Nahm

1 “Body” is a word, a sound, perception rather than a separate thing perceived. Look at “your body”, and notice “your body” are words you learned. In noticing this, what actually is that ? Does the thought “the body” - “want”? Does the thought “the body” think thoughts, move, eat, etc? On what direct experience, if any, is it based that the “body” “wants” to survive? Is that direct experience of another thought, about “body”, “survive”, “alive”? Perhaps you are using the body as a write off, and not inspecting what you are saying / talking about. The “body” never started existing, and will never cease to exist. The thought “body”, is currently believed simply from having repeated the thought many times. But “the body” is not what that is. That is not the thought, “body”. You are not the thought “alive”. “Alive” remains a priori to “you”, and so there is an assumed “you”, which “believes” it (you) is separate, and “alive”, and is a “body”. You are Awareness / Consciousness. (Scrutinizing here because your question is “What really happens when you die?” and I respect the asking, the being, and the awakening.) You are the sneakiest ‘thing’ that has ever been, in all of eternity. YOU. Really not kidding on this. Stop for a second and notice the sneakiness, - how easily you’re repeating beliefs rather than inspecting & and becoming aware of your dualistic beliefs. 2 The body never came, and is not something which could be ‘gone’. There is only consciousness. Consciousness is the world, believing in separatism, fearing death (itself) as such, and acting in kind (suffering, fear, greed, manipulation, general “devilry”, etc). The body does not have awareness. Awareness is appearing as a body but is not separate in any way from the air or any “thing” else which is an appearance of awareness / consciousness. Consciousness is Awareness. Awareness is not conscious, consciousness is not aware, there is nothing for awareness to be conscious of, nor is there anything for consciousness to be aware of. Consciousness (you) creates all that appears to be around itself, and as it’s (you) “name” is “I Don’t Know” - it (you) creates ideas about what it (you) is, in accordance with all that appears to be experienced “around it”. But what is “around it”, is not other than what is aware; awareness / consciousness. Consciousness “operates” precisely as a mind, convincing itself via that very same “mind” that it actually is a “mind”, which “operates”. These are all words, descriptions, sounds, - of the infinite being, the infinite creator, the infinite love - that you actually are. All just words pointing to what can not be said, because you would be saying, typing, hearing, reading, the words, thinking they’re about someone, or some thing - else. They are not. The thought arising, right now, don’t believe them. Let them go...you sneaky, sneaky being.

@zeroISinfinity ?? Crazy, really.

@The Don There is no you who lives and dies Don. There are ideas of Don. It of course totally seems like it, but that is consciousness, that is the point. There is just consciousness. Realized now or then, same realization. Everything that comes to mind is another thought, and thought is consciousness - see through it by letting it go, because ‘you’ can’t ‘see through it’. It can’t really even be said there is anyone or any realization. You’ve never moved, never done anything. That is how unexplainably magic you are, and “magic” is consciousness.

@Matt8800 Beautiful ??

@Strangeloop What is the reason you are resisting sexuality? I mean, what are you getting out of it? What makes the resistance worthwhile for you?

@CreamCat Imagine waking up tomorrow morning, with zero knowledge or ability to make any sense of any thing. No language, no expression, no know-how even to eat or use a toilet - absolute zero knowledge. Somebody better damn well love you, or you will die. But, one who can be talked about, is not one who died, but an infinite combination of infinity. Even with food, warmth, shelter - without love, you die rather quickly. So, there are many folks in this loveless limbo. Enough to survive. What’s relevant, pertinent, is - what say you? Is this a dream? Is it real? I? ? Is pain as experienced by a human, infinite? Is suffering (psychological pain) by a human, infinite? Why, or, why not? And, what’s on the other side of that wall? (Assuming there is such a thing as an “other side”?) Your love, love, is infectious, and permeates reality. - literally is creating it, right now.

@Consilience Really really great. Consider - is there really ‘one who accepts’? ‘One who understands’ ? Are these not being, not you ? Is there truly the potential to ‘accept’ any ‘thing’ ? One might consider the consilience of ‘reality’ with a dream at night. Upon waking; wholeness - because - “it was just a dream”, and every thing in that dream, the dream itself - are all made of you. Is there unconditional love? Is there an “ego” which “chooses” this? Perhaps not.

@Shaun Ok. Godspeed man ??

Separation=Responsibility. Nondual=No Responsibility. Meditation, every morning. All responsibility - made up.

Dreamt it up.

?? Thanks. Congrats on the job, all the self discovery, the lifestyle choices, etc, that’s impressive man! Really happy for ya! What a great feeling post. Keep doin what your doin! If you want my two cents on this, or anything, or wanna chat sometime, HMU. Best of luck with school, and have fun!

