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I think Leo's work is very powerful and unique in the modern age, however it is also very misunderstood which means a lot of it is lost on a large majority of people exposed to it; including most people on this forum.

I think it's important you take some time to understand what emotions you are suppressing, and how those suppressed emotions are shaping your beliefs.

@Magnanimous, truth is the antithesis for material life unfortunately. Truth shows you that the beliefs and desires you have for the material things you care about are not real; they were just very elaborate fantasies [dreams]. The material things remain, however your relationship and interest in them fade as you see the stories of your own mind become more transparent. You begin to notice how you are constructing the stories which give the material things the desire which you feel; the beginning of that process is very disorientating and many people are unable to push through. This is why it is very difficult to move past a certain point of ego development, as it's like crossing a bridge that you can never return from and you are aware of this; this stage is described well under the Ten Ox-Hearding pictures in Zen. A good practical example to check against for yourself would be things you enjoyed in your teenage years and why you no longer enjoy them; a hobby or friendship you outgrew would be easy to start with. Notice that the hobby and friendship never really changed, the way you related to it in your mind changed. The best advice I can give you would be to exhaust your material desires; Leo has a video on burning through Karma that is very relevant to this. Once you feel satisfied with your material desires you will naturally orient yourself towards truth seeking; precisely because you will begin to see how they never really made you happy [in an existential way]. You can also watch Leo's video series of Ego Development, there are various models but Leo discusses Susanne Cook-Greuter's thesis in the series. All humans naturally go through each stage of development, and these stages can't be skipped or bypassed, as the mind alway returns to the anchor of what feels most safe. One can only move through the stages through living life, but there is no guarantee that you will move through every stage; remember what I said about crossing the bridge earlier? Hope that is somewhat helpful.

This one is pretty easier to answer, you need to do what is right for you; that can change over time or for many people remain the same.

As someone who has went through the conundrum, and social stigma, of not wanting children or a family at this time of my life (33 years old), the last five years of truth seeking have been monumentally tough but also rewarding in a way nothing else could ever be. Like Leo said, you can always change your mind later; no regrets. A word of warning though, you will find it extremely difficult to tolerate a relationship with most people the deeper you go into truth. Depending on how serious you are to know the truth, it will cost you all your dreams and fantasies that you hold.

Your best blog post for a very very long time: https://www.actualized.org/insights/work-is-not-happiness When I experienced god realisation, I just had this crystal clear clarity that experience was all there is; the pain that followed was being unable to accept it. It also struck me shortly afterwards that if experience is all there is then there is no purpose to anything. That made me realise that all there really was to do was get comfortable with doing nothing. If I can’t sit in silence in peace while doing nothing then I’m still hung up on something. I think you mentioned this being your most recent journey in your actualised clips.

Thanks for sharing, going to look into this.

I appreciate science is a sticking point for many people, but jeez give the handful of us who have moved long past it something insightful from our perspective. It feels as if you are really stuck in a rut on science, not because it isn't important, but because when you get honed in on something you forget the bigger pictures, and other people.

@Leo Gura, let go of the science, return to the truth. You have lost your way. They, we, don't need repetition, they, we, need truth.

@Miguel1, you just need to get comfortable with being alone. Your direct experience is telling you that you need solitude. I think with that solitude, you'll find the answer that you're looking for. If you need a break from solitude, then feel free to socialise in a way that makes you as happy as you can be. It isn't really any more complicated than that. No one here is going to be able to communicate the answer you seek, even if they do know what it is, because the answer is yours to find alone.

Participation in life is essential to one's being, yet only when one has come to know oneself in solitude.

If they haven’t shared what they agreed to already, don’t expect any compliance or compassion if things get hairy after your interview. Unless there is some significant gain for you with going through with this, then don’t gamble future life implications away. Most situations like this involve lots of puppets like yourself in order for them to gain fame and fortune.

Enjoyed that, thanks for sharing. Also, none of those things are obvious deception to most people, least of all to the persons writing those into their papers. It takes a lot to stand back and see it, let alone then detect it without heavy attention.

One of my favourites

I think you mean you don’t know where you can socialise which feels comfortable.