doing but just can’t seem to? From what you’ve said so far, sounds like your in one of the harder ages / parts of life, and that led you to act pretty carelessly. If you’re comfy with sharing, how old are you and what’s your living situation?

@pluto You sob. You really hit the feels with that one. @cetus56 Hellz. Yes. ?

@zedprotect I tend to agree with you. You are going in the right direction imo. This is a great place to be, to continue to uncover these type of things. Have you by chance watched the double slit video on YouTube? https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Q1YqgPAtzho These exercises are right in the wheelhouse of what you mentioned. https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/7587-list-of-enlightenment-exercises/ Abraham Hicks (YouTube) is a great teacher of relativity. It’s a love or hate flavor of delivery. Worth seeing if it resonates with you or not. Googling Truth, and then the words in it’s definition and so on, and son, is eye opening and helpful. Making 2 lists; belief and experience; And writing each major event in your life into one of the two lists is helpful. A lot of what goes in the experience column, when seen visually and honestly, gets moved to the belief column...eye opening too. It draws a deeper authenticity out, and it’s liberating. A distinction that came to mind when I read your post, is that our own thinking, the actual thoughts if you will, are of the ‘physical world’. Meditation, not believing our own thoughts, finding the space inbetween thoughts and it expanding, state of no thought, all helpful to become aware of. Choose what feels right for you, and for others. That works the best. ❤️ Have fun man.

The ego AND the food AND the body are illusory. There is a freedom from preference in eating that is freeing, sweeter and more delicious than any food. Most eat semiconsciously based on feeling better. That’s making feeling good a second priority to taste. That’s ridiculous if you think about it.

@JackL eat clean. Take em on a pretty empty stomach. Have a banana and water at the ready. Have a back up movie ready just incase it becomes helpful. I recommend Christmas Vacation,The Zoo Keeper w Kevin James and Trolls. Lol. Be letting everything go for days before as best you can. (Thought attachment wise) Watch the double slit video on YouTube a few times each day before the trip. Take care of little things you’ve been putting off Be kind to everyone, especially people you typically don’t even notice or pay mind to. Give your best ‘inner self talking’, your absolute best, leading up tot he trip Make sure the environment is safe. Write a note that says “You took a psychedelic, nothing’s wrong with you, don’t call the police.” In case you need a reminder. Have a sober trip sitter, but be in a room alone for most of the trip. Another’s presence has more effect than we tend to realize that it does. The ground is grounding. If you need to feel more solid, it’s ok to lay on the floor and just let go completely. Taking too much vs going gradual can set you back and rock the foundation. Do not feed the lightening orbs, no matter how kind they are. Look in the mirror as long as you can. WIll probably only take eight seconds or so. Write a trip report! My estimate is that we all get EXACTLY what we need on a trip. The question is are we able to understand it, and then real-ize it. We experience the perfection of the flow we were in all along. There are no bad trips, if we are open minded, fully a student to the tool, and can put our preferences aside.

@Nathan The path to wanted? Like you were eating healthy and then slipped back? Overall consciousness; did the ‘work’, had the results, and it felt so good, maybe you didn’t need the work anymore, but now you’re not feelin so good? Resolved an addiction and fell back into it? What’s going on? It’s anonymous, and only half the feedback will be ridicule so let er rip man. Let’s resolve it with your awareness.

I share the glass bubble feeling, that there’s nothing beyond the senses that could sensibly be sensed, the richness of the sound bed, the reverberations of the each sound together, and i feel the home and the calm in now. I love knowing it’s always there. I also feel like even the most silent now is in a state of about to be funny. And I love how all questions resolve into the meow.

@pluto I agree and thanks. Did a .5g round of golf alone during that ‘research’ era. One of the best rounds score wise. Maybe that’s Tiger’s secret.

@Rilles Awesome. Doing the stomach breathing, and the stomach / diaphragm singing?

@SOUL yes it is ?

@Shin I can only free myself!!!! You guys don’t know what you’re talking about!!!! LOL

@pluto NO!!!! The Truth will set you fre!!! LOL?

@Thanatos13 It is deliciously comforting. ☺️ Like mom’s apple pie.

@SOUL saw your pic you posted, got a little teary eyed, plunged the toilet I just clogged, and posted my picture. If that’s not life, I don’t know what is.❤️

@SOUL

@Thanatos13 Of course it is, TO YOU! ? Do the work. Lol