Gabriel Antonio

For people pleaser Be a bad boy or girl. Be aware of your self-critiscism and ignore it. Try taking things lightly. Exposing is the key for the healing. do it imperfectly, on purpose Develop 100% positive regards to yourself Set the intention of having shitty conversations (to balance your perfectionism out)

Thoughts is what can set us free.

@momo the rule of thumb is: if you are taking things too seriously, lighten things up. >> it is supposed to be fun 8)

hello! i feel very balanced and strong. i endured a huge ego backlash, and, now, I feel way stronger and protected. belly breathing = the ultimate solution for generating MORE energy, vitality watch your ego getting bored of self-development. went to the evangelical church today. it was very nice. i had some interactions with people my age or less. haha. it felt funny to talk to teenagers. i could SEE all my old patterns kicking in, but I stayed mindful during the whole thing, and then.... BAM! All the resistance dropped. Then, I felt comfortable speaking. thank you! keep trying. :))

Beautiful quote! Thank you for sharing your journey! I also feel that something has shifted in me recently. It is very cool to see that others are also awakening. Blessings from Brazil

hi guys and girls i just heard the greatest spiritual rule: if it is not something you would tell to a 5-year-old, then it is not important. haha. spirituality is to awaken the magic of our life. and we can only access that through love, kindness, and attention. i am grateful for ayahuasca. I am grateful for Leo. I am grateful for all the people I have met in my journey I am grateful for iago, whose advice resonated with me a lot I am grateful for Mary Polstra, my psychology professor. I am grateful to my friends here in the forum quantum, dragullar and mango I am grateful for YOGA. I am grateful for my yoga teachas. I am grateful for my friend David, a homeless in Northern California, who taught me true inner-balance and equanimity. I am grateful for Mark, my guitarist friend. A true warrior... I am grateful for Lorenze, who provoked and stayed with me during my darkest periods I am grateful for my inner child, that little-me. You are so fucking amazing! I love you =D I am grateful for my fearful me. You can stay exactly like you are. I love you. I am grateful for my perfectionist me. Thanks for caring so much about me! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! I feel like I am graduating. It feels so funny... hihi Fully awakening the heart. I feel so happy. Naturally wise, you know? Remembering my awesomeness. [=~

I have just realized that love is the only way. You can try different things (e.g., achieve success, money, and relationships). But all of these cannot be compared to live as Love. It is a practice! It ain't supposed to be fun, especially in the beginning. After a while, you begin to see things transform in your life. An you'll be like, "holy shot! That's what I have always wanted to experience. This deep freedom that comes from unconditional love." Let me tell you: your mind will resist the shit out of this practice because, guess what? Your mind is lazy as fuck haha That's why nobody is doing heavyweight lifting. The question is: are you practicing right now? Have an extraordinary life! ☀ "Life is a word-energy game. The words you say to yourself most often dictates how you feel. Make I love you the most popular words you say to yourself." Matt Kahn I love you ❤

Retreats accelerate the process. for example, you don't have to live abroad to learn a foreign language, but the immersion does speed up breakthroughs. i practiced the do-nothing for 4 hours a day for several months. although i was neurotically-driven, i got great results. the social isolation was very hard and i felt like i was going crazy. also, i realized that 99% of the times that i wanted to meet with someone was because i was bored of being with myself. realize that you can become present at any moment, including now. yes, it feels boring to always come back to the present moment. the mind hates that. the future and the past are so seductive. one day, your mind will surrender to the simplicity of the present, and you will see the magic that has been waiting for you. one thing i can assure you: doing long hours of sitting will build your tolerance to uncomfortable feelings. in other words, you will become stronger. pain is weakness leaving your body ;D sharing your experience with a friend makes the process easier. journaling also helps. good luck! and remember to be gentle with yourself

wow... I can totally relate to what you're saying. it feels like you're me haha. i just watched a video that suggests to make exaggerated compliments to yourself while you're engaging in a bad habit. overtime, the bad habit will dissolve, as long as you keep setting a positive intention. this is the practice of unconditional positive regards towards yourself. i myself have been taking a very light approach in my life. i am not prohibiting myself from doing anything. i am living by following my natural instincts. and i want to be good because i genuinely want to. so i am consciously doing things that i feel "guilty". however, i fully open to the experience. i become indifferent to the negativity caused by Guilt. thanks for this topic! you're awakening

