Gabriel Antonio

@eskwire perhaps because the back is the hottest part People, cold showers are not 5-MeO, okay? No magic pills here. Just some good old-fashioned, highly masculine and intense self-development practice. As you may guess, this is not the end of the story. There is a beautiful thing called emotions. Haha, you will not get away from that, Little Ego... Hahaha. The one who always run away from feeling rather than accomplishing. Spiritual practices are not a gateway for not feeling emotions. It is instead a way of strengthening your will-power muscle in a straight-forward way. No bullshit here. This is a practice to become a disciplined dog. Okay? You will not become a Human Being because of it. Hahaha. Sorry to break it to you Hahahahaha.

Warning: this desire might be a big trap! >> Live your age to the fullest << Osho got a theory that very old folks who are very sexual-oriented have this because they did not live their youth [which includes sexuality] completely. It is just like when you eat. If you eat half-assing, you will think about the food later. However, if you are full-assing the food, then you will not think about it afterwards. I love this. So if you REALLY live this life to the fullest, there would be no need for any other incarnation. But there is a condition: you gotta live it well. Be part of it!

When are you going to release the "reprogram your subconscious mind" course? we want that!!! we want to give you many $$!! btw - thank you for advocating studying from infinite sources. Shamans, Buddhists, Christians (the old-school ones) i have learned how to filter things out. i am now open to get the best out of the worst hehe and then you discover that is all the same fucking thing from different perspectives [seriously, i even like evangelical churches and i get Samadhi-like experiences there haha] life feels so amazing...!!! :D\\\\\\\

I have obviously done other things hehe. Cold showers are not a magical solution, please, I hope you know that. Cold showers help you build momentum. Because seriously it is very hard to stay in bed all day if you have summoned the courage to actually jump into that beautiful cold shower. I think my main mistake in the last 3 years I have been doing self-development was to commit to too many practices. That was caused lots of backsliding. Commit to just one thing and make it just a small dose. Cold showers are perfect for that. You just worry about self-development per se once a day for 3 minutes, which actually requires like 3 seconds of courage. If you sum those 3 seconds in 20 years, imagine how much developed you can become. BIG PICTURE THINKER! One thing that really helps is to SHAKE YOUR BODY REAL HARD. And BREATHE DEEPLY like your life depended on it haha. I have been experimenting with cold and hot. It is an amazing practice! It teaches you not to cling to the hot but at the same not get attached to the uncomfortable because the thing is: pleasure is not the problem; the problem is clinging. so if you alternate between cold and hot, you are really fucking your ego in the ass Hahahaha. Thank you for the awesome feedback guys =D

- ANGEL SEHEIAH A friend of mine told me about the old story about guardian angel. i have always judged that and thought, "that's for children". but it really helps alleviate the suffering. you just invoke it. i searched on google and mine is called Seheiah. It was amazing when I invoked it during my meditation today. Out of nowhere, I remembered my first awakening experience at the age of 7. A lot of things falled into place! If you only ASK! seriously, there are higher vibrational "spirits" that can help you out, dear ego. haha. seriously, you are not gonna make it by yourself. ASK the universe, allah, god, whoever you want. Yes, they are all You. But at the same time we are still stuck in ego, which really is a defense mechanism. so... INVOKE! - it is just a matter of faith, Believing "If you think you can or if you think you can't, you are right in both ways." Henry Ford - give your shadow what it wants (INTERNALLY!!!!!) I was doing some breathing exercises, and it came to me: "just fucking give what your shadow wants" DURING meditation, okay? I am not saying you should start killing people. But it is TOTALLY OKAY to do it consciously in your mind. You go, "Ok, Shadow, I respect your power. And I allow you to think whatever the fuck you want." Then... BAM... those nasty desires melt away and heal automatically. - reprogram subconscious mind - day 3 [X] I am firm with my intention to only commit to this one practice ALONE. And then, I will leave the rest for my subconscious mind. I have the tendency to be an overcontrolling boss, which really is just another aspect of my ego, I suppose. But anyway... I am beginning to trust myself more in the process. It is like, "Oh... it really is okay if I mess things up. I am here for the LONG RUN." > enjoy your roles! it is just a play.... random cool gif