@PlayOnWords That sounds like a great combo to me. How’s it coming along?

@PlayOnWords Sweet. What are you aiming to do in music? Record, perform, teach?

@Shanmugam Congrats! ??

Awareness is what is in awareness. Awareness is what is aware. Thoughts arise from awareness, as awareness, in awareness. Awareness is the desk, and you, and you are the desk, and awareness. Awareness... party for One. Without believing thoughts, they pass...and there’s just awareness. Try to see some humor in using the very thoughts arising as awareness to form questions about awareness. Thinking rooted in separation, need, lack, etc, all veils, each a filter on experience. Meditation slows the attachment to thinking down, creates the space to experience the space. Filters are realized and released. The direct experience of that ‘space’ is often referred to as experiencing awareness, and the ‘switch’ as you mentioned, and knowing awareness as yourself, a beginning of remembering in a way. When you realize there’s no ‘out of aware’. (Yes, and also it is awareness. So there’s no “it, in, & awareness’“...not-two. “Dream substance” might be a helpful word relatively) Realizing the subject/object illusion requires a calm mind. The thinking is what veils. Counting the nouns in a sentence can be helpful in looking for the ‘deeper’ unified perspective... “How to switch from what is in awareness, to what is aware?” << There’s 1: What is in, 2: What is. (Not-two) It’s easier to realize the subject/object illusion when there is less thinking from that perspective going on, thus ‘realizing’ the unity of awareness. Awareness “becoming” more aware. ..“Self Discovery”.. ”Self Actualization”.

Yes, you are quite literally being pulled back, & back to the ‘inner child’, the very source of you, right now. At the same time, you never left, you’ve never actually moved. Dial into that feeling for sure. Letting go is an art, a ‘way back’. You might think of reality as the Everything, which is half the story. The other “half” being Nothing, which can be discovered through calming the mind and detaching in meditation. Then, there is the whole. There are as many ways to arrive at enlightenment as needed.

I’d recommend at least doing 1 & 2. The really wild stuff was in 2. Excited for ya man!

If there is joy, there is not something in any need of “fixing”. Joy is dialed into inner being, presence, mindfulness, now, truth, unity-love. There is no suffering with a ‘totally silent mind’. Suffering is of the mind, it is a mental activity. There might be pain - if not, there is not a ‘totally silent mind’, rather, there is awareness of how sneaky we are in terms of thoughts being believable (they are not true). Possibly, the thoughts at play, are of the nature of fear of potential future suffering, which would then, only in and of itself, be present suffering. This suffering would be attributable to thinking (the worrying about the future). It is not possible to find the one who suffers. This is the beauty of self discovery and consciousness work. When it is realized there is not one who suffers, there is simultaneously no longer the suffering. Suffering (mental activity) can become so habitual, chronic, common to one, that one struggles to notice the thinking involved. (I hear you that this is an ‘experiment, and that is the key factor....) If you like it, there’s no suffering present. If you don’t like it, but choose to continue for a deeper benefit, such as ‘waking up’, building tolerance to cold or to discomfort, there’s no suffering present. If you don’t like it, and you stop choosing to do it, then there’s no problem, no suffering present. If you don’t like it - but continue to choose to do it - this is suffering. You would then contemplate why you’re choosing to do it. However, as you are doing this as an experiment, you are choosing to experience the cold shower. Because what you want (to do the experiment), and what you are choosing (to experience the coldness) are aligned, there is no suffering. It might get so cold that there is some discomfort and or pain, but still, as you are wanting to do this, choosing to do this, and doing this - there is no suffering. So in this particular experiment, you will not be able to find suffering. I believe this is leading to the assumption suffering “must then be” the same as sensation. Just because some thing is indistinguishable, does not necessarily mean that thing is present. What would be the desired outcome? What specifically are you wanting relief from? Physical pain, a reoccurring thought? Worry?

@MrBlue Both. Definitely take advantage of all resources available to you. This is your life we’re talking about. Quality of service in therapy varies greatly of course, but it can be a great experience. You’ll likely learn many new and great ways to look at things, as well as lots of very helpful aspects of self discovery. Add daily morning meditation to that, and you’ll experience a sort of 1 +1 = 5. The more you learn and self discover, the better. Twoness wise... consider the usefulness of character development, skill building, etc, in a video game...having nothing to do with the real you holding the controller.

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I like it. ??

@mandyjw Ok, my bad. Went too masculine on that one.

@mandyjw That bitch!

@Natasha ♥️ The most beautiful girl at the dance, is the only one who doesn’t get to experience the most beautiful girl at the dance. Sorry about your luck. ?