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@MarkusSweden Not positive; genuine, honest, open minded & curious ........>>>>> Truth.

@egoless ??

@Solace Me reading this thread.....What the actual Fuck?!?!........................oh ok, good. I am very happy for you. I’m also curious, was the 2 hour head stand done to make the looping easier? ?

@Nadosa Nothing is wrong with you. There is absolutely nothing wrong with you. This is the rubber band being pulled back, stick around, when this thing turns around (and it will), you’re going to experience a life better than anything you can presently imagine. You just don’t realize you are choosing how you look at things. Specifically, you’re unaware of how you think of your self. Your level of being “right” and your stubbornness is at Jedi Master. Master how you chose to look at things instead. I was in the same exact place when I was 19. I lost my mind. Literally could not remember my first name. You will be all the better for having experienced these depths. You’ll be in a world where everyone is afraid. But you won’t be, because you made it through this. This, will make you who you are. You will be fearless. You’ll laugh at fear while people around you are crying like babies and shitting their pants. In the limitless, there are no answers, because there are no questions. In the finite, we create the questions without realizing it, and therefore seek answers that we never needed an answer to, to begin with. Everyone does this - they state that which their question arises from, and they say “I know it’s not this, so don’t ask about it”, revealing they are already aware of the answer, but struggling to realize it, to face it. “Dont question why there are these patterns, I dont know” - You reveal that you do know, and that you are choosing these patterns. Can you give some background info to help us help you... What were the last few books you read, to reshape your views? What does your daily meditation look like? What does your diet look like? What does your daily exercise look like? What is relevant from your past? .... Moved a lot, trauma, reoccurring traumas, financial insecurity / suffering, etc?

@Charlotte First you perceive being cut off. Then you interpret it. Then you sense the trigger, or are triggered. Then you are aware of the triggering, and react, or don’t react. I’m saying the interpretation was false and the rest need not take place. What is referred to as homeostasis here reveals a present perception which is being tainted by a misunderstanding of something that was experienced / observed in the past. Until that misinterpretation of the past event receives the light of awareness, it perpetually adds falsity to present perceptions which seem unrelated. The Truth shall set you free. @AlexB (I hope you don’t mind me using your post in this way to explain this) It is impossible to lose self development. Because you did some self development, you now know better - as in, you know more so what you want and what you don’t want. If you don’t align and make choices from what you now know - “It sucks really bad”. You know what you need to stop doing, and you know what you need to keep doing, and you know what you need to start doing. You can. You totally can. Identify what you need to do, and WRITE IT DOWN. A thought in your head has got nothin on something physical your eyes can see. It’s a total game changer. Not to mention, it gets it ‘out of your head’. Keep it in front of you. Hang it on the wall. If you need to stop doing a habit, meditate for 10 minutes, 10 times a day to slow yourself down and make more conscious choices. If you need to forgive someone, sit quietly alone, and do it. The forgiveness is for you, not them.

@Charlotte Yeah. An example might be, I am aware I get frustrated when someone cuts me off in traffic (keepin it simple here). The falsity is that someone cut you off. They cut some nameless, faceless person in some car off, because they suffer from overinflated self importance. They believe they’re more important than the person they cut off. So, they’re in a hurry, cause their ‘shit to get done’ is more important than others. They’re in a hurry because they have not learned to be present in the now. They have not learned this because their ego is running rampant. They are afraid to self inquire through the false perspective of reality and of self they adopted when something happened in their past. The truth is, no one cut me off. That was just some guy who is looking for love. He believes being important and hurrying will make him feel better. Bliss is inside him, and he doesn’t have a clue. Now, how will you feel the next time this event takes place?

@zoey101 Have you done this yet? @who chit Excellent post.

@AlexB There are things to let go of, and false understandings to be truly understood. Do you have awareness of what frustrates you, what you experience which causes you to think lowly of yourself?

@dharm4 What was your experience of 5MEO like? Also, “I had some deep experiences” - what kind of experiences? What determinations have you made between the deep experiences you had, and the negation of other expansive experiences like “retreat, no drug, no video, book or method.” Thanks in advance for your willingness to share, if so. I haven’t tried it and am curious.

@cetus56 Too much nonduality. I feel you on that. @Timotheus ?

@Ether You chose to see that, you could have chose to see this I don’t think you remember having depression at age 9. I think that’s a story you’ve retold yourself many times. So somewhere from birth to age 9, you learned to interpret life as serious. What was it? A trauma? Your parents / environment?

@Ether When did you start taking life seriously? At what age? Why - what happened that you interpreted as “life is serious” “reality is serious” “I have to be serious”? This is semi deep in your perspective. There won’t be any answers or relief in what you’re looking at. It’s how you’re seeing the biggest (life) picture. Big step here, opening up about it. ??

@MarkusSweden Kinda sounds like you’re just talking about plain ol’ moving out...?

@Crystalous Love your avatar name btw.

@Shiva I tried that man. It was just to hard.

@Deutsche22 Yep. And sorry to hear about your mom. You’ll expand faster for the constant bs, and when you’re finally at peace in the joy, she’ll take an interest. When she does, you’ll learn everything you learned more deeply. Of course, I’m projecting all of this.

@Torkys It all happened really fast. ?

@Torkys awww. I just lost my quote virginity. Lol. Thanks.

@phoenix666 Thanks! You spelled mom, ‘mam’, and now I’m hearing Eric Cartman. Lol. Not sure if you get that joke... That is really great that you’re tapping into that calmness, and love! Something to consider, look into your thinking - that is actually the source of the ‘nervous and lash out’. It weird, cause there’s empathy, cause we really are all one being, and at the same time, each of us experience emotionally what we are projecting - the output of our interpretation. This is the call for consciousness work, God bless that call! This is hardest to see with someone we live with, but on the flip side, it makes for the deepest growth when we do. Like uber f’n freeing. Observing the tension connection of mind and body, that’s some high even awareness man. Nice. I also noticed that I feel awkward and uneasy in the presence of other people. I can sense that most of them are very tensed and anxious, but don't want to show it, like they're all wearing impenetrable masks. don't know what to make out of that though Dude. Most people are not as deeply honest as you. Most are caught in the maya, the conditioning. Be you man. That’s a good thing to be. Let them notice that honesty in simply being you, as you are. Their tension is Leo’s job security! Lol.

@Dodo ⚡️?❣️

@Mantas You’re amazing and inspiring man. Thank you. @Woody ❤️

@Crystalous Freakin great man. I love you too. Keep practicing you’re doing so great! That foundation will only grow stronger. And no fighting the illusion. Unify, it’s you too!

@okulele Mindfully breath from your stomach.

@cirkussmile ❤️ We got another day! I can’t even fuckin believe it. What a miracle.