Day 2 - [X] - Reprogram Subconscious Mind 3 Min of a Powerful Affirmation Let me tell you about the awesome affirmation I have been doing. It is called God in Action. Yes, this word has a lot of cultural baggage (full of shit), but it sums up well the idea of the Absolute Infinity. The affirmation is in Portuguese. I am taking extra attention on NOT COMMIT TO ANYTHING ELSE self-development-wise. Self-development might seem like it doesn't work, but the thing is it takes time. And we love to mess things up. In my case, commit to many practices, get overwhelmed, and then self-sabotage. Anyway, so far, so good. I am playing my roles very nicely in life. The role of being a friend, teacher, a son etc. I play them intensively, but I do not get lost in them. That is, I know that it is all a façade, but it feels nice to actually play the roles I was given. I am learning how to relax the fuck down It is all a matter of MindSet There is such a thing called self-fulling prophecy. "I do everything right" > awesome belief "There is always something to figure out" > horrible belief So... start changing your expectations. Most things we deem "unconscious behavior" are only so because we believe that they are. Like, frivulous sex, porn, watching TV (excess), etc. So... it will be fine

I have gone through that same problem. At the time, Leo recommended a more rigid practice, like mindfulness. What really helped me has been pranayamic exercises, especially the one you alternate the nostrils. Good luck! You need to release your energy. And then meditation will feel pleasant

Good job!! The most important thing is to work on yourself. The rest will fucking follow you! Do not seek hot girls; let hot girls seek you.

any activity can be high-consciousness. it all depends on your attitude towards it. but you're right on cutting some shit. hahaha. but eventually you will see that you are allowed to do whatever you want. but i probably shouldn't tell you that hahaha. Kundalini Yoga is AMAZING! Just sit... and the Truth will be revealed

@DoubleYou GOOD! You are beginning to appreciate getting uncomfortable. Life feels amazing when you embrace discomfort. >>> All progress is made outside the comfort zone <<< >>> Growth is painful <<< >>> Struggling makes you grow <<< ???

I am in a moment of my life that I simply want to enjoy the present fucking moment, just like a child, you know? I don't care if I am pleasing others or not, as long as I am pleasing myself. I have been doing some heavy shadow work, and it is amazing! I feel more conscious about how my shadow operates. Some of its characteristics are hyper-sensibility (which turns into irritation), escapism, disatisfaction with the present moment (there's always something wrong...), aversive, low self-esteem, indifferent, guiltful (I should've...), undecisive, and finally paranoia. So... the characterists I want to embody more are radical honesty, detail-orientation, radical acceptance (including accepting that I do not accept some things about myself, others, and life in general), accept that I am a self-help junkie, a deep thirst for knowledge (i.e., yes, I am a fucking nerd :P), pronoia (which is the belief that everything here is to help me to achieve my highest potential), and finally ask myself the following question on a regular basis: "What if this was my last day?" Because it can be... What if this was the last time that I woke up? My last shower ever?My last conversation with my mom? My last orgasm? My last psychedelic trip? I feel an imperative desire to establish bigger goals. At the same time, if I am able to keep up the routine that I am doing, I am in pretty good shape So... I feel it is a matter of relaxing the fuck down and enjoy this encarnation. I do not know why this opportunity was given to me in the first place, and I do feel lost at times, but, seriously, the level of fulfillment you can get out of this life is beyond infinity. The key point is to... CIRCULATE THE ENERGY >> go to different places, talk to new people, watch different videos... All humans have a desire for novelty. This is not me talking; it is psychology. KEEP FLOWING >> it doesn't fucking matter if you're on a so-called "good or bad" track in your life. Seriously, nobody has this thing figured out completely. Nobody really knows why we are here. So the thing is: just keep the rhythm of your inner song. Become more harmonious with natural sounds once again (432 hz is a must) PHYSICAL TOUCH 'you got no idea how important touching other human beings is. You begin to feel alive once again. It is amazing... Get a good grip feels awesome for both parties. BOREDOM lately, I can't stand staying at my mom's house (which is where I live) for a very long time. I feel my energy draining there; it is very crazy... So I have been going to a friend's house who, wait for it... has gone to many Vipassana retreats... and... wait for it... has experienced Samadhi for 15 fucking days out of nowhere. One day he woke up and BAM! LESS SHIT i have been doing so much shit in my life because i got tons of energy. however, last week, i had an energy breakdown. i almost got sick for real. so now, i am deciding to slow the fuck down and enjoy life. CYCLES we all go through cycles. the thing is are you aware of that? because no matter how good you are, it will pass. no matter how bad it is, it will also pass. so it is a matter of enjoying the stage you are in. DECIDE i deeply agree with what @Soulbass wrote on a topic. sometimes it is just a matter of belief. "oh... if i eat meat, I will feel shitty" >> self-fulfilling prophecy in many cases. so... I decide to be ACT play your roles nicely in life Happy NOW no matter the circumstances. I will enjoy myself thoroughly today, like a 5-year-old, who is discovering the world. “In the end these things matter most: How well did you love? How fully did you live? How deeply did you let go?” - Jack Kornfield Challenge I am doing... 21 days of Affirmations!!!! Day 1 9-18-2017 [X] > it feels amazing to just fucking be myself. this is it: I WILL ONLY DO THIS PRACTICE, and the rest is playing my roles!!! I am going to play my roles in life so fucking well. It is going to be exaggerated haha. But it will be amazing! I will live this fucking movie for once! Hahaha. LIVE! ` PLAY YOUR ROLES!!! 3 minutes of a "prayer" rules > repeat out-aloud anywhere as long my subconscious mind understand that I am giving commands to it > LISTEN TO IT ONLY ONE TIME A DAY NO FUCKING EXCUSES The thing is: my EGO gets fucking attached to self-development practices, so I overtrain!!! SO! HERE IS THE FUCKING THING, EGO: ONLY ONE TIME A DAY!!!!!! > If I start doing other practices, I WILL NOT COMMIT! So... hot showers are allowed, no meditation needed, no check-lists, no finantial success, no trying to become a more self-confident guy, no gym necessary... > BE YOUR FUCKING SELF!! DO NOT TRY TO CHANGE YOU IN ANY WAY. BE FUCKING LATE TO THINGS, BE SELFISH, ETC > If I want to overtrain any practice, I will allow myself to do so. > I will allow myself to do whatever the fucking I wnat > Circulate the fucking energy > Multitask if you want > Organize > Be disrespectul if you want everything else in my life is allowed allow, allow, allow

