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@universe Well his LP course and in many other videos you can get a feeling, that the most important thing is, is to contemplate and that contemplation can really help you. If this wasn't the case for you that's fine, maybe you interpreted his videos in an other way or maybe you were older than me and already had more experience to build on. All I want to find out is, if other people have had this struggle (contemplating to much to create an meaningful career) and what solution or insight that had. @Average Investor I would be curious about your progress so far, what ideas have had? Personally I have a problem, which is quite common I think, and it is that I am a big perfectionist. This for me is one of the main reason why I trying to think about a meaningful career does not seem to work so well, since no career will be perfect and you can only realize this by experiencing it. Are you a perfectionist?

I have a strange Hate/Love realtionship to weed. Almost everytime I smoke it I can start to experience a surge in negative energy, fear-based thinking, pessimistic thinking, confusion, stress, and terror. But since it kind of fades away, especially if I distract myself I can enjoy the think that comes afterwards. I am scared of getting really high, because I can feel terrified so easily. I am interested in doing mushrooms (I have some friends experiencing with it, and it would be a good opportunity to make some first experiences) BUT I am very scared I will have this brut negativ energy, stress reaction that will come up. I don't know if my body will react the same way as it does with marijuana. Any tips for me, or insights on similarities and distinctions between weed and shrooms?

@Nahm What if the feeling starts in anticipation of something, as it is the case with me when I think of consuming Marijuana? Does it go into the future then or would say you already simulate the future experience in your head, so the experience (of the future) comes to the now? When you say thoughts are chosen in accordance with feeling, do you mean that this is always so, or that this is good for your emotions? Tell me please if I understand you right: When I am having negativ emotions, it will help me to bring my thoughts to the presents, there where the feelings reside, and it will cause me more stress, when my thoughts try to make sense of my feelings by using the future as a source of explanation? @Arcangelo Have you tried Marijuana? If so how would you then describe Marijuana?

well sometimes the anticitpation of smoking can make me start to feel stressed. But sometimes I can feel very normal before and still experience a surprising negative experience (at the start).

watch how this dude makes his video. Very engaging! The listener instantly hooked

Thanks for your answer! I really don't experience much of that fear, if I don't smoke. And it is really more of body reaction, a stress reaction, which tenses up my body, makes me want to walk around, makes me shiver, if it is strong. The content of the negative energy is sometimes interesting, but to me it seems to be more about the drug, than about some trauma I am surpressing (but I could be wrong here). When you experienced those darker trips, what helped you to surrender and let go? (meditating? contemplating? observing?) When I smoke weed, my mind can get very confusing and overwhelming. I am wondering if my reaction to shrooms could be similar. Do you experience confusion and a mind running wild on shrooms?

you are not very engaging! it seems you are just reading down something or saying something you memorized before. Bring more energy! or more Love! Or a bit of drama, like critizising bad health routines, bad advise. Focus on Marketing not only on Content. Your content has to be your marketing. At the start of the video explain to me in a extremly passionate way why this video and your channel are amazing. If you can only convince me that they are good, I will watch someone I think is amazing.. Good luck

Hope you get better soon! Allow the sadness and when you feel ready start to let go of it. You will learn a lot from this! Pain is the best teacher ;). For the Retreat I cannot give you any advise, never did it myself, but I don't think you have to worry to much about it ( maybe more if you plan on taking drugs) and just take the time to think and let go.

@Thought Art nice one! I love spiritual music <3 I like drawing magical forests

- Filming Documentaries/ or having a YT Channel revolving about traveling and discovering various spiritual traditions

I think it is important that people take personal responsibility for their progress in self-development. Actualized.org is great but has not all answers for everyone in every moment in time. You can't follow things stupidly. This video could help to escape traps, that are typical for regular viewers of actualized.org. My personal example is, that I have pretty bad ADD and a weak willpower. Through my novelty addiction I watched a lot of videos and learned a lot, but I am realizing, that I don't progress a lot because what is most important is handling my ADD and having more structure. ALTERNATE TITLES: What should you focus on? I will tell you! How to understand the Trap you are in When videos won't help you! [10 practical examples]

YT videos for younger audiences 14+, that can help with their emotions and friends, etc. But I would have to be made for 14 so you don't advice taking any psychedelics, going on solo retreats. It should be talking about life, social life, happiness and maybe family. just basics. Maybe online videos on counseling, trauma healing, and ideally with live demonstrations. Very raw and impactful videos of people opening up through counseling

-healthy restaurant : I find atleast 95% of restaurants to be not healthy at all and to have a lot of nasty/tricky ways to maximize their profits. Big problem would be the marketing, since everyone is already doing the "we are healthy" marketing, even though their aren't. - Educational Games: learning by having fun, increasing skills in humans. - Design for homeless people: Designing very useful items, that can be produced cheaply to give to homeless people -Combining AI and Education: Learn environments that are adaptive to you. AI is in general can be combined with probably everything and will make good changes. Take a part of the change and lead it consciously. -Creating a poltical party, group, organisation, NGO, Think Tank, and push great political, conscious ideas, by going doing media appearances, gain followers, events, etc. -

I have heard a few time that pursuing enlightenment is a destructive process. It's believing nothing. But you can realize that believing nothing is also a constructive process. Going from All to Nothing is the same as going from Nothing to All. What are your thoughts?

