Andrea Marchetti

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  1. David Icke is charismatic and schizophrenic. He got some truths and most of them are not elaborated properly, thus the crazy ideas about conspiracies and reptiles and stuff. It's purely his imagination. One could see which truths he got which then have been deformed into those ideas. I would stay away from him.
  2. Unconscious is all what you're not aware of... You repress sex? That makes your unconscious. You don't remember the second world war? That's unconscious. You are not aware of the car passing by the road or a star somewhere exploding? That's unconscious. Unconsciousness is infinite, like consciousness... Indeed what we call with those two terms are the same thing.
  3. The mind. Consciousness becomes aware of itself through the mind, it works as a mirror. No mind, no existence, no self-awareness... Otherwise, it would be awareness of what? The mind awakes, it drops gradually the ego, it refines and attune itself, throughout cycles of destructions and creations, to the point where its understanding is in tune with the Truth. A polygon with an infinite number of sides is a circle.
  4. A nice green to yellow movie.
  5. @Psychonaut you don't get the point.
  6. The effort to self-actualize is ego. Self-actualization is absence of ego... Why do you look for what you cannot have while you are still searching?
  7. @Orange I think nations will disappear, as soon as the majority of us will loose their drive for power over others, when the will to live together and feeling part of the same family will be common. the troubles nations are creating, even at the economic level, are huge. but that's only because people still identify with a piece of ground... there will be always a system... it's not true that it's always a compromise. Now it is a compromise (bad), and I think a lot of time it'll be. But when there will be nothing to compromise with, nor avarice or lust for power; democracy is born as a way to avoid few people to govern badly. It will be just a system, like a structure through which, in accord with our very nature, will help us to organise our society and to thrive always better, it must allow grow and change to happen, and that's difficult for a singular social system to achieve...
  8. I am not interested in politics for the simple reason that the problems that politics create are a consequence of people ignorance about themselves, if people would be more aware they would not permit fake theatres to run their material life. But the majority today is chasing useless informations and perpetuating ways of thinking which are proposed as beneficial, often with the best intentions, but indeed it's just shit and obsolete stuff. However I have an idea of how a group of people could live harmoniously together, and that's differentiation. For example the right to vote on a particular subject should not be done by everybody. Only people with a competence in the particular subject at that time can vote. Everybody can vote though internet, there is no need for parliament or similar stuff. This way of proceeding was introduced as a tool for people to be at least represented, because we, millions of people, couldn't enter in one room and talk all together. That was not going to resolve anything. But now we can, we can use the web. Only this can be a true democracy. Furthermore only people with a competence in that field can vote. Most people are ignorant, we don't know what the problems in government are, we don't know what issues international economics has, unless we studied it. So in my opinion, colleges should be the center of the government. Philosophy government could give incredible new ways or methods in shaping a better social structure. Economy colleges can manage economical issues. And everybody has the right to study even without money, so there will be not differentiation in classes, any social class can partecipate in saying their will. And all of this is done through web, in a true democratic way. We would need to differentiate who can vote a particular law, there will be of course laws where everybody can and must vote. In this way every place on Earth own what people of that place deserve and wants. Provinces should be divided by universities. Universities must become the new government. And also, fundamentally, there must be an open minded view on new science or what can be defined as university. If in a place people are generally more intelligent they will attract intelligent people and that place will thrive better. In this way only the best thrive, the truly best. However there is the need, even in this case, to assure safety to everybody through an international neutral control, which must be without a central government, and with the only purpose to assure safety between nations, until nations will disappear. Any other law or act must be decide together, through the web and without any representation because there is no more the need, we have the proper technology now. There is the need to make those laws to be factual, so there can be an effective part of this structure where there will be functionaries like police that act, but always in the respect of people decisions. Of course different groups of people will have different preferences and personal will, so it will just happens that the majority win, because the majority of the entire population is always the one who has not tools to understand political mechanisms and get personal benefit from it, and if they say that particular law is damaging them they must be right... Yeah, there a lot of problems too in the best system, because most people do not have the feeling of being part of the world... If everybody would have the feeling of being part of existence on this planet together problems would end instantly, whatever the system is used... The system is used as a compromise to limit power to people... So I think that systems are not going to help us. That's not solution. That's a compromise.
