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  1. If you meditated alongside breathwork before smoking a fat joint then I can safely say yes, past that point that dose should provide some type of "breakthrough" experience when combined with everything else I mentioned.
  2. I mean all language about nonduality is occurring at the conceptual level which inherently makes distinctions, so if you’re gonna use language you may as well do it right and not make broad generalisations assuming everyone knows exactly what you mean and if they don’t it’s automatically because they are not “woke” big lol. Sorry that’s my rant over. I just focus on the raw experience these days, yoga is so damn good at taking you out of your mind and into your environment also. This kind of presence is what you want in life. More connected than anything.
  3. I think he was talking about the ego-you. The ego-you does not dream up reality but is rather another byproduct of the dream itself. I think this is where a lot of people are getting confused. "You are dreaming up yourself" may be a more useful pointer for those who haven't realised no-self. Without this many people will walk away from your teaching style thinking in a very egotistical way "ahhh yes! I am God! hahaha I am so woke" Or something along those lines. @Leo Gura It's a pretty devastating misinterpretation to make.
  4. even that is way too much in my eyes. Integration can take literal years if one is honest with themselves. The mind needs time as well to re-stabilise, it can seem as though taking more will help clarify the previous lessons when in reality taking time to simply contemplate/meditate for even longer will create a more grounded understanding that is less suspect to the delusions of grandeur that psychedelics can cause. Better to err on the side of caution and take lower doses less frequently. I respect this take, and feel like I'm in a somewhat similar boat to you (not using any psychs atm), but I don't think closing oneself off to the possibility of EVER using them again makes sense either. Prioritise the contemplation, study, yoga and meditation because that's where 99% of the work is, but I'm sure if say you used them again many years later it would have benefit. It's not needed per se but could still be useful. But it does seem many people on the forum don't respect just how long integration can actually take, and that prioritising psychedelics over other methods is simply unwise long-term. And agreed psychedelics can become a massive distraction. One may not even realise that to be so until they spend sufficient time away from them. They shouldn't even be the main tool.
  5. Easily my favourite; story of my life right here lol. To actually live from this place he's talking about in every day life is incredible.
  6. Absolutely, LSD was critical in my understanding of source but only up to a certain point; meditation showed me a more grounded oneness perspective that integrates source into even the most seemingly mundane aspects of life. I see no contradiction between the physical and the spiritual now. It all nicely integrates into a singular "wholeness" that accompanies a sense of being absolutely complete. The spiritual highs are nice, lots can be learned, but the constant flow one can have with everyday life makes said insights a lived reality for the individual. Underrated comment here, as profound and true as these experiences can be there is always a subsequent interpretation that is suspect to human bias; there is literally no way around this-to me this is what makes meditation so crucial in the end, for shutting off the mind's BS and instead living and embodying truth combined with these direct experiences is (imo) what true "enlightenment" is all about. Takes a deep connection with one's intuition to fully actualise this however.
  7. Im no doctor but these sound like depression symptoms...
  8. I felt a very similar sentiment after my changa experience and it was only a low dose but enough to make me realise I was wasting my life and taking everything for granted. I feel like embracing the human experience should be a part of one's spirituality, for there's all the time in the world after death to not be human (but at the same time to ONLY be human would be a shame also, as so much of the beauty of life comes from the spiritual perspective). And yes LSD unity is spectacular lol. Never done 5meo but like all psychs going slow is the best option.
  9. Except behind that veil is just a pure white light lol
  10. depends on the depth of cessation. It's more so in hindsight when coming out of said experience that the real "knowing" occurs at least for me. As the ego and its created other come back online after cessation you're just like "holy fuck", because the inherent source of everything is revealed. So this "watching" of cessation is really just the ego slowly coming back online whilst God is still somewhat present (but not as much). The intellectual mind actually can't fully grasp or remember the true depth of what God is, nor will it ever, but it can feel it and live by it. A knowing beyond mind.
  11. Stop trying to prove anything, proof requires comparisons, and that ain't very non dual of you
  12. To worry about the existence of others is to assume the existence of oneself. A singular consciousness can have multiple experiences in the relative domain, just like a singular consciousness can have multiple forms in the relative domain. Why not? With regards to the movie/relative, there's a lot in this moment you can't experience based off your state of consciousness e.g. other dimensions, other minds, other entities, etc. On the other hand, Leo is right in saying that all that is is the eternal now because behind the veil it has never been anything but pure bliss. Both are true depending on how you look at it. Absolute vs relative. An inability to properly integrate this will fuck you up. Non duality is about realising that the whole thing is a game, it tells you nothing about the nitty gritty details of the game. To think non duality will give you the answer to solipsism is the equivalent of thinking non duality will give the answers to how DNA operates, how gravity works, etc. etc. "Bu-but, Gravity is just an illusion, DNA cells are an illusion! It's all illusion!" Yeah, and? Did you realise the whole thing was an illusion? Did you realise despite all that the game still uses certain rules and regulations that cannot be broken? Maybe questioning solipsism is more distractions related to/inside the game that cannot be proven or unproven? You realise that everyone on this forum asking this is wasting their time completely? yep! With no one to do the seeing, no ownership at all. I'm surprised people on the forum almost gloat about being absolute nothingness; shit's kinda weird lol. Probably because the belief of being God is more ego inflating than the actual raw experience of it.
