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@Etagnwo I see. I understand where you’re coming from now. Thanks.

@Etagnwo So something that doesn’t exist is repressing all that does exist? I’m really trying to understand you. I’m not there yet.

You’re more aware now of the ego’s shenanigans like thinking about how everyone else feels - instead of continuing to realize the truth within you. Being aware is plenty. It weeds it out. Thoughts bubble up and just start mixin right in with all the others -so nip thoughts at the root, be aware there. If the end to suffering, enlightenment, and realization of nonduality are on the path... then thoughts about everyone else would be a magnicficent yet formidable trap, as it would generate much thinking, aimed without. You don’t have to say as much as it seems you think you should, that’s just the nature of the over thinking. It’s nothing, thoughts hold no power. You are the power. Or get a job as a dancer and bank off this...hidden people pleasing talent? You know I wish the best for you either way. ? Ideally we’d change everything about ourselves, our perspectives and our circumstances, just for the frame of reference in experience - the wiggling loose of the mind - and you’re aware there’s a hidden gift in every circumstance.

@zoey101 Of course it’s not your fault. I’m so sorry to hear this news. It was his decision. Be careful with thinking it was your fault in any way, it was not. Let yourself grieve as much and as naturally as you want and need to. If someone doesn’t understand or has an issue, you can’t be thinking that’s your problem. You have had so much going on, you need to be able to just be you and let whatever needs to process, process. So sorry again Zoey. Praying for you.

@Saumaya I can attest to that. Sorry @Quanty

@the_end_of_me What’s a who?

@Torkys You rock man. I have a question for you...what is the ideal emotional & mental environment for insights to come, revelations to come, for enlightenment? @Faceless ???

@VladimirGiven the choice between reliving trauma in my mind everyday for the rest of my life (a thought) because I identify with it, and experiencing the trauma again, I’d choose the trauma. “If I’m God, why would I have had that happen to me?” is a very sneaky statement. The ego uses the trauma (a memory) to reinforce itself as “me”. That way it can shit all over everyone, whenever it wants, with a feeling of justification. But it’s just a thought. A memory is just a thought. It’s powerless. Other thoughts the ego uses; reincarnation, death, karma, becoming, levels, physical lives, better place. The brain is the most miraculous maya and deeply underestimated. It won’t even pause before weaving a story much bigger than this life, with heavens and hells - just to protect a false identity. On a trip, the mind is free, it is hard to think. Can’t even use a cell phone. Identity must be free, surrendered. If identity is held on to during a trip, we’ll have “hell” to pay for it. You’ve paid enough imo Vlad. That false identity is hell. You can say to the psychadelic “I am this, which this happened to”, and it will Truth you right in the nuts. The Truth has always won, and will always win, there is no opponent, only ideas of opponents. Humility is the way. If the brain can think it’s way to resolving the trauma / identity then I am completely ignorant as to how - otherwise, it must be let go of, surrendered. It’s too big. Give it to God.

Dave Matthews & Tim Reynolds, 2nd row, solo. Great experience.

@Outer I don’t assume we employ similar meanings for the word contribution.