@Serotoninluv Brother you are messing with my mind, with this insights ^^

I had this insight, that I wanted to share, but I don't understand it myself fully The insight is that: Balance is infinite. If you think of balance as something 1 dimensional you are not appreciating it. Balance is infinitely nuanced and can never be grasped. You can never hold true balance. The search for Balance and Nuance is never-ending and infinite. You can always find an more nuanced Balance than your current one. You are yourself infinitely nuanced / you have to become infinitely nuanced. An image I had in mind, was that of the nuanced personality. When someone is nuanced, we can explore the nuance in his personality for a very long time. Those are people, we can always discover new aspects of their personality and their personality will keep changing in our minds.

Really interesting to read all those experience reports with weed. I can relate very to all of your experiences. I find it funny because usually people don't talk about how weed is, they just say "weed is fun/chill/intense". If you want to use weed for spiritual growth you have to become mindfull of its effect. It makes you more sensible and creative, but no necessarily more mindful, that is your job. @Nak Khid Wow i Had exactly the same insight as you! I think you can recognize better how attachment works if you are high!

I have try'd out using canabis for spiritual and creativity the last month. The problem I encountered instantly is it's addictive property. So what happened is that the day after I smoked I wanted to smoke again. Furthermore I through the increased pleasure I got addicted to pleasures of all kind. BUT. I solved this problem by changing a few things. The biggest change was to switch to edibles. Since edibles wont start instantly you don't get this craving so much in the evening to consume them. Very different to smoking weed. I would even recommend to only have edibles at home and no weed itself. Then it is important to make pauses between your session, for example once a week and to respect them. The benefits from weed were that I can become very aware of thoughts and feelings. If the sensations are too strong I can happen to me to surpress thoughts and feelings. I usually write a lot of journal whilst I am high. I tried to meditate aswell and this was very interesting. Weed can help you break the hamster wheel you are in, bring fresh air into your thoughts, recognize problems (emotional, ideological). For creativity it is also interesting and you get really into being creative. Whilst high, DO: meditate, write journal, contemplate, do sport, stretching, yoga, do creative activities (drawing, painting, writing a poem, a story, etc) talk to people if you feel like it. DO NOT: watch series, play videogames (even though they will be even more fun), watch porn, eat unhealthy food I think weed has potential, but you have to do it right, otherwise it is only an addictive and addiction enhancing substance!

Being carefull with my words, thoughts and actions, whilst chatting with other people, makes me feel sad. When I am talking to people, I am uncertain about the ideas I say. I realize in the moment of speaking how limited ideas can be (even if they are much more progressive than mainstream ones). Being this uncertain makes me feel vulnerable. And it also stands in the way of social bounding, especially with those you strongly dislike uncertainty. But we all dislike uncertainty to a certain Degree, I would argue. The vulnerability of uncertainty can also help bounding, but only if the other can allow this degree of uncertainty. I think uncertainty is an essential component of growth. The ego prefers certainty, probably because it does not have to change if it is certain. Being uncertain is difficult. Being uncertain makes me want to cry. How do you guys handle the emotional toll of uncertainty? Do you think Humor is an effective way to get relief and to reenergize? Have you tried to portion your uncertainty (allowing unconsciousness)? Have you tried to be only as uncertain as the other can accept, when chatting with them?

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I also feel often overwhelmed. For me it's because of all my existential uncertainties and pressuring me to make the best out of live. I try to understand everything and consider all possibilities, but there is just to much to grasp it all. Minimizing your lifestyle could help you. Contemplating what exact thoughts and emotions are stressing you, is important I think. Are you comparing yourself a lot with others? Because that can lead to a lot of stress. Structuring your life just tiny bit more. Take one day a week, where you are not ought to do anything. Where you don't think about progressing. A day where you can do whatever you want, where you have nothing to do for a whole day. That is nice I find.

So I watched quit a lot of videos from tyler and julian. Aaaand I am not to sure about them either^^. I think they are fine. I enjoy how they transitioned from Pick up to more Spiritual, self-development concepts. I think tyler is a really good speaker. Some of his speeches are just so intense and raw. And he is a pursuer of mastery. He has a really good understanding of human psychology, which I learned a lot from. Buuut the fame, the money, his business, LA, the sex and the travel lifestyle corrupted them a little bit. They are biased towards that lifestyle.

Self Love just means to stop hating yourself, to accept what you are. Really not that hippie. I guess you really got bad starting conditions in life. And a lot of things people here are talking about will maybe be out of reach. You can think about what is shitty in your life, write it down. You have a lot of anger inside you. Why am I so unlucky? Why is life so shitty? Write all of this down in a journal or like you did right now in this forum. When you least expect life to be good, you will discover little nuggets of happiness. And be carefull about the internet because it is going to push your expectations of life to places that are not in reach (for now at least).