Schizophonia

Ketamine was the closest thing to alcohol I used. I must have snorted 100-200mg and 5 minutes after i finished it was like suddenly being a 5 year old again.

In short you get smashed.

I drink white spirit for ego death.

Day 7 I have 2 books to read this week. Discover Totsky by Jean Batou is a book about the communist thinker and creator of the red army, a priori i'm not communist even if i agree with some marxist axioms but the book is short and i wanted to see what was in it. It was advised in a video where one of the most famous French communist activists of the century (Olivier Besancenot) intervened, i can like some of his interventions here and there even if i have a lot of disagreements: He was a postman and the youngest politician to run for election in the 5th French Republic. Jung, a travel toward ourself by Frédéric Lenoir is a biography and popularization of Carl Jung's ideas: Here again i am not so much a fan of the Jungian paradigm, Jung insisted on going beyond the fundamental causes of the human psychic structure and the differences between individuals regarding this structure (i.e. sexuality; Relationship to power, relationship to the phallus, the Oedipus complex) to generate a more complex, more conceptual paradigm, with more abstract and even mythological notions (Archetypes). Carl Jung was far from being an ascetic but was nevertheless very spiritual, he was both attached to Christianity, to the figure of Christ, but also to mysticism, to oriental ideas.

This time you're the scientist. No problem. Dissociatives can be spiritual; There must be some Stockholm Swedes here who have access to ketamine.

No pb. Thanks for your point of view. If i had a partner i could ejaculate if it pleased her for some reason lol, if i really can't hold it i would learn to inejaculate. But otherwise i might as well just stay chaste for now, there are only benefits.

Lol why did you do that. Alcool works essentially like a mix between a benzodiazepine, and a dissociative (like ketamine). But it's toxic.

Eheh. If you're asian or half asian it's normal to have an endogamous preferency, we understand each other better between people who are similar. Otherwise it is a paraphilia, without going into details.

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DDvYguVvexK/?igsh=Ynh2amRhcWFua2ln

The sweetness, the fragility, the devotion is what makes me fall in love.

I checked on google and his wife is just his looksmatch, basically. And mentalmatch, lol.

1) He is quite attractive, intelligent and somewhat famous. 2) These women have mental problems. 3) Women who have restrictive diets often want to fall back on men with a similar diet.

No on the contrary, she has a more indifferent vibe than average, most of the girls i met were more "doggy" than her. No one has offended her as far as i know. I like to give names of animals to tease a bit, but because it means a cute or graceful character; But dog refers to submission. Again it can maybe work sexually lol but I wouldn't take that in other contexts. Nevermind. I wasn't targeting anyone at all. I said that because you seemed to be tacitly afraid that she would be taken advantage of. To me he seemed no more abnormal than anyone else.

I'm a Barbie giiiiiiirl, in the Barbie woo oo orld Life in plastic, it's fantaasssstIC 🕺🫨

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Eheh. I'll see what i can do.

Your message is strange because no guy here took advantage of it to have narcissistic behavior with her. You are actually the only one who had the idea to compare her to a dog.

Not a big deal.

No that's me who tried hormones. Of course you dont want to come here for this specific purpose, it would be weird. Everything is about self love, that's why you don't even want to go on Tinder if you want success because it tacitly signals a lack of self-esteem, in the very need to go on a dating site

He's not the president of Croatia either lol he was on the forum all the time. I believe that everything is projection, and i believe that projection maintains the limits, the framework constituting the concept of self; it is the language as Lacan would say. It is because i accept to be a shit, to be castrated that finally i can settle down and say to myself "well ok, let's create a seminal retention journal, and then start x activity " and thus begin to improve myself and "paradoxically" obtain power, the symbolic phallus. If I refuse castration (all that will be in my future topic ) well I refuse myself the conclusion that I lack phallus, and therefore the possibility of progressing, of "building his empire" as he himself said; And this denial of the lack of phallus refused will therefore be projected again in the form of "losers" or whatever. People who refuse to have their head put in their shit. He didn't understand that i'm the only one who has the right to simp you now 🦍Too late. take out the crossbow*

Yes, but then it's a neurotic reaction. And it's not even true, there are plenty of guys here who have a normal life, who make their mark. It's weird. I grant him that he was nice to me, i have nothing to reproach him for.👍 Nevermind.

Yes, because of extra prolactin and downregulation of stimulant neurotransmitters neurotransmition.

There are plenty of people here who would have supported him more or less, including me. But he basically said he didn't respect us.

Day 6 My next major post was supposed to appear on this journal but i decided to actually make it a post: It will be about masculinity and maturity in general, it will basically be about popularizing psychoanalysis. I could define myself as Lacanian, because most of the ideas, concepts of the little paradigm that i have built up have been borrowed from him; But i actually happen to prefer Freudian notions, or even Jungian ones here and there out of ignorance, or because it seems more intuitive to me: Out of comfort in general. I'm tired and want to apply myself so this post will be out by Sunday, probably before.