ajasatya

i have nothing else to say. just wanted to group up these great replies.

@Nadosa talk to your parents and tell them how you feel. tell them that the feeling of obligation is making you sick (because it is) and that you need some time with yourself to feel what you really want to do. do not worry about the "wasting my life" excuse. that is bullshit. wasting your life is doing something that you don't want to do and becoming sick. my fiancee was studying architecture. it's a promising career. but it was making her sick and i was the first one to tell her to let it go. now she's going to study music because she gave herself time to experience a lot of different things and find out what she wants to do, not what others want her to do.

why are you stuck? you didn't say what you're struggling with.

this is a very naive statement. be solid when talking about possibilities. don't go to lala land.

sounds interesting. what exactly will you do?

@Serge come closer. it is inevitable.

@Ilya they can help. but the only way to confirm is by putting what you've learned into practice and truly knowing how you feel when you do whatever you think you want to do. keywords: do and feel.

i agree. this is also represented in the last picture of the famous zen story about the ox.

do you look back at your own memories and feel sad for them or do you accept them as learning experiences? everyone has his own rhythm. you can be either melancholic or grateful. it's your choice. either way, notice the transforming potential of those feelings. leo built this web space and his youtube channel. i am enhancing my yoga/meditation skills to help others and myself and i am also planting forests and working on a high quality project to help mankind. i don't think your feelings are the real cause of your suffering. i think you're suffering because you don't know what to do with them.

@Socrates dude, i've been working on my projects for 14+ hours/day everyday for the past week. WAKE UP. y u no make impakt?

HELP

it's a temporary pattern. the only moment that the typical mind stops is right before sleep time, so your body created a correlation between slow thoughts and sleep time. achieve more peaceful moments during the day and be mindful of the fact that it's not sleep time yet. it will take a while, but you should get used to it.

my sleep (quality and length) is part of my success.

@CGeo i use a cheap one. it cost me $30. also a male yoga short (even cheaper). dedication is expensive, though!

pride entails suffering, young padawan. too much of you, you still think. thus ready, you're not yet. neediness, i can sense. *sniff* *sniff* penury, i SMELL!

@Ilya can you tell "more negative thoughts" from "becoming conscious of old unconscious mental patterns"?

let go of the belief that getting laid means success. i've met many inpiring people who practice celibate. even i did it for a while. what does the word success mean to you?

@Dominik Drums this kind of work is for those who aren't scared of facing the magnitude of their freedom. for those whose happiness depend on egoic validations and external motivations, they should stay away because self-actualization is a way of dismantling old patterns. it's destructive. there's nothing wrong with goals. being a slave of your goals is the problem. but only a few people can face the reality of not being a slave.

did you listen to what he said about his kidneys and liver, though?

what the actual fuck

@Serotoninluv you care too much about making a point. you gotta let go of that pride. when we start the journey we have the beginner's mind. everything is marvelous and we learn from many sources. the thing is... the beginner's mind is the goal! don't carry intellectual baggage with you because fundamentally you cannot explain Reality anyways. admit it to yourself 24/7 and let your heart bloom through silence instead of being vulnerable to mental concepts about you and Reality.

you cannot fight thoughts with more thoughts, that's for sure. in order to heal yourself from any kind of thinking pattern, you need to go completely out of the box and drop the entire game of thinking. it's your addiction. i bet you consider yourself a smart guy. drop it!

spirituality is the practice of becoming conscious of the root cause of my sufferings and working towards extinguishing them. notice the difference between pain (bodily sensation) and suffering (mental).

@kieranperez why have you been experiencing anger? what thoughts have been triggering it?

it cannot be done. humanity's been looking for solid proof and evidence of his existence for quite a while. all we have are scriptures (gospels) and rumors. but i'll tell you the solemn Truth. before abraham came into existence, i am the way and the truth and the life. be still and know.