@JKGrelax =) try finding a local community to practice yoga or meditation. i feel like you need the presence of other real human beings. remember, there is nothing to achieve hehe =) the sooner you realize that, the sooner results will pour in. i love you <3 it is ok to rest

facing the fact that i was destroying my life due to social isolation was hard. when i was a teenager, i convinced myself, "oh, you know what, i will be happy here at home, all the time. i don't care. i don't need interactions." man, was i wrong. touching and being touched by another human being is a wonderful feeling if people did that more often, there would be no wars, because "when we are filled with love, everything can be tolerated." the question is: "have you been feeling well on a consistent basis?" if not, it might be a good idea to explore the other pole. so, if you have been too much with people, spend more time by yourself. if you have been too much by yourself, spend more time with people (yes, i know, it looks boring). one thing that has helped me connect with Love is physical touch. I feel my problems dissolving, my overthinking, my ego... be happy Now =)

Yoga has been helping me a lot to calm my nerves. Anxiety produces a lot of suffering. If you are able to take more time doing things and practice being in the moment on your day-to-day life regardless of where you are. Also notice that you have a shallow breathing. Open it up. Open your chest, open your abdomen, and open your ribs. Follow this never-ending flow You will find peace there You are perfect exactly as you are. Recognize that. Sure, life is filled with problems, but observe them always figure themselves out. It's that simple. You rock =)

i was about to get neurotic today. was doing some hardcore spiritual practices -- which were actually doing more harm than good. thankfully, i didn't continue down that road. because if i did, i would suffer. simple as that nothing is that serious. everything is here to help. my only job is to relax. i am throwing away everything that disrespects my inner child (namely strict and neurotic discipline). i don't think i need discipline. i am a virgo. i am naturally over-disciplined. but that backfires. i think it is just a matter of accepting the simply the simplicity of this moment. Attempting to be mindful 24/7 is a huge trap for me. it is unsustainable. i might pull it off in a specific setting. anyway, my intention is to stay dynamically balanced

open your heart <3

@john5170 the more mindful you are, the more atune you will be to your emotions. just keep in mind not to get neurotic. spiritual practices can easily turn into rigidity. i speak from my personal experience. keep in mind that there is an inner child alive in you. maybe what it really wants is just your loval approval

Try deepening your breath. Really open your chest up. And let the air fill your belly. It might feel uncomfortable in the beginning (because you might be rusty, but if you keep doing it, this will broaden your range of emotions. Next thing you know, you start feeling love overflowing into your life hehe. Opening your body up helps access areas that you have not entered since your childhood. It is that crazy. Sometimes I go, "Dude, I am feeling like a child. >:D" yoga is awesome for clearing negative thoughts. simple as that.

RIGHT! a lot of us dive so deep into the spiritual realm that we lose safety. Thank you for sharing your experience. I understand why you "fought" the trip. This is what causes all the fear of going insane. If you are able to relax your mind and tell your inner child, "It's ok. I am here for you." The question you can ask is, "Can I let that go?" If you can, infinity will be present itself to you. But, if you can't let go, that's ok too There is no rush. The Truth exists whether we are cognizant of it or not hehe Smaller doses might be a good idea so that you slowly build momentum to surrender to what the Universe is communicating through thoughts and bodily sensations. The experience of ego-death is similar to getting into a cold shower in the winter. Part of you has to die to do it. Hehe. That's a masculine approach to awakening hehe. Or, you can surrender through unconditional self-love. No need to change anything. Just taking care of yourself will do the work hehe P3AC3

@MiracleMan oh my god! That's horrible. What helps me have good trips is to exercise before or during the medicine kicks in. F.E.A.R. FALSE EVIDENCE APPEARING REAL see? Love wants to desperately enter you, and you're in denial about it haha. Fear is necessary because an illusory part of yourself knows that will die. It is "Satan"; it simply is a structure that wants to stay alive, maintain its homeostasis. This principle is what makes life possible, so don't go around thinking it is the "Devil". Haha. Only love is here haha You don't have to take psychedelics to enter this frequency. It simply is a matter of choosing to invoke the divine that's already alive in you. The only thing it requires is that you surrender and open your chest really wide. Hehe It's untouchable, but we all know it is here. Hehe. See? Let heaven in Hehe let god enter you and dance?

