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Regarding 5-MEO: You needed a second dose! Was in the same place, pure existential terror, agony (because of childhood trauma I could not let go, surrender). But when I came back after the first toke, happy that I was alive, the (very knowledgeable) shaman gave me a second dose and it took me all the courage I could muster ( I am still proud of that till today) to get the second toke as I knew I was going to die. Really no difference between what was happening and death (only if you believe in materialism you can find a difference). After the second toke I did not get the chance to surrender or not, the medicine forced me to surrender and the Love and Awe you are (not feel) justifies everything, all the suffering in the world also. You don't need to physically die to dissolve into Infinity, you get to the same place with 5-MEO. And yes, you are right - SURRENDER is the mechanism by which everything happens. Ma

Exactly! They don't increase, but reduce brain activity and by this throttle down (and in the case of 5-MEO kill) your mind (with a small m) , and by doing that you get access to broader consciousness ( impersonal one). In the case of 5-MEO your mind (with a small m) is completely shut down and you become Mind (capital M). By this mechanism you get information which seems to be not yours on high doses of LSD (from the Collective Unconscious) or to become God on 5-MEO. The mechanism by which this is happening is a weakening of the Ego or complete destruction (like 5-MEO does) - things which will show up on a CT-scan as a decrease of brain activity. Everything is consciousness in the end, our personal minds are just delimitations in that consciousness and psychedelics are making the borders between personal and impersonal more transparent (disolving them completely in the case of 5-MEO). Ma

I tried 200 mg Harmine (as I have extracted it myself and have no THH at hand) with 40 mg DMT in orange juice and got only a very, very mild trip. Do you think that the 200 mg harmalas are to low or was it the DMT dosage? In my previous Aya sessions , I needed double doses compared to other people , so I might be one of the guys which needs up to 100 mg of oral DMT. I think that 200mg of Harmine should bring complete MAOI inhibition , so ramping up the DMT (and not the Harmine) should be the way to go? Don't have much of either at hand so I would like some opinion before wasting a part on experiments. Thank you! Ma

For me, at least, snorting did get me lots of body load, while I did not get much body load with plugging the same amount (did not go very far with MALT for now). Except that, my experience was similar with yours, very powerful stuff, not really pleasant as other people are describing it (but I guess powerful stuff should not be pleasant). Nothing to joke with. Ma

Please share some more details about your friend Molly, does she take away pre-flight anxiety? how specifically does she sit with you? Thanks Ma

Surrendering everything is exactly the point of 5-MEO DMT. Nothing as an anchor, that is the Ego speaking and fighting for its life. Nothing to hold onto, complete surrender. You are infinite consciousness but to live that (not know that conceptually) but to BE it, live it, you have to completely surrender to the God molecule. Yes, you loose connection to everything, breath included, no anchors (anchors mean not wanting to let go of control), just trust and let go! Ma

Thanks, waiting for more

Please tell us more, very interesting

You can try Iboga minidosing at home (for flood doses this is not really recommended if you never worked with Iboga). Ma

What about giving Iboga a try? It seems to have the biggest potential of them all to release traumas and deep-rooted emotional pain and not just temporary. That's why it heals addictions in one go as all addictions are trauma based, the drug is just a cover up for the pain. You can also microdose Iboga to get a feel (which is not actually microdosing as you can clearly feel it, but mini-dosing). Some people report good results with microdosing it. Ma

Or even remove the 5-MEO DMT fear and make the comeup have a love component (not horror as it is for me). But I gladly accept the agony and terror as the price of admission.

First trip report: 1 black microspoon (should be 6 mg but more like 4 mg MALT as I am pretty sensitive to psychedelics)- snorted Took about 10 minutes to get the full effects and was pretty intense, much more than I expected but somewhat similar to a similar dose of vaped 5MEO-DMT dose. My ego started to loose control and was fighting back. I cannot say it was pleasant as It also came with a pretty good bodyload, I almost threw up. I can see now what people are meaning when saying it makes you work through your baggage and traumas, they get put clearly in front of you and you can see the mechanisms, very helpful in this regard. (like that I have lots of repressed anger and am trying to control everything, things I had a hunch about but did not see clearly) It has a sexual feeling to it (sexual, not erotic). My senses were heightened by a good deal. I cannot really say it was gentle like I heard other people describing it but might also have been the ROA as it came with a good bodyload. Is pugging superior in this regard, or is the bodyload the same? Whole experience was about an hour, feeling chill now but still not able to even think about food. Will go further Ma BTW, I am a male, around 100 kg BW

You are right, it is the other way around, first you get your ADHD in order than the lifestyle falls into place

Check Semax/ Cortexin (has some ADHD studies) - should regenerate the brain but a bit hard to get by outside of Europe

Let me know if you need more resources on this, like how to decarb, etc. Amanita is worth a try and also legal in many countries