ZeldaStar

That definitely helps, thank you. I agree I was moving too fast. I feel like it'll just drive me crazy to keep thinking about this experience at home alone with meditation and contemplation. I don't think it's right for me. I am considering consulting a psychotherapist instead. I wasn't really looking for going into something so deep and existential at this point, I was more so hoping for getting a more standard happy non-dual experience and some insights about my mind.

First trip ever. Went with 2 grams of Golden Teacher. I've read that it's a medium dose, and I expected mild effects, which I realized was arrogant of me going into the trip. I had some trips intentions going into it, particularly around resolving some issues in my life and better understand how my mind works at a subconscious level. I was trying to be more happy and positive and appreciate of things as they are. Initially, the trip seemed mild. I had some lights hallucinations - like seeing how colors are perceived differently. As I tried writing down and making sense of the experience, I started seeing myself from a different perspective. It was like I was observing someone else writing down things, but it wasn't really me. I saw my hand transform - and it reminded me of Harry Potter. Likely because I've been rewatching the movies in the days prior to the trip - it got stuck inside of me. I started imagining a whole bunch of flying creatures like in the movies too. I started wondering - if I am viewing myself from a third-person perspective - what is real? And I started wondering about existential questions - if I am not real, why am I here? Why did I choose to be in this life, in this moment? I then got a first-person experience of reality where I realized that reality does not exist obectively. Instead, reality only exists if I imagine it to be so. I then recognized that life is game. And I appreciated that it's beautiful, and I also really appreciated how stable life is - the simplicity of life. The experience was so chaotic and everything was shifting so quickly - simplicity seemed nice. I continued wondering about life - and I asked myself, why can't I go and shift into life as another person and then come back? The response I got is that it's just not how this works. Though I didn't fully understand how it actually works. I tried shifting back into the practical things I was trying to focus on for my trip - but instead, I got much deeper on the existential level. I felt that this reality exists because I want to be the person I am. Because it's interesting to be the character I am. There is an associated a "main character" energy to it. Then I started thinking about whether I imagined everything there is in life. It seemed true to me. I was imagining two states of reality. One where you "remember" that you are God, and one where you "forget". I realize that very soon the experience will end, and I felt like I need to milk the relevant insights from the experience. Then, a deep part of the experience started, around an hour an half in. At this point, I was no longer myself. I started having deep hallucinations. I was very confused on what is real and what is not. I hallucinated my pen completely breaking. And I believe I've spent above an hour trying to find a new pen, so that I could record my thoughts from this experience. Anytime I went for the search for the pen, I was instead pulled into something else that caught my attention. I also started laughing a lot and made some internal jokes about the pen. At some point I came back and concluded that God is that I imagined myself and then forgot. I started imagining how spiral dynamics and even the vocubulary I am using to write was created by me at some point. Most deeply - I profoundly realized that everything is just imaginery. This was A LOT more than I expected to reflect over in this session. And it has opened my mind to really contemplate some of the things Leo is saying not just as concepts, but as a first-hand, real experiences. The scary part for me was not necessirly the experience itself, but coming back to reality, and realizing what I have experienced. Now - it seems crazy. How do I get back to ordinary life, with people that I can't really talk about these things with, and continue living? How do I become happy, when I know it's an illusion. And if I choose to take distance from those people I love in my life - what am I going towards exactly? A deep deconstruction of all of reality and everything I know of it? I am not sure of the next steps. So I appreciate any guidance and advice.

So what would you talk about in that speech if you were the prine minister of Canada?

Inspiring, look at the contrast with Trump

What appeals to you in the BLOC? Why seek separation?

It's different than jan 6. January 6 was about Trump trying to hold on to power even after people voted for another president. This protest was about people being fed up with all the restrictions the federal government has put in place. Trudeau has put in place some of the toughest lockdown protocols in the world. Trudeau refused to negotiate and talk to the people. He invoked the emergency act instead.

Which part is not true? Immigration was higher. That's a fact, not propaganda. There are lots of sources e.g. https://grokipedia.com/page/Domestic_policy_of_the_Justin_Trudeau_government, immigration targets rose from 260k to 395k Most immigrants go to ontario, and that's where you see all the problems. If they were incentevized to go elsewhere, that would've been fine. In ontario - you could see problem. health care delays (lots of people I know in real life talk about their problems) and rising house prices: clearly backed by data Actually, some of this responsibility is on Doug Ford too, but most of blame went on Trudeau.

