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Lucky you, even less carbohydrates You can eat all the veggies and fruits you want. Nuts. Meat. Eggs. The only thing you really miss is bread, pizza and pasta with wheat. But if you like to have bread, pizza or pasta from time to time you can still get the gluten free version.

Here is were it all starts. You have expectations and these expectations are not in line with reality. These are always relationship issues. Everyone has them and at the core they are all more or less the same. There is something inside of you thats hurt, thats fearful. She is triggering it. Be grateful for that because she shows you directly were you can do some inner work. (Releasing, emotional work) If you dont grow in this area it will always come back to you in some form or another. You can not hide from it. Practise acceptance and letting go. A good women will trigger the shit out of you. Cherish this.

So you want to be social but leo is in the way? Maybe try out some of these videos, they will make you want to be social: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S1rwCWDqtCU https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XdbcsRxDQvM https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yIsbVpBJ110 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ey3x1zkjx6k https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-7mAU6YDIcU https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hLJygQbyzWI Or work on the foundations and go for the big whale https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uGqlCkuah94

Is there anything thats real? Like infinity? The present moment?

I dont watch many pickup videos so I dont know what is so special about this pickup then other pickup but he seems to be confident. I guess he either approached a lot of women or worked hard on himself as to not be attached to outcome. Sure he could be more fun but maybe thats just not his personality. One thing I would not recommend that he does, is leaving the interaction to soon (not asking to go for a coffee right there and then) and ending the interaction right after he gets the number or set up a date. Maybe he did that because they were shooting a video tho.

That could very well be, I did wear these ear plugs for swimming tho. I have no fever and no coughing. I might try my luck with the doc tomorrow. Was staying in bed the whole day yesterday until now because of dizziness. But overall dont feel too bad so I wanted to see how much I can handle first.

Do you want to talk to other girls? Maybe you feel like you have such a deep connection that you want to be careful not to harm it. Thats ok. Just also be careful that she is not playing games with you. Its not you making progress - Its you both making progress. "show me, dont tell me"

hope you get better soon <3

Where is this somewhere? How do you know for sure? In the end, suffering is also just a part of life. Like happyness and joy. There is nothing thats better than the other. Nothing that is more worse then something else. Its all the same.

Definitely you want to feel love in yourself first. Be kind and loving to yourself. Always, especially when you feel that you dont deserve love. See if you hold any grudges against you, no matter what. And let them go. Practice acceptance.

What do you use audio logs for? Also do you transcribe them?

Well Im not him but I gathered from his videos that the problem with CFS came before he got into psychedelics. And that he has it under control now. I think he said its mostly related to certain food allergies. I would also think with all the self actualization and spiritual work he does, clearing negative energy happens naturally. From my experience with psychedelics it seems plausible that they have a draining energy effect. Im not sure about entitiy attachments. Have you read about the sedona method and the method of releasing? It also works with energy but I dont know if it applies to negative energy as much as emotions.

& @Epsilon_The_Imperial what do you mean with keeping the vibrations high. Is that what results from meditation?

I would say that is a limiting belief. There are other things more fun to talk about than for example trump or brexit. It might be useful to be on top of the news but its not a necessity.

You might be a perfectionist. The only way for you to fail is by doing nothing. Also if you are to afraid, start with something small you can do now.

Just leaving this here

Allright and what is your goal? You are most likely addicted to a lot of stuff (just assuming). I was when I was your age. You are really young so take your time. A little porn addiction wont kill you. It might make you act a bit weird socially (but then most are watching porn). It might take away time to study or do a hobby. It might create some sort of fetish. If you just want to avoid a porn addiction, stop watching it. You can try switching to pictures first, then just audioporn (google it?). Its fine, you can masturbate to imagination as well, it just takes some time for your brain to kick in. If you want more (like a girlfriend, get a life), get rid of your pc! Im not joking. Sell it, burn it, gift it to someone. You dont need it! Now if you watch porn on a phone idk, Im too old for this, youll have to get creative. But by getting rid of the pc you achieve several things. You stop gaming. You stop porn. You stop wasting time on internet forums. Instead you go out socialize, practice new skills, try out different things and all stuff like this. YOUR LIFE BECOMES INTERESTING. This will be very beneficial for you. Get a pc back when you are 17, 18. Start self-actualizing, watching porn and what not. Trust me you dont need it before.

so subtle

Connection To everything. To people, to animals, to nature, to space. Feeling one with everything there is. There is nothing I value more. Its always here, I just have to be reminded constantly.

tolerating bad behaviour = being loving? So lets switch the genders. Lets say a man is beating his wife. Should she walk away or give him unconditional love?

What happened when you kept being loving and hilarious? Im curious.

Yes this! If I am not doing x, its because I dont want to do it. I never must to x, I want to do x.

Happy new year my friend! <3

Haha, nice video! I think I would gladly take brown bear's rigid and robotic company as a constant reminder. But I wished they would already stfu and enjoy the tree and present moment for gods sake

@Hardkill you need to write only one sentence per post