@brovakhiin 3-5 minutes The important thing, though, is the initial schock ? So as long as you wash your whole body, you're good.

I am feeling very light lately. I am happy that I got many cool projecta going on. I am happy that I have found friends. I am happy that I am content with the present fucking moment. The power is always IN you.

"Underneath the costume of an ego, there is an inner child. And the way we treat any inner child, or any other heart is a love-letter email to our own innocence. The way you treat other egos is the way your innocence is viewed by you. So, we learn from a very heart-centered perspective: ego is an inflammed personality, caused by an overestimulated nervous system, which is a life-long allergy to the unconsciousness we came here to shift." Matt Kahn

First of all, I loved your humility in pledging for help. I know how you feel. I know how it is like to be overwhelmed by low-vibrational emotions. One thing that can really help you is emotional support. You might not know it, but there might be a spiritual seeker in your neighborhood So... Real Sangha > Community of Friends You have no idea how you change just by being in the presence of a high-consciousness person. The practice becomes so much smoother when you are around such individuals. 99% of your drama disappears, and you finally start living in the present fucking moment. as it is. If you still wanna go solo: Keep facing your fears and your dark emotions! But, please, if it becomes too overwhelming, please reach out someone. There is somebody in your life that listens to you. It can even be your mom. (Spoiler alert: it turns out it can even be yourself). > Become the one gives all the emotional support your inner child wants. < ALL YOU NEED IS LOVE, MY FRIEND

@Soulbass awesome perspective!!!

@Vitamine Water congratulations! right now in Brazil, it is boiling, so cold showers don't really make sense. Hot showers is the challenge for me right now. Keep going! You will get extraordinary results. Comfort is highly boring after a while >> Huge insight for living a fulfilling life. @Vitamine Water @DoubleYou Chances are, it is part of the process. Just some things to keep in mind: Itching = dry skin Solution: essential oil (or you can use a moisturizer, which is less natural) Btw - People, it is okay if you fail. You ain't came here to be perfect. You already are Cold showers will help you build that beautiful momentum. The trick is to always flow, no matter how hard it seems. Amem to that! Thanks for sharing your experience. There are hard days despite the cold showers, but they certainly help you light a fire? under your butt and start living life, like an energetic 8-year-old would. At other times, it feels good to just relax, just be. But for adults to get that good release and relaxation, we need to have a discomfort to purify ourselves. This includes so many activities. - Taking a yoga class - Going out with someone - Talking to a stranger All of these activities make life rewarding. You go, "I actually did something new today. I am 1% better. Yes!!" This is a sign you are growing. Growing makes you feel good in your body and mind. Thanks for the awesome feedback, guys!