You’re already God, it’s the falsities that need surrendering, and the idea of “I” “me” (what @Faceless helps us zero in on ??) Not sure if you’ve heard what he’s saying yet. I didn’t post much at all for maybe 4-5 days a while back, because I did not understand him. I didn’t recall ever just flat out not understanding what someone was saying, and it bothered “me”. I read his posts many times and contemplated. When I did understand, I cried in pure joy for 2 days. Dropped a 50 pound mental weight - Lifesized relief. In hindsight, I think I skipped a no self stage of realization altogether on the path, through practices & psychadelics, experienced Being. But then “Integration” & “Embodiment” were a “problem”, because there was a concept of a me (self) as a filter, thus perpetually chasing such experiences. I had no awareness of the degree I was fooling my ‘self’. Hopefully that’s useful. There’s no Godly lifestyle, this “you” (idea) is judging this “you” idea, resulting in doubly overthinking, imo, leading to the numbness & resistance experienced when that idea of you gets what ‘it’ wants (vg’s, etc). When it get’s what it wants, that’s conditioning and it feels like poop. Could be a desire to be accepted & approved of, which reinforces “other”, which comes back to reinforce a false ‘self’, seperate from ‘other’. Contemplating & realizing could ‘break’ the loop, good ol’ fashioned sitting through it, doing nothing, ideally in nature. Years ago, I was on COD (Der Reise) nightly till 1am, eating crap, then sleeping poorly, thinking poorly, etc. A shroom trip introduction of nonduality (on a foundation), and I just haven’t been interested in picking it up since. Not sure if that’s helpful, hope so. Consider not referring to those hobbies as distractions. Rather, realize you are already doing exactly what you want. If that doesn’t feel good, a deeper realization of what you actually want to be doing is already on it’s way. ”Get rewarded for mastery”... The choice to love yourself is the reward. There is no future reward. Alignment. To care for The Temple is the greatest “reward” because it’s inherent love. It’s connection by default. Simply remembering what you are. Uncertainty which allows choice, is the greatest gift in the universe. Yes choice is an illusion, but the entire life is an illusion. You have that gift. You are that gift. A dream gift is great for a dream life. Whatever you want to call this, in which you can do that, is The Present, the gift. How precious is it? How precious is Life? Healthy activities - start small & easy. Subscribe to a health magazine. It’ll come every month, easy automatic inherent accountability / reminder, and it primes your environment if you leave them lying around. Subscribe to health oriented youtube channels, and daily and weekly emails from teachers of health and well being. Put posters and diagrams of healthy food in your kitchen. Someday, before you’ve eaten anything, put an orange in front of you, for an hour. Then eat it slowly and deliberately. You might remember how delicious nature & well being are. There is a direction of causation (albeit illusory).... Being...aware...thinking...sensing. Look at this in the reverse direction and the ridiculousness is apparent...you can’t visually see thinking, you can’t think awareness, and you can’t aware being. That’s just silly. So in contemplation, use this ‘direction’ to see where you’re unaligned. I really rambled on here, if not useful print it and use it for toilet paper. Godspeed! (Slow af)

@AleksM Love your contributions.

@7thLetter Cool. I think it’s a tiny bit fair to say quantum mechanics helps ‘fill a gap’ in understanding between what our ordinary senses take in, and the Being. Not literally, literally speaking it’s a total magic mystery (how it is that there is actually no gap). Only that I am that I am. I love the mystery though, and how it’s all around me all the time, how I get to be “in” it. But anyways, QM’s can be a usefool tool.

@Etagnwo It’s me, though. I’m the rapist, I’m the child molested. It’s all appearance of what we all are. You may want to start with easier things, in terms of loosening up identification. Like flowers, and puppies. The actuality of “existential” is much broader and deeper than you know...yet.

@electroBeam Sounds like heavy attachment to thoughts. Everything is pretty lovable with freedom from thinking. Meditation is the way. (psychadelics are helpful) You’re a deep insightful person, very intelligent, so I’d guess you integrate, and then lose it, find the peace, and then get a little sucked in to the chaos. High intelligence seems to have this relative situation to peace. In terms of letting go, completely, some people have less conceptually ‘formed person’ knowledge wise to let go of. Consistency of practices, multiple per day, might be really helpful.

@MarkusSweden Nothing is happening, and you’re God, so you’re free to look at things however you like. ♥️ I’ve found that freedom allows me to do more to ‘help’. Altruism comes to mind.

@Dinesh Karki Check out Ester Hicks.

@7thLetter If you haven’t dove into quantum mechanics yet give it go. There’s an entirely different way of thinking about things.

Cool vid. Could you sense his agenda against his ego? It is all magic.

@tecladocasio What do you mean by enlightened, it, or it realized it? Cause it’s all it, animals too. Nothing to realize, really.

@Rilles Excellent man!

@Faceless Hell of a call back. Nice.

C 2 No use of outcomes.

@Outer Not sure what you mean. I meant it seemed like you cared about what you were saying, vs being right about it.

Nailed it.