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As Samuel Jackson says, “That is all you had to say!” Suffering is the only teacher. Life. All you need my friend is the willingness to listen to it, and the emotional scale. Where as before, you didn’t realize emotional expression was the key, and so you ruminated about the past, others, identity, and waffled in unworthiness, powerlessness, grief, insecurity, and jealousy. Now, you know what to do...express & in doing so you empty out...and you’re gonna really love the relief, clarity, and general goodness as you do... Don’t stop at jealousy or anger....keep going! Does this leave you feeling discouraged, and disappointed sometimes? I’ve been there, and hell yes it did. Blame someone, expressively, just for yourself, for your own release and well being. It is her fault! Could she be more carefulness and thoughtless!? What the hell girl, it’s only been a year?!! Do you find this leaves you worried, maybe about meeting someone you like, or love? Doubtful about your future, yourself? Probably does. That sucks to feel that way!...but expressing it is not holding onto it, which feels way worse. Emotions come & go, and a master experiences this, and learns from life. When you experience discouragement, do you sometimes end up overwhelmed? We all do sometimes. It sucks but feels better than discouragement. Do you also sometimes feel frustration, irritation, impatience? Like, lots to do but not getting any traction? How so? Express it. Express any examples that come to mind. Freely, openly. (For you, I don’t mean on the forum, unless you want to, no judges here ?. We love ya. We all have these ‘dang emotions’.) Do pessimistic thoughts arise in that impatience? Thoughts about stuff just not working it for you? Ahhhgg! That’s the worse, yet it feels better than the emotions lower on the scale, yes? Do you ever find that even though you have the energy, and stuff you want to do - you experience boredom? Boredom is weird that way, but expression changes all that weirdness. As you express, who you really are fills you up! Let it all out. Pound pavement if you like, smash some pillows! Now is the time, let it all out! Then take some deep breaths. Feel the gravity. Feel the body sink into it. FEEL relaxation, for realz. Deep breaths. Look around, notice things, notice colors, shapes, textures of all the things around you. Hear sound, all around you. Really hear it, it’s quite magical, there’s all kinds of tiny nuances in sound. How far can you hear right now? What sounds the closest to you? What is the tiniest sound? What is the deepest sound? As you see & hear, and breathe...feel the breath, feel that the body is more relaxed now, feel the relief in having address & expressed how you’re feeling. Look around. Is there anything right now, which is preventing you from just being content with this moment, as it is, without adding any conditions about how it should be, about how you should be, or about how anyone else should be? Feel the peace in this moment of contentment. Notice, you can feel this anytime, because where you are, it’s now! Wherever you are, it’s here! It’s always now & here, where contentment is! Where peace and good feeling is. Kind of a miracle really. I don’t understand it but I like it a lot too. Keep relaxing and feeling the body sink into the gravity. You’ll notice better feeling thoughts arise, hopeful thoughts. Moving forward thoughts. Thoughts like “ya, there is some stuff I look forward to, some stuff I wanna experience, some things and experiences I want to creat. Reach just a half step up...to positive belief. It feels good to believe in yourself. You are purdy! You’re the beauty of this whole place. You got a great sense of humor! You can always move forward in life fearlessly, because you know anytime things get to tough, you can relax, let your conditions go, and chill in the simple contentment of the moment. As you do, consider making a dreamboard. It feels great to write whatever you like on it, whatever you want to experience! Momentum automatically builds, just from experiencing thought about what you want, what feels good to you. Passion ensues, and it feels good. Before you know it, you’ll be one someone is jealous of! And you’ll understand how they feel, cause you’ll faintly remember having been there yourself....and you’ll probably want to help them out, and you might even tell them about the scale, and they might feel appreciation for you, for helping them, and before you know it this whole place will be consumed in a gd epidemic of appreciation, expression and feeling of goodness. I don’t know. We’ll see.

God so funny.

Clarity is pointing to what is spoken of.

@Vrubel I hear ya.

@EmptyVase Thanks Abe. ??

@EmptyVase Meh. It’s nothin. ?

@somegirl It’s like a Ferrari on pavement in comparison to that dump truck through the jungle that two grams of mushrooms was.

How kind of you.

@andyurb Music is a literal vibrational expression of our being, and as creators our music is all about emotional expression, which means me must learn to master emotional release. I have experienced what you’ve described, and this has ‘unclogged’ the ‘blockage’ every single time. Even better, upon unclogging, the flow just flows at a new height, renewed, like never before. Also, look for opportunities with cleaning diet, and if you haven’t, try earbuds and cardio. Pure magic. If you still have a ‘blockage’ and aren’t feeling the creative flow, consider reading some of these. There might be some past relationship residue in the pipes, which can flow out expressively in shades of forgiveness, and understanding, magically becoming beauty and creativity. You might also give poetry a try. It’s phenomenal for getting the rhythm going, turning pain into beauty, and ‘getting out of our heads’. Also, hopefully you’ve never tried this because you’d be in for a treat... youtube sound bowls therapy, put the biggest speakers you have on both sides of you, and just crank it and sit & relax. It tends to align, heal, release, and all around ‘wake up’ & harmonize the frequencies of the body. If all else fails, or just to renew, get out of your normal routines & environment for a few days. Nature is best. Take a trip somewhere. One more suggestion... talk to somebody new. Anybody, just someone you don’t know. It’s a way of rediscovering yourself. Doesn’t sound like much, nor music related, but it is and it’s subtle though powerful.

Funny in a way how anyone experiencing impatience simply does not have the time.