@MarinM the trick is: you get totally outside of your comfort zone. then, during the rest of the day, you just relax... "do one thing everyday that scares you" comfort might be useful, but we really transcend these concepts. even discomfort... at some point, you simply drop it. and start living haha. you go like, "why do I torture myself so much?" but this realization only came after I went through a lot of hardcore practices, like taking cold showers in the winter.

Doing Nothing… Hey guys, I just wanted to give a quick update here. There are more moments in our lives that nothing much seem to be happening, you know? It seems as if we hit a plateau. The important thing to do in those moments is… Keep Calm and Carry On Hehe. The worst thing that can happen is you getting paralyzed by a negative emotion. Those lower-consciousness types of emotions DO exist, but they can be easily transmuted. The secret is to become an alchemist. Get the best out of the worse. Turn water into wine. Getting the best out of people. Even the worst kind has a heart. So, anyway, the point here is that sometimes we have to cease the practice. You know, our hardcore practice. And let the practice practice you. Haha. It is like that. Because seriously, if you keep practicing 24/7, at what point are you going to actually be present as you were as a child? My real desire is not to achieve some weird-ass consciousness state, but to be alert, fresh, and strong. That’s all I really care about. Feeling good inwards >> Key for happiness Sometimes I feel like I put too much energy onto things. This always backfires. I help, help, and help; then… BOOM! I can’t even help myself. Haha. Or, another example: I become highly conscious and only do healthy shit; then… BOOM! Old habits kick in once again. They include overthinking, overeating, isolation, paranoia (also known as extreme fear), self-sabotaging behaviors, self-hatred, unworthiness, and intense negative emotions in general. But, somehow, I have been able to take control over my life. Yes, I know that I am an illusion, a lie, a creation of my mind, etc, but you have to understand that sometimes we need the development of the ego before its clash. Remember Leo’s story: he was a fucking 26-year-old virgin and was able to get really good in sex. Only after that did he started his enlightenment pursuits. Seriously, let us learn how to be good human beings first and foremost. ____________________________ Welcome Stage 2 of Awakening “Your life is like a dream. When you wake up from your dream, it doesn’t fucking matter if it was a good dream or a bad dream. It was only a dream. Similarly, the same thing happen in consciousness. When you Awaken, you understand that, “Oh… it was just a fucking dream. It is just a dream. So, really, why do I have to bother so much with that shit?” This is Stage 1 of Awakening. However… this is just stage 1, people! The Stage 2 of Awakening is… the full return to the Body. Hehehe. It is so funny how connected to the body you become. You two become like best friends, working in harmony once and for all. It is like you and your inner child working well for the first time in ages!! Hahaha. And that inner child needs approval to function well. Hehehe, it is that crazy… It is all an energy game. Don’t tell the child that… Hahaha. Distract him or her with something else. But that’s the truth, dude. Hehe. It is a fucking energy game. Obviously, I gravitate between those two stages. But, man, does it feel good to be in stage 2. Seriously!!! You finally understand the shit that happened in your past, you drop all your negative, liming beliefs in an instant. It feels amazing! However, I would be reckless to say: drop your seeking. Yes, it is a “waste of time,” but, dude, it helps A LOT! Like, at some point, you simply find your balance, you know? We did not come here to have Maha-Samadhi (which is the Full Awakening). Seriously, this is like becoming the sun. No, no, no! I don’t want that power. You know why? I will die if that happens. I -- as an individual -- will not be able to function in society. I will come back to the source. No! I do not want that! The goal here is to become a Boddhissatva, a peaceful warrior. We are all going to get enlightened after we die. I “experienced” physical death in a yoga class, and dude it feels exactly like what Leo described: “A huge weight was lift off my shoulders.” The material world is painful. Sorry to break to you, but pain is real. The thing is: are you always going to postpone your life? Or are you going to invoke the light of Divinity to work through you? Because seriously, I am not the one writing here. It feels like I am the one doing the work, but it really isn’t. I am just an instrument. And my mission is to fine-tune this amazing instrument that I have. My body, my voice, my brain. >> Those are my main vehicles to reach you So, it is a matter of dropping everything you think you know, and live like a fucking child. 100% acceptance of the presence moment 100% unconditional positive regards towards yourself 100% internally driven behaviors Sure, it is not as easy as it looks, but it is amazing when you start seeing the results. And then, when you start seeing a little bit more of results, you drop the searching. And then the Higher-Self and the lower-self are perfectly integrated. The point is: we fucking need the lower self. It is responsible for our survival. But do not let it be the master. You are the master here. You are the one who gives commands. The child listens to the adult. Or does the adult listen to the neurotic needs some children have? “Oh… you want a candy? Yes, yes!!! Have as many as you want!!!” Hahaha. This is the lack of order. The lack of a healthy masculine energy. What Masculine Energy Brings You > Deep values > Feeling good in the body > Tolerance to pain > Deep sexuality > Self-confidence So… let us start today. If we want the world to change, we must begin with ourselves.

