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@Zigzag Idiot Thanks and thanks for that link!

The knowing of your calling might be stronger right now than the amount of more intense consciousness work you want to be doing. Maybe you have too many plates in the air right now for this - but this is it. It is what you’re wanting, but it’s currently unrecognized as such. There are dots still to connect. Take your attention off all the plates. Take a break from being on top of everything. This is the dilemma of a multi-talented, developed individual, the very same sophistication in experience which naturally draws upon the energy that is kundalini. It is “source having your back”, or unification, spiritual alignment, etc. Use whatever terms you prefer, but, it’s no joke. It’s intense energy. The real deal. You picked it already, and now, it’s answering, it’s picking you too, so to speak. It’s your honestly, humility, compassion, true expression, desire, ambition, complexity, etc, which drew it. Take a few minutes to just relax about it, and imagine a scenario in which everything else on your plate was easily put on hold, and was looked after and kept safe by someone you highly trust, so you could welcome this thing, just like you’d welcome a friend you invited over. You wouldn’t invite someone over and then be to busy to welcome them in, you know? Welcome it, surrender to it, give yourself to it. Take breaks to enjoy and draw on that vision. It’s relieving. You’re not supposed to carry a shit ton on your shoulders and mind. You’re likely great at the kickin ass in life, but sucking at the surrendering. Knowing the art of the one without the other is not mindful of the obviousness that your present experience is always paramount. It’s the only point. If in the present moment you are suffering, it is still paramount, experience it deeply and fully. Seeing in this way needs to become more accepted, more real than what is currently understood as an accurate view of reality. There is a ‘level’ of incredible open mindedness; faith, wishful thinking, trusting, believing, “giving it to God”, attracting, ... - again, use whatever terminology you prefer - but this contributes to opening the crown chakra. It’s entirely counter logical. Logic, rational thinking, reasonability... are products of a closed crown. That is not a wrong or bad thing. But it is more limited and serious experience of life. The energy that is coming blows the mind open with new perspectives and actuality of Unity, Oneness, “Dream Fabric”, Superposition, - again, just words, pointing to an expansion yet experienced. The more material belief and perspective there still is, the harder it is to even imagine what your experience will be like, what your understanding of self and reality will be like, when the crown opens. Hopefully I’m communicating how tricky this could be without understanding this facet. It is the unknown. It is worthwhile to go. To let go. Being aware of the nature of the resistance to all chakras being completely aligned (kundalini) is key, “blockages”. Don’t focus on “the kundalini”, shine awareness on the blockages. Ideally, you would go into it directly, and it would be much worse temporarily, but of course that will pass and you’ll be the better for it. I don’t imagine you’d want to drag it out anyways. I know, it is a very intense healing. So intense it might not be recognized as what it really is yet, which is scary, to say the least. The sensations felt throughout the entire body are related to the remaining opening of the crown. The crown typically opens from all others being aligned, and then the mind opens as described above. There may be some blockage in the sacral. Hone in on the tingling in the lower spine. May be the sacral, and the resistance there might be of this same nature; “keeping all the plates in the air”, being very deliberate, intelligent, planning & executing timely, efficient & productive, etc. Opening to the next expansion does not discount these previous ones, it builds on them. Those great traits you’ve developed become the foundation to a yet unseen even greater experience. The universe is a powerful thing to connect with. Living on purpose is of course great, practical, necessary for any level of relative success, but can be a limiter in terms of consciousness in experience. This “limit”, is resistance to consciousness, but may very well not be understood by the mind. Maybe you’re at a ceiling, and it’s uniquely difficult because you’ve got your mind deeply into the life purpose / progress / productive end of things and weren’t expecting this. All of it unified together though, is the ultimate, as good as it gets. The unification process can be rough, but is most worthwhile. Finish it out. Shift perspective, more often, to whimsical, silly, fantastical, loose, light, easy, simple. Just be nobody for a while, carefree and silly. If “that ain’t you” then that is at least in part, a good deal of the solution (you might be too serious about yourself and not know it). A little less materialism, and a little more magical experience. A little less Elon Musk, and a little more Walt Disney. Maybe consider, what if the infinite energy behind this alignment, is not like a sophisticated adult, but an innocent child, more in tune with play than work. This could make this process much easier for you. Hopefully something here is helpful. Sending healing & ease your way man.