“You imagining” is a misnomer. It begets conceptualizing, thinking, because it is the product of conceptualizing, thinking. Best to pretend it was never heard, or realize in truth it wasn’t. A tree in the woods. Being, is being. Nothing to think about. “Chair” is a thought. Conditioning. ‘That’ - is neither “a chair”, nor is it a “thing” “you” are “imagining”. Maybe...since loa is happnin anyways....what is desired to be experienced, created.

@soos_mite_ah God’s love, so to speak, is unconditional. As you are, however you are, wherever you are, whoever you are. Even an implication of a separation is a condition. Expression is the key. No one is judging, there is no judgement. Beautiful expressions imho... “Yes, I know my enemies. They're the teachers who taught me to fight me, compromise, conformity, assimilation, submission, ignorance, hypocrisy, brutality, the elite. All of which are American dreams. All of which are American dreams. All of which are American dreams. All of which are American dreams. All of which are American dreams. All of which are American dreams. All of which are American dreams. All of which are American dreams.” - Zack De La Rocha, “Today I'll play the part of non-parent. Not make a hundred rules for you to know about yourself. Not lie and make you believe what's evil, is making love and making friends and meeting God you're own way - the right way. To see, to bleed, cannot be taught. In turn you're making us fucking hostile.” - Phil Anselmo Expression is the key. ?✊?✊?✊?✊?✊?

@Ernest Werbel Thought is in a sense, an ‘outward’ expression or movement, and the true nature is what is expressing, creating, and thus will never be found there. The true nature is ‘found’ in the ‘inward’ orientation, meditatively, such as with self inquiry. The holy grail can not be thought, understood, or comprehended, only prostrated to or upon.

Welcome to the forum! ?. All that ( ⬆️ ) is referred to as “thinking”, or thoughts, or, thought. (And that is all that is). Awareness is also aware of perception, and feeling. There is no “losing sleep” or “struggling”...in perception, nor feeling. And you - are in control - of focus. Begin to notice “I have been losing sleep”... is...a “thought”. ? You have NEVER experienced sleep.

You do. There is no it. That’s the materialist paradigm. You & an it.... ....subject / object thinking, aka thought attachment. The belief in objects & things. Try meditation, self inquiry, inspecting your beliefs, etc. When you self realize there are no more objects or things because it was just beliefs. This is already the actuality. You’re wondering why and how beauty can be congruent among multiple people, missing you’re objectifying, people. You experience people as separate objects, due to believing you are a separate self, a person/ object. These beliefs are the over activity of thinking, from emotional suppression. These beliefs are ‘conditioning’ & can be expressed right out of the body mind and ‘it’ is amazing. It’s all letting go, all no-effort, no thinking or concepts are needed nor helpful. ‘It’s’ truly beautiful. You can’t even handle that beauty.

@juni ☺️

@juni Everything else. ⬅️ just words. How. ⬅️ Look, another one! Wiggle all your fingers, and tell me how you do, of course you’ll say that science knows, or someone, just not you. Eyes & minds they tell the stories; this and that’s and two’s, but feel into the body, the edgelessness in bloom. Words they can elude you, sound can delude too, there is no one to tell you, this everything is you.

@juni Exactly!

Rupert Spira, The Nature Of Consciousness. That consciousness could be understood is a dogma btw. It’s a belief. When you believe you’re experiencing someone who understands consciousness, and thus believing you could understand it, you’re just elevating your own cosmic game of hide & seek. Ask & It Is Given. Also, there’s a great book called Ask & It Is Given by Esthim Hicks you might like. On the ‘making it real’ living it’ aspect, give Abraham Hicks a listen. On high quality videos, I don’t think there is any better material available than Leo’s catalog.

? @BlackMaze Nothing’s happening. “Things” is a thought. Thought is Nothing. Go ahead and check.

Reality is vibration, not even “here and now”. Do some light work. The light is herenow. The “ego” “hates” expressive music and poetry because it does not conform to black & white thinking, it doesn’t fit in the box of what it knows & has. Envy frowns upon human expression. So when our friends are triggered, pretending they don’t fight, rhyming words in rhythms...prose be the kryptonite. The teacher spells the same thing, every single day, “I can’t be found in twoness, yet nor is there to pray”. My fantasy consumes me; I hang me, every word, I seek reprieve, another place, a time to feel, be heard. I’d rather be free anywhere, than suffer what he’d said, all the minutes in this pew; for bullets in his head. Does he not know who I am, or that which I can do? If he was me maybe he’d see, we can’t all cut life loose. He laughs out ways of letting go, of changing thoughts like shoes, insisting that it’s possible, “tis I who writes the blues”. Retired are the wise men, to us they sound like fools, they don’t know reality, nor help with what to do. Today upon my waking though, that sleep - it lingered through, a’glimpse I’d been, no in-betweens, now & then; not two! Nothing I’d forgotten, no thing I can not lose! Expression is creation, no thing just passing through.

Rock solid advice right there.

@Strangeloop No, far more simple. Not something you could ever possibly learn, understand, comprehend, conceptualized or remember. Care more about how you feel. That is enlightenment.

@Strangeloop The instant you stop judging people and namely yourself, your life flips on like a light switch, it feels amazing, and literally everything just clicks and magically works out for you. Every single day becomes an absolutely impossible miracle, a reality sized game of fun and creation. You’re literally judging, blaming, and shaming a penis...the actuality of which is infinite intelligence...and you’re pretending you’re not judging...and pretending you don’t understand why you feel, “off”.