@mp22 why would that matter? Haha. philosophizing is infinite. You can make a case for both alternatives. But the feeling of Oneness is beyond everything. The thing is, we waste too much time with theory. As someone mentioned, you have to live it. You read too much philosophy. Haha that is a huge trap haha. So do I. It's here. Do you feel this? I am here. The more you dwell in the Now, the more you realize that the only truth is the truth of the Divine. You are in heaven, you just don't know it. You can philosophize as much as you want. Haha. It's infinite! Hahahaha

@Edvard in a way, all the unconscious in the world are also yourself. Your lifetime as an individual is unique. There can't be two exactly equal leaves. But see, why cling to this experience if deep down you know that you are infinite? I was walking on an avenue, and I could see that it wouldn't fucking matter if I threw myself to a car. I was so conscious of my true nature that I become desidentified with my body. Crazy thought have been popping in my head, and the secret here is to trust. No matter what it is, trust. You are the creator of it all. Imagine like all your visual field collapsed and there was a deep nothingness. From that, arises everything. You don't have to change your responses. It is matter of treating yourself with kindness. Become a cool parent to your ego. There are no enemies. If it is hard, take a break.see? The more relaxed you are, the greater love you receive. The more you expand your breath, the more aliveness you will feel. It is a scale. A great question: "Can I let that go?" be honest here. If you can't, let it be. It is there for a reason. Maybe the problem is not that you are getting fat, but that you guilt yourself from eating. The moment you drop your guilt, things will begin to transform automatically You begin to feel like you are flowing with life, just like a cat or a small child are. Do nothing means just being. Ppl, if you approach enlightenment from a neurotic and desperate way, this life-long pursuit will make you miserable. Instead, spoil yourself a little do something that society doesn't approve haha I trust you It's so freaking funny to be in this frequency. I feel like I am just being a channel. Haha. The moment you trust yourself is the moment you become whole again. You become a force of Nature once again. You become as strong as a fucking waterfall or a volcano ? hahaha and you don't even have to make effort. Hahaha. You just sit back and let God work itself through you. Hahaha. it's amazing. You remember the funniness of this human incarnation. Haha. Watch your ego wanting to get serious. Haha. I hope you have noticed that you have noticed that. The stairway to liberation comes when you become yourself once again. When you relax like a child. When you move with such softness that it feels like your making love. you won't get too far by hating yourself. You are exactly where you needed to be. Got that? Haha Hahaha you're a joke. Remember? Hahaha aw.. No matter where you go, the Divine controls you. Freaky, uh?

Hahaha! awesome! me too dude. I have these visions of being a child, or being a star. you know, transcend out this mess. but realize all that happens in your life can be seen through a 3rd. person, which is Consciousness. I feel like a great way to expand your awareness is through expanding your breath. seriously, ppl, yoga makes so feel amazing and super-confident haha! anyway, that's chimpery haha. I feel like the thing we gotta face is pain. All pain comes from the desire of not having pain. If you are able to actually lose your mind and come fully to your senses (which can be done through mindfulness practice. thanks for the advice @Leo Gura). you begin to see how much bullshit is inside of you. sometimes it is hard to determine "Authentic" thoughts versus Inauthentic thoughts. Who are you really? Is that a true desire? Clinging stems from the desire of lack. It is a big illusion. You never had anything, including this life. Sorry to break you, but you don't exist. So maybe you can relax and just breathe deeply, opening up your chest. Your life is stored in your body. If you fix your body, you start to fix your mind. If you fix your mind, you fix your body. Let uncomfortable feelings, thoughts, or external disturbances as a way to practice relaxing your muscles. Especially your jaw haha. Drop it. Breathe lower. Your abdomen. Rise and falling. A constant flow. You are like your breath. Each lifetime is like a breath. I highly recommend an old Leo video called: "How to Exploit People". Haha, you can actually use people to see yourself. I like to do one thing at a time. Like, if you're here, that's all it matters. haha. Let things get out of your control. Surrender your life to GOD haha. Chances are, I am talking to your lower-self, so it is a huge relief to delegate this responsibility to your higher self. It's like, "I have tried enough. I have tried so hard in this, and in all the ways I have hurt or harm myself, I offer myself forgiveness." You don't have to go away. That's the insight I got today. Don't see "yourself" as an enemy because it is all part of the endless web of beliefs. Practicing Love helps a lot. Tears of Compassion. You have gone through a lot; you deserve to rest. Let me take control of your life haha I am God. I am You. HAHA You deserve to break free. You ain't gonna have a life if you don't start believing in yourself. You are good enough even though it doesn't feel like it at times. Observe things solving by themselves. Picture your greatest problems; the things you have been putting off; that you desesperately feel like fixing through hyperactivity. Watch them solving by themselves if you simply relax what is tense in your body. Practice opening up your body. Deep breaths are life-changing. You don't have to fix everything at once. To my inner-child "I am sorry. Please forgive me. I love you. I am grateful. I love you. I see you. I love you haha. You are an angel. I am sorry if I have ever hurt you. It was not my intention. Please forgive me. Let this moment be a restart. I deeply sorry for all the pain you are going through. I feel you. I didn't know how deeply hurt you were. I am sorry if I ever judged you. I am sorry for not believing in you. Please, forgive me. " Please, start small. If you want to practice meditation, great! But remember to love yourself first and foremost. It doesn't feel mechanical, dead, and inauthentic to say "I love you" because it hurts your ego. You can deal with the ego in two ways: you can try to destroy it through willforce, or you can start being loving. And loving the one who feels embarrassed by expressing care. I love you. I see you there. Hehe. You are awesome. Haha. You are perfect. You are beautiful. I love you hahaha for a long time, i took a ferocious approach to spirituality. "ALRIGHT! TIME TO BECOME THE BEST ME! ENOUGH OF NEGATIVITY." Haha, that didn't work very well. at first, it looks like it is working, but your inner child feels disrespected. Haha, your ego actually. But, see, what you call "ego" a lot of times is your inner child. And you beat your inner child up for not acting the way you want. Yes, the world ain't all rainbows and butterflies, but that doesn't mean we have to mirror the world. Actually you can use the unconscious behaviors you see as a reminder to dwell into the moment more deeply a pain is an opportunity to practice mindfulness. it is impossible to fail. even if you don't want, you're still perfect. everything is ok whether you want it or not. and you have the right to move on. i believe in you i know it is hard at times, but I am here. I am sorry if you don't trust me. Please forgive me. You are pure love. Please remember that. Respect your limitations. There is nothing to achieve, remember? "if only love is real, why fear of what is trying to enter your field?" if things are difficult, take a break distract yourself a bit. Haha. it's not that serious. you are not that bad. you are not that lazy. It is impossible to make mistakes. You are God. And God loves relaxation, so treat yourself. Be kinder to yourself. Even if it is hard, remember: it is always here.