  13. I would say he's become noticeably more thoughtful with his teachings very recently. Immaturity is not welcome here.
  14. Try L-theanine if you like coffee and meditation. It's literally meditation in a pill and your focus/performance with coffee will be way better than coffee alone (I also get zero side effects; no anxiety, no crash nothing).
  15. I'm so glad one of the OG's of this forum has returned lol, feeling very nostalgic rn
  16. this is by far the most underrated point in this entire forum, it's literally the source of the forum's obsession with solipsism. All practicality gets thrown out the window into spiritual mental masturbation, and so many people here have been left totally confused and stuck in the contents of their finite mind, believing there's nothing more to it than that. It's kinda sad.
  17. meditation and yoga first my dude, most egos need to be relaxed and open before they temporarily die (with love, no need to hate the ego). Don't think that there's some big insight at the end with psychs that'll fix all your problems and be your salvation, this truly is something that comes from inside of you, not from the drug itself (although this can be hard to see at first) I've had some serious connection with God from yoga/meditation alone and I'm not special at all. You cannot spiritually bypass your problems with psychedelics or any spiritual technique for that matter. I would work on this stuff first before even thinking about psychedelics. Something like LSD is quite energising so I would urge holding off for a bit until you've tamed your mind, body and energetic system. Anxiety is something that ultimately the ego is holding onto, even if it feels like one is trying to push it away, that's only exacerbating it. Allowing and accepting it so radically that even the resistance of it is allowed (whilst maintaining mindfulness) will help said energy to flow through you better, rather than fighting with it that causes it to be "stuck" in a way if that makes sense. Not only will it leave you quicker, but the experience of it won't seem nearly as bad. Adyashanti has some amazing meditations that can really relax a lot of the ego's fears and defences. So yea sorry to be your mom lol but I used to be a very anxious person myself and the trips I had then were not good nor even beneficial (thank god I took a break at the time) but as soon as I was in a better place the subsequent trips were amazing and I'm still integrating those lessons because of how powerful they were. There's seriously no rush with this stuff, and if you're going into the experience with all these expectations of it transforming you completely in one hit, you're gonna walk away disappointed assuming the experience hasn't completely overwhelmed you. Honestly if you're going to do anything judging by your post I would actually look into MDMA right now rather than psychedelics, such a drug can show you how to relax and open up and I think this is your best starting point before diving into a deeply profound trip. Good luck @Richard Purdy
  18. totally normal dude, try to open yourself up to experience anxiety as you breath through it and show compassion to it (and yourself) and remain present, all the while not judging yourself for such an experience or thinking you are weak for it. This is all a process, none of us are where we want to be. Compassion as an actual daily practice makes so much of a difference.
  19. The loud silence sounds exactly like my meditation experiences, it's so silent that it's powerful, unperturbed by anything, allowing everything. I would say (as flakey as this sounds) to simply feel your way into whatever mental space that is and to fully and completely surrender to it, allowing everything including the fear.
  20. Hmmm, sounds more like depersonalisation actually. Maybe try taking a break from all this stuff for a while if you're able to, sorry to hear about this.
  21. Highly agree with this take, the flippancy of some comments is inherently dangerous and breeds a kind of know it all attitude that ain't healthy. I would also add that honouring the relative is severely lacking in the spiritual side of this community, almost to the point of using the absolute POV as a copout, which is also dangerous and breeds Zen devils.
  22. @dflores321 "The club of no one" hahaha @Leo Gura Being God/nothingness for a while has made me appreciate being human with all its suffering so much more. I'm not sure going all the way is right anymore if it means never coming back to this relative game, isn't that what death is for anyway? I guess everyone's path is different. @TheAvatarState Loving kindness is so important on this path, God is alone in its infinite love, and as humans we are united in that aloneness. There's a narcissistic aloneness that makes you feel alien and separated, and there's a selfless aloneness that is intimately connected with all. When you look at another human being you're looking at a literal manifestation of God, which is much more profound then just a fleshy robotic meat suit I think.
  23. "the seekers ignorance must be destroyed with the machine gun of truth" wtf lol