  9. @Capethaz I think meditation contributed to this.
  10. @Capethaz .. I have this too for one month now. And I am fucking anxious and afraid all day long, I perceive existence as creepy and out of my control, like that a giant can come and crash me right now. I am afraid of going mad almost every second, almost every thought or feeling make me think I am mad. Now I am consulting a psychotherapist. I do understand that's a neurotic problem but it seems it's becoming the normal state for me, from morning to evening. In the evening anxiety kicks up quite strong and I have no idea what to do, sometimes it's so strong that senses are overwhelming and I am afraid to loose control and kill someone if a similar impulse wants to and I have no control over myself anymore. What can I do then? How did you get out?
  11. Why do you search for enlightenment? Please be honest. Question what is driving you in this search. Tell also how much you think you are sure of it, imagine that if you lie you are gonna die. Be fucking honest with yourself. Do you do it for power? For personal complacency? For truth? For different reasons? For suffering? For vanity? What did you sacrifice for this search? Did you sacrifice anything for this search? Girlfriend, friends, job, video games, sex, whatever. PS: I am not suggesting anything in particular, not the search nor the sacrifice. I am just asking, nothing important; so don't preach whether the search is important or absurd or sacrifice is something to do or not to do. I am looking for personal experiences, thoughts and feelings about the search and how much of it has possessed you. I would like to receive answers that come from a pure emotive source, not philosophies. And I would like, for you and for me, these answers to be genuine and not lies.
  12. We are not one single indivisible unity. We are many me. Imagine many different impulses, what we call me is the current order of groups of impulses: the ones that are submitting, the ones that dictate, the ones that help the dictator, the ones that help the submissive... It may be a kingdom, a dictatorship, a democracy.. It all depends on the level and the character of the person. In schizophrenic people there is a remarkable anarchy within... We continually change order many times during the day, according to situations or the strength of the impulses. A group of impulses working together is a personality. And we have many. When we say I stopped myself it's just the personality that has the power in that moment that blocks a rebellion from other impulses. But only consciousness can say I. It usually does through the current order in that moment... And this is what we call ego. Higher consciousness is simply consciousness that recognise the internal movements and detach itself from these movements, it is simply observing the continuos exchange between and metamorphosis of various personalities and impulses. It can still say I but there is not a delimited and fixed I anymore. Of course, a person who is detached from his impulses has a very flexible order in himself, so he can flow every moment.
  13. I was just willing to write a new topic about some problems I think I might have and that I would need some clarity about... And I found this topic. I would like anyway to receive some different views on this... I have been smoking marijuana for few years now, the last two years or so I smoked rarely. And now it's quite a long time, but I always have my weed in case I want to smoke. The reason I smoke is that when I do I feel very panicky and after a while, more the panic has been intense and more I could see better myself and others, and these insights cause my ego to inflate. Since I was younger, 18 years old, my ego was still developing and now, because of this, my ego has taken a very different path. I am afraid I might be grown up not properly. Since what actually happens when I panic on weed and inflate is that my ego weakens and then grows on a different way. I am afraid I might have gone off the rails. Now, I am a bit worried about the consequences of this, since lately after an LSD trip things get kind of worst and I feel I am not in control of myself and I am often afraid to be mad, after that psychotic episode I feel more unstable. Maybe these problems have always been there but now they are stronger and often I cannot subconsciously choose to be unaware and distract myself. I am also completely socially inefficient: before I had friends and after the weed use I have no friends, I have a girlfriend but we never understand each other even if we often try our best but we deeply both know it's not enough, I stay with her because I am afraid of being left completely alone, I don't know why she stays with me, probably it's a habit and it's hard to be intimate again with someone else from the beginning. I haven't a job, and this one doesn't really bother me even if family and girlfriend and friends (when I sometimes see them) say it is, but to