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  1. -Word Association is a common word game involving an exchange of words that are associated together. The game is based on the noun phrase word association, meaning "stimulation of an associative pattern by a word" or "the connection and production of other words in response to a given word, done spontaneously as a game, creative technique, or in a psychiatric evaluation". -Wikipedia Does anybody else utilize this technique? What would be the payoff of doing this technique daily over a long period of time? Would this encourage one to think more systemically, would it change the way you think?
  2. Are watching these videos good for raising your baseline level of consciousness? What is the brain's response to this? I couldn't find a lot of studies on this with regards to the neuroscience aspect of it. Any further info or personal experiences regarding the topic would be much appreciated!
  3. @Swarnim Will the pursuit of spirituality get in the way of me pursuing success? I find that the more I grow spiritually, the more I have to spend re-evaluating the manner in which I'm living my life and working through past trauma.
  4. @happyhappy Thanks man I've heard of him. It's an incredible story. I hope I'll be able to overcome those obstacles when the odds were stacked against him like he did.
  5. @universe I'm afraid that my past is going to create a life that doesn't allow for the time to eventually pursue spirituality full-time. I feel like I've lost out on the opportunity for early success in life to where I won't have to worry about meeting my survival needs.
  6. @Terell Kirby Thanks man, I've been following the channel for about 6 years or so. If I hadn't stumbled upon it when I had, I wouldn't have been open to the content he's releasing nowadays, and for that I'm grateful. I've taken LSD like 10 times or so and I'm not sure if it was the right time to do so, because seeing the limitations of pursuing material success left me incredibly unbalanced and impaired my ego and self-esteem. Now I'm left wondering whether I should put my spiritual pursuit on pause and focus on my basic survival needs, or completely go off the deep end, per se.
  7. Greetings self-actualizers, I wanted to post this to lay out my current life situation in hopes of getting some advice/shared experiences. I'm currently 24 years old, and I live in a small town in rural Iowa. Ever since the age of 14/15 or so I've exhibited nothing but self-destructive behavior that's led my life down the wrong path. At the age of 16 I began taking stimulant medication (Adderall) to help me with concentration issues and schoolwork. I also began drinking and smoking marijuana at the age of 16. After graduating high school I moved out and attempted to attend school at a community college, but I never attended class and had to drop out. I also began smoking marijuana daily. I kept re-enrolling and dropping classes until the age of 20. It was also during this time that I hastily quit my first job, at a grocery store, which I had worked at for 5 years prior. Shortly thereafter I got charged for the possession of Xanax, and went to rehab for the first time and got put on depression and anxiety medication in addition to my ADHD medication. Since my first inpatient stay at a treatment center I've went two others, as well 3 outpatient treatment centers due to addiction and legal issues. In addition to my possession charge I've been charged with 3 DUI's, petty assault, public intoxication, and interference with official acts. This all happened between the ages of 20-24. Also during this time period I've assumed work at 2 different grocery stores as well as Mcdonald's that I ended up quitting without much due notice. Now I'm 24 years old, jobless, living with my parents and taking multiple medications to manage my depression/anxiety/ADHD issues. How am I supposed to get a decent job given my track record? Is it too late to get a fulfilling career in life? Will I have the time to build skills and self-actualize, while working at some dead end job? I got a sponsor and started going to AA 41 days ago, but am I truly sober if I'm taking these medications? I'm in such a low paradigm that I've lost all hope in envisioning a happy future for myself.