Dude, you are pushing yourself too hard. I can come up here with a list of all my negative qualities. The result? I will feel miserable afterwards. Sometimes we just got to allow ourselves to feel happy in the present moment, as it is. Yes, your past is horrendous and terrifying. But seriously do you want to really carry all that weight? I feel like you need some yoga. Or any activity that releases all your clogged energy, you know? I always give this advice, but have you tried psychedelics? Dude, you can't imagine how much you're missing on. I can see myself in you. I was like that in the beginning of this year. Anyway... I have been finally able to feel good, you know? The way we are supposed to feel. Happy with what life is bringing me. I thought that was unacceptable. "No, no, no! I have to check x, y, and z before I can allow myself to be happy." >> You always postpone life and feel unhappy. Remember: you are not guilty of anything that happened to you. You are perfect just the way you are. You might not want to accept this statement, but it is fucking true, dude!

@cosmicrays of course, it doesn't feel fantastic. tell me: does a salad taste like a hamburger? @Epiphany_Inspired hehehe, the Universe knows what it is doing @DoubleYou i am not a doctor. @krazzer yes, after a while, it becomes the natural, as you said it. but, sure, it is perfectly fine to take hot showers. it is just that... cold showers feel better when you acquire the taste.

Well, maybe you need some basic psychotherapy. But trust me, it all boils down to love as @Nahm mentioned. If you slay a head of your childhood hydra, ten new ones appear instead. Haha. So sometimes it is a matter of saying, "Ok! My past was a piece of shit. But let me live in the present moment." Btw - you do not know what God is. I suggest you watch two episodes: - Self-Acceptance (it is like a guided visualization; it's pretty amazing!) - What Is God (OPTIONAL)

Maybe All We Need is Some Old-Fashioned Self-Development Hey guys, So… the thing is: I feel like what most of us need is actually some good old-fashioned self-development. There is probably one area of your life that the situation is pretty terrible. In my case, it was related to self-confidence. It was a pretty harsh process… it still is. I have many mental beliefs that keep me stuck and has done so for over the last 10 years. It is THAT crazy. And some point… BAM! I developed this disorder. And I bought into the idea that I was “it”. I was the disorder. I became identified. So… maybe just being more kind, more considerate, and really more loving is enough. You know, what is True Love? It might be something totally different from the fruity version of love that you might have soaked in from the media. Anyway, let’s not forget not to skip so many steps. It is a simple path. Your only job is to stay on it. Yes, you will lose balance at times. But it ain’t about how many times you fall, but about how many times you pick yourself up. Seriously, with an attitude of a loser and complete victim, you can even reach enlightenment, but seriously it will be an incomplete enlightenment. It is like this: you have an extremely poor country and you give all the wealth to that country. Easy come, easy go… So, please, quit buying into the idea that enlightenment is something special and out-of-this-world. It is here. However, what is the worth of knowing that if you still have crappy relationships, is overweight, and feel emotionally childish? Throw away your hopes! Haha. But if you want to seek enlightenment desperately by isolating yourself from society, go ahead and do it. Let’s see if you’ll succeed. “I WILL DO IT ALL ALONE!” Ok. Show me all your force and resistance. Don’t do it. Seek enlightenment desperately. Be a dog chasing his tail.

@Santiago it is a matter of stop trying to figure out things by yourself, and begin to invoke the divine. dude, it is that simple hahaha

good! you are on a good track! maybe it is time to stop the psychotherapy, and become Buddha. have you heard of calling up Divine's Will? Do this 10 times a day, even if you do not believe in the power of this practice. When God (the Real one) starts working through you, Heaven is revealed. Enlightenment is very real. Just call on Divinity. Hahaha, yes, I do sound like an evangelical person, but, dude, it fucking works. I wouldn't be doing if it wasn't worth it. Things have become SO MUCH FUCKING easier. You do not have to correct anything.