@Edvard yes, it takes responsiblity. a monk goes through ecstasy but also deep existential terror. ha. that's the nature of the thing. i think it is a good thing to actually prepare yourself through negative visualization. this way you build your tolerante to pain, the adversities of life. well, time to do some healing. this is heaven. may you remember the heaven that ever was. =) you're perfect. who were you before you were born? remember...

hahahaha! you're responsible for it all, and you're also not responsible for nothing. it's really twisted how my ego dresses up as a "mentor" but actually it is causing me to go nuts. like, i have been practicing yoga and it's been great, and i had the thought of, "i am not going to practice because i might get some crazy-ass thoughts". why? every time i practice some deep breathing techniques, things start to go crazy. plus, when i get into this "hardcore" mentality, i start to become aversive to food, socializing, my family etc. i get so pulled due to the pain that it becomes hard to "be normal". my desire is to isolate myself. and a voice comes, "you're going to go nuts if you do this." like, seriously, even when i am innocently practicing some yoga, my mind (which is me and you :p) adds so much content. anyway, the point is i am back to my small sense of self. i came back. haha. i am a tyrant. it is hard to admit that. at the same time, i keep in mind that, "there are no enemies." because i get quickly extra-sensitive to everything and simply start doing hard core shit. it is so weird. it feel like ayahusca destroys all your web of beliefs and preconceived notions, but the web comes back with even greater force. it's nuts. today, i made sure to socialize a bit and act normal. the thing is, i have got to purify myself in solitude. i cannot expect other people to help me. well, time to do some weightlifting because ultimately it is YOU who are going to break free. but remember there is no rush. there are no enemies. there is no ego. thanks for sharing this info! i will become conscious when i catch myself having some freakout thoughts. in those periods, it might be a good idea to simply take a break. when i start seeing results, i usually start taking massive action, as if I were another person haha. split personality? yoga has been helping a lot do some emotional cleanings. i've got to remind myself, "be more patient. it's a lifelong process." because it sure is frustrating to go back to contraction. but infinite contraction and infinite expansion. the thing I want to program into my mind is to remember to relax. there's nothing in control. haha. my spiritual ego tries to desesperately take action and achieve an ideal self, but that only produces suffering. i should expect to feel a breakdown and strong negative emotions; my only job is to take some action. that's all. haha. i feel kinda weird. I have this tendency of overdoing, so i just got to keep an eye on neurosis... anyway, maybe the best idea is to simply let the medicine do its thing. and be fucking patient. hah. because, guess what. you always come back. the question is: "how to integrate the ego?" instead of wanting to annihilate it. but why kill it if it is just a mirage? Remember who you are. This life is a dream. It will end in a blink of an eye. Next thing you know, BAM! you're gone you are a child of the universe. remember: you are the universe. It is impossible to fail. hehe ^^

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@gleb hehe you made yourself laugh @Leo Gura it was a strong potency. The place I went people walk in circles during all the ceremony. That helped me with the most powerful insight which is the infinite cycles of life. It also helped to purify some thoughts and also to prevent throwing up. I felt a lot love towards your work. It's amazing thank you.: )