me it's just financially unstable so I help my parents as a farmer. Yet I want to express myself, but all I can think of is to say to other people what I think or see about human existence and when I do I go around like a pleased cockerel, and a thought says: Such an idiot. And another: it's a good thing to help others. And other: you know it's bullshit, you are doing it for your pleasure.... These are not voices I feel external, I feel I think them, yet... I have been depressed for few years, now I may be often depressed but before it was more stable... And all this would never been the same without weed and LSD (which I used just once because I am afraid to go mad). So I am wondering whether I should give up on this shit of enlightenment and come back to build my ego as normal, which it can never be again, within society and in a sense come back... Since the only external feedback I have for my ego are books some people then I may be quite out of touch with reality. But also other ordinary people are out of reality I think, so from which stable reality can I have feedbacks? My mind is continually contradicting itself and my ego is wanting stuff that it, by its nature, can't get. In essence, I think that using drugs may open views which are too early and it could bring instability, this in addition to isolation are the perfect recipe to get mad. I also think that without instability one cannot evolve. The reason why I go on with drugs (rarely now) is because they inflate my ego and a 10% because they helped me in some things. I can't understand if I am going in healthy direction or the other way. I have many unhealthy stuff in my head, not extreme relatively to some other people (yet?), but I can't understand whether they are driving me or I am kind of out from them. I think that, for example, if my girlfriend leaves I may be really depressed and unstable this time. Maybe these are just suppositions driven by fear, I don't know. I know I have desires I deny to myself for various reasons. I am just afraid to go mad, that's all. And if I think about it now that I am exorcising this, a far thought is asking Who is going mad? But since I, as ego, know that it's a thought to follow my fear stops me, of course... Another thought asks Does it matter? Fuck my life. Another says: Life is important. Another follows: How do you know it? Another replies: I don't and can't know. And there it stops, but the feeling remains. What in essence I am trying to do is to jump, grab the power that comes with truth, and taking it back with me to the ground where I can be safe. In a nutshell since I, as ego, know what makes me afraid of 'dying' so I repel it. This repulsion is what I think is, in depth, going to drive me mad. I know where truth is and I escape it, yet I desire it from both personal will and emotional needs. But when I get near my personal will ignore it and I step back and my emotional needs remains unsatisfied. And this would never happened without drugs use. It is not something I would normally be able to see and so I might not be able to integrate it, since I am isolated and afraid of being alone and many other stuff too... I don't know. I feel like with drugs I have seen too far from where I was and am. A way too far to integrate properly, maybe. I want new sex and recognition but these are never satisfied. I feel so split in many me. I am envious of normal people, I call them normal people because they function better than me and yet I often find myself to feel superior to their shitty lives. In essence, fear is driving me mad and I am a coward on so many different and contradictory levels that to be courageous in one you have to be fearful in the other. And yet I think everything I say is, indeed, bullshits. What do you think? Since this post has became in the end (it has probably always been) a little escape for me, a kind of exorcism, I am gonna follow this and share a nice in-tune song. And sorry for egoism, but I do it in such a way that's gonna maybe be useful...
  14. Reading your post makes me afraid, I have a girlfriend and I know I would be devastated like you if we would break up. Since I knew this I tried like one year ago to leave her, to go into a voluntary suffering. Because staying with her and knowing that I am kind of dependent on her was really scaring me... That night I felt like I could loose my mind so I came back to her, thinking I was not ready and probably that was not the right way out... But I know the fear that lies behind having a girlfriend and it scares me... So the other way out I am trying is to be independent whether I am with her or not. Trying to know myself, removing other deficiencies first so if it happens then I can be more stable. What I can say you is to stay with suffering and accept it strong and sharp... I am com-passionating you. It's painful for me too... Wait for a week or two and if you'd like tell me how it's going on I would be interested... @Naviy Stay strong, stay sensible.