@SoonHei ♥️

Nothing is not some thing, nothing is everything, as everything is infinite. Nothing is undefinable, because it’s everything. Think - the whole is all that is, as all that is is the whole (being), rather than the whole as just a sum of all parts. The whole is conscious of itself. There’s no actual “parts”. The duality you’re referring too, about the ball, is helpful conceptually. Duality is also deeper, as it’s the means in which The One can appear as two or more “things”. This is everpresent as “reality” is duality. Think of cellular division for example, one magically and inexplicably becoming two, and then looping as two people magically and inexplicably appear to ‘make’ another, one. Also, imagine a fresh banana, ripe and ready to eat. It seems solid, and separate from other things. But then imagine the banana sitting in the road, in the hot sun, for a few days. It would be discolored, gases escaped, rotting, etc. The point is you could see that it was never actually a separate “thing” - that it was relative all along (to the air, the heat, the light, etc). So, even though there are solid, separate things in appearance - that is duality. In actuality there is the entirety of relativity, the whole, being. Just for fun, and to get a deeper idea of this, take a few minutes to try to pinpoint the actual point in which a banana you eat is no longer a banana, and becomes your body. “oh shit. My body’s just relativity?!” Love it exactly as it is though, and you might experience the absolute as well.

@Tony 845 I went through this, it took over a year to complete. My advice is that it is actually mind / mental, vs physical, in terms of finishing out the rollercoaster of it. The faster old habits, both actions and mental patterns die off, the faster it finishes. Also, definitly consider doing creative things as well. Learn guitar or piano, just basic chords, and write songs, whatever “quality”, that doesn’t matter. If you don’t, start singing. It’s all about you expressing yourself creatively. The development that transpires in thinking patterns actually finishes the job, and is awesome bt. Watch some emotional / creative movies too. I’d search What Dreams May Come, and watch that and maybe some more that are “related to” that movie. I’d also start listening to Abraham Hicks. There is a perspective there that takes a while to understand, but it might be the fastest catalyst for you specifically. Probably all sounds weird, but that’s what I’d do. Knowing what I know now, it could’ve been only a few months’ process. Also, if there was a person / event in your life, which you feel wronged you, shorted you, or in a lasting way left you disadvantaged, in the sense, you can’t go after what you want in life - you would need to let thinking patterns and emotions related to that die. If that’s the case, it’s a bit of suffering to go through, but then you’ll be more so ‘through it’. Again, if this is the case, consciously acknowledging the person/event as still limiting your perspective, and acknowledging to yourself you are ready to let it go and move on, will be enough to trigger the purification of the old views associated with it.

It’s “of mind”. There’s no objective reality.

@Mikael89 Ya. Doesn’t matter when the “results” are observed, but it does matter if they are. Have you thought about the implication of the double slit, quantum erasure, “relativity”, nonduality and the law of attraction / no assertion? (In the cumulative sense) @Arthur Great post!

@kieranperez What are your thoughts on this... And these... https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/23715-i-want-to-work-from-home/?do=findComment&comment=262685 https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/26227-how-do-you-make-money-online/?do=findComment&comment=296516 https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/25332-ways-to-make-money-online-not-business/?do=findComment&comment=284111 https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/26691-the-theory-of-getting-rich-online-in-a-nutshell-thread/?do=findComment&comment=306699 https://www.savethestudent.org/make-money/10-quick-cash-injections.html https://www.forbes.com/sites/jrose/2018/04/24/make-money-online/#3af0f36b4954 You might have already seen these things, but maybe there’s some content in there to at least get talkin and narrow it down to something. I feel for ya man. For what it’s worth, you’ve had some major breakthroughs, so I wouldn’t be surprised if there was some ego backlash happening too. I know you have actual things you need to do, just saying, if you haven’t, take time to watch that video for sure. Let me know if I can help at all.