So many reasons. I've been on both sides of this issue personally Pandemic: Trudeau became unpopular around the pandemic, when he invoked the emergency act and freezed people's bank account who helped with the protests. People were not happy about the lockdowns and Canada's vaccine rules felt too controlling. Right-wing Media Influence: I was watching a bunch of Reels around the time Trudeau became unpopular. He has sufferred from a lot of US right-wing media around LGBTQ/Woke, similar to how Biden and Harris became unpopular. Also, there were A LOT of videos online where he is asked questions and literally doesn't answer them at all. Immigration: Trudeau has admitted too many people into Canada. More people amplified problems around healthcare, housing, and unemployment. The institutions were not ready to handle the amount of immigrants. Housing: We had skyrocketing house prices in 2021 after the pandemic. BOC slashed interest rates massively to revive the economy. In combination with immigration, housing prices went up a lot. Even though interest rates are controlled by the BOC, I believe Trudeau took the blame. Been there too long: People got tired off him personally, he has been around for 10 years.

Same problem here. It's a bit weird, because on the one hand, contemplating helps me figure out what you want. On the other hand, so much time is spent there it feels like.. I'd be way more successful just taking more action. Why can't the mind just shut up and work? 😆 Most of the ideas are great in theory, but making them a reality is challenging and takes a lot of action. Best I've found is contemplating contemplating, and limiting the time I spend. Also, getting into external pressure or getting other people to hold me accountable on things I want to do helps. At some point, gotta treat contemplation like you treat procrastination lol

Really appreciate your work Leo! It has been enlightening I feel like maybe I missed something with this specific video, or maybe I should just wait for parts 2 and 3. I think I’ve watched a lot of previous videos from you where you’ve shared these same insights before (like the non-duality or decounstructing science videos). Was this one more intended for scientists who haven't seen actualized.org videos before? Here are my takeaways, for reference: 1. Most systems humans developed (e.g. IQ tests, Science), have essentially become people’s new conformity, and they never question these systems. They take them for granted. 2. We should question our assumptions and constantly contemplate the fundamentals of our thought process and the world, not just contemplate things within our world view. 3. Furthermore, contemplation itself, while following a framework of rationality, is not sufficient to truly reach Truth. We need to be willing to step outside our worldview (rationality), open ourselves to more experiences, try psychedelics, talk to people we disagree with, read lots of books, and then make our own conclusions. 4. Everything is relative, and we should pursue Truth and Englitenment to understand we are manifesting all of this in our head

Next up: Bryan Johnson makes a video about Spiral Dynamics, and this forum will say shut up, stage orange narcissist.

Leo teaches pickup too, this seems irrelevant Julien blanc hasn't taught pickup in a decade if I recall correctly

> So really you have no plan and just hope it works out? Financially I'd say my plan is pretty clear and robust. In terms of life purpose, I find David Guetta's idea of purpose more appealing - which is that purpose unfolds in layers. I'd love to figure out my purpose now, and I hope once I finish this course, I'll have a good idea of it. But I don't want it to interfere with my current motivation and my plans either. I believe my life purpose would be highly focused on impact and helping people, and by the nature of things, most money is just located in big firms and businesses, not in helping people.

> so over the next 10 years meaning the average job will pay less yearly Sure, but my situation is different. I work in software engineering Without disclosing exact TC numbers, if I stay at my job, and I am able to work and be consistent, putting in roughly the same motivation I used for the past ~8 years that I was working, I should be comfortably financially independent in 10 years. I'll also have a good WLB in the process to get there too, which I haven't had much of before. I also have investments, so jobs paying less at some point in the future is not much of a concern for me. I work in a startup and on good terms with the CEO, so not particularly concerned about layoffs as long as I stay in this job. My problem is mroe about dealing with my mind, and dealing with this desire to have a higher impact, than it is about dealing with the money problems.

I've recently started the life purpose course. I'm making progress, watching videos, learning the content... Yet at the same time, my mind keeps running across these conflicting thoughts. Cognitively, I feel like I have a very clear plan and a path forward right now. I'm planning to work in my current job for a few year, save up some money, start a family. On the side, I would like to explore and start working towards my life purpose, and then eventually make the switch full-time after I've saved up some money and am sure about my life purpose. However, I can't quite get my emotional side and my energy levels to align with this direction I've set for myself. For example, I'll watch Leo's life purpose course, and he'll say something like "you must quit your job", and then my brain will just keep contemplating the idea of quitting now, even though I know it's not the best move for me. Also, very strangely, I started enjoying my job less. I use to love doing the work, I use to love working hard and getting people's approval. That's how I got into my current job. Now these things don't drive me anymore, but I can't seem to get my new, more authentic direction to motivate me in the same way I used to through external validation. I keep spending my free time looking for advice and other perspectives, which just leads to more thinking and less doing... One explanation I had - like mentioned in book Mastery, I feel like I am used to pursuing the "constant climax" of life, and now that I am on a big plateau, I am struggling to continue doing the work. Making a sudden jump right now seems like I'd be more a dabbler, and jump to something else, before having fully understood my purpose, and fulfilled some of my karma. What are some things I could do to get my mind in a better alignment and motivation towards my goals?