@Leo Gura This would be a game changer for the population at large. The demystification, via demonstration, is like the greatest untapped reveal still unseen really. There is very little info online, and yoga studios are not representative of real yoga.

Look into (youtube) how the Gregorian calendar started, clocks made, set in agreeable for trains, etc = “time”. Being appears to be hair growing. For any useful application, it’s hair growing. In terms of identity, seeing through the duality of life & death (illusion), nondual awareness, and the actuality of being...it’s being. There seems to be experience, and within that there seems to be movement, and just like an apple has no meaning - we are the meaninger’s - we apply the thought “time passing” to the changes which appear to be experienced. Another way to look at it, but possibly too out of range for relativity of realization of the illusion of time (helpful though maybe), is infinite uses self to forget, allowing for a finite experience - so the only possibility of the finite experience, from the finite view, is “towards” infinite. Any path any human can take, is the path of expansion. Not in actuality, but again, from the finite perspective. In the simple sense, this is why there even is “I’ll be happy when....this job, that girlfriend/boyfriend, that house, that car, etc” and once any thing is achieved, or any object is created or purchased, then there is the next “I’ll be happy when...”. After fulfilling enough desires, the charade becomes all too obvious.

Unconditional meaninglessness. ♥️

@LoveandPurpose I think so. ?

@SQAAD Heal people. Take a reiki class. Sounds like a natural.

@Elia Gottardi What does “responsible” mean to you? Why is any of that scary to you? What meaning has any thing? Where does meaning transpire?

If you weren’t thinking, there’d be no dilemma. There is no dilemma.

@LoveandPurpose It’s a classic case of both. Read The Alchemist by chance? Enjoy the beautiful things, mind your spoon.

@Lynnel Ok, gotcha. I didn’t know about that regional difference. Thanks. I’d say, given you’ve done 2-3 g’s, that there is a threshold, referred to as ‘the hero’s dose’, usually 4-5g’s to 6-7g’s. There is a radical difference between the 2-3g range and the 4-5g range, contingent on relativity to you and your entire life. I’d agree with what’s been said already in this post. 4g and up opens consciousness previously unknown and unfathomable. You might experience what is far beyond “parallel dimensions and entities”. Be safe.♥️

Great insight. Very significant. In hopes of deepening this realization... How is thought experienced? Individual, always changing? How are ‘things’ or ‘objects’ experienced? Individual, always changing? Is there an example of an object, of a thing, which never changes? Is there movement within you? Are thoughts actually movement? Is anything actually moving? Are there “pieces”, “in there”, “moving”? Of course not. Thought is not movement. (That would be just another thought - which it sounds like you ‘see’ already.) Yet - thoughts appear to change. Just as the walking ants appear to change. Botantical life appears to change. Is a rock changing? It does not appear to be changing. Are thoughts, ants, plants, and rocks changing - or are they change - which appears as thoughts, ants, plants, and rocks? Are these things finite, or is there change - appearing as finite things? How could you know? What, in your experience, has never changed? Also.... Consider seeing, hearing, smelling, tasting, touch, and awareness. Is your experience of these unidirectional? Is one first, before all the others? And... Does something really die if there is stillness, or is the stillness what all changing things, all objects, and the duality of life and death - are appearing in? What is aware of this?

@Lynnel Do you mean you took 2.6g? As in two and six tenth’s grams? Are you using a comma where a period goes?

@Lynnel Can you clarify “2,6g” and “4,1g” and “2,6”? Are you talking about dried shrooms?

@stevegan928 Some of this might be useful. https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/17747-nonduality-meditations/

@Zigzag Idiot There are no self realized beings. ♥️

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They said “atoms” our whole life. It’s love. “Forgive them, they know not what they do” ? ? ? ?

@Ish1919 Your thinking doesn’t matter. Stop pretending it does. Let em all go. Write down one thing you want to stop, and one thing you want to start. Find out if you can follow through. See if you have free will or not for yourself.