Sincerity

...And there is no one but You. You're strong, You've made it far. Such a commitment is a great one to make. Good luck with it! ?

@Rahra You are God. ?

I think if You ever have any fear about anything, it's a clear sign You are afraid of death. Don't know if You're scared of dying? Try approaching a woman. Try bungee jumping. Try going out in front of a crowd. Try saying what You really think. Etc. I think when You really dig into fear You'll discover it always feel like You're going to die. At least that's how it feels to me.

Well, I'm just a guy. I can get too confident sometimes, but ultimately I comprehend little. I doubt myself often. Yet I will also trust my understanding more than others, including teachers. There's a balance to strike. Nevertheless, understanding feels very elusive and I'm pretty sure not many people actually comprehend what it is. I'm starting to think it may be because it really is somehow related to consciousness/being (I mean true experiential understanding, not theoretical) but I dunno yet.

Thank You for responding! I must further contemplate what is understanding because I'm struggling to wrap my mind around it.

Love this. Kudos to You @Noahsteelers34.

I'd no longer say there's anything false about fear. It's a BRILLIANT mechanism which You will never stop encountering. It is what it is. Don't be so sure friend. I call bs on everyone that says they don't fear death. They're lying - mostly to themselves. They didn't face their death deeply enough. Fear literally goes to infinity. It's just that often times You don't feel it and it's not on the surface, so it's easy to delude oneself.

Fear happens when it happens. It's Infinite Intelligence. An utterly ingenious mechanism. And it goes to infinity, for the greatest reason of all - Love.

Thread turned into a trolling fest.

@Leo Gura 1. Do You think the pursuit of understanding is indispensable for higher consciousness/being? How do You think understanding relates to consciousness/being? Greater understanding = greater consciousness? 2. How do You think surrender relates to consciousness/being? Greater surrender = greater consciousness?

Bump. More people might find this thread useful.

Haha... I felt it. I love your posts. ?

@tuku747 Clever. Yes, according to my memory fear is of Love, ultimately. Funny how it turns out...

Please stop trolling him already.

He's just trolling You. It was funny for a while, but please let it go now. That said, I can't see what's on the screenshot because of its aspect ratio. And when I zoom in it's blurred. Maybe instead of long screenshots You could go with a few normal screenshots or just copy and paste the text You wanted to show us.

I'm sick and spent most of today in bed. Lately at times I feel devoid of purpose and meaning. What the hell is the point... Yesterday I watched Leo's poetic description of consciousness video and started questioning whether I really want to do this work. As he said, it is dangerous and there are no guarantees. I fear I'm going to kill myself. I fear fucking up my life. And I fear Infinity, to be honest. I fear being as "careless" as It. I realized I am not serious. And yet there's still some peace in the background that helps me see through confusion and negativity. As long as it's there, I'm still standing. (Yeah, yeah, yeah)

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@Someone here Dude, You are making so many unfounded claims and assumptions it's appalling. Just admit that You don't know.

Speaking of subforums, I'd make a loose suggestion to merge the Intellectual Stuff subforum with Personal Development (Main).

Today I found out about Conor Neill. I think he's an example of healthy stage orange and I like what he has to say. To me he feels intelligent, considerate, reflective and with a proactive, disciplined, entrepreneurial mindset. He's no sage. He's no yellow thinker. And he is constrained by his stage. But I could still learn a lot from him. I have not deeply integrated healthy orange yet, I figure. "All great writing is rewriting." (editing) "The past is a great teacher if it's well documented." "Are you working towards a life of "no obligations" or towards a life of "fulfilling obligations"?" "The more people that know who you are and what you stand for, the better." (for finding opportunities) https://conorneill.com/2021/12/05/how-to-find-opportunities-increase-your-luck/ --> Great post.

I don't have techniques I intentionally employ. I just think. I'm curious about stuff. I dig often into what reality is. Most often I start longer contemplation session by journaling about my life and then I switch to pondering more deeply some concepts or aspects of myself that have come to attention. It's done naturally. I try to connect concepts together. For example yesterday I was investigating what relaxation is (I wanted to know how I can relax well) and came to the conclusion that all of these have something in common: Relaxation, surrender, letting go, flow, self-loss, fun, intuition, mastery, familiarity, similarity, repeatability, clarity, autopilot, enjoyment, control, release of tension, effortlessness, orgasm, awakening, acceptance, etc. I was sitting bored in a college class today and went further on a piece of paper (for like half an hour) to interconnect more. I find that many insights arise simply by interconnecting things. I would add that writing helps immensely with getting a stream of insights going. Either on paper on digitally. Lately I use the iphone notes app a lot. And finally I'd say that the greatest insights arise spontaneously from a place of surrender and concentration on experience.

Lately I've upped my contemplation game (reached amazing results!) and a new challenge has arisen for me. I have sooo many great and useful insights which I'm really fond of, but it becomes way too much to interconnect everything or even remember a lot them. I realized that I simply can't hold very much in my mind at once. Moreover, my commonplace book in OneNote and vault of insights in Obsidian are becoming too much for me as well - I'm overwhelmed by the sheer amount of insights, deep questions, concepts, etc.. Thus, I forget about most of these notes, many of them incredibly valuable and insightful, which is a shame to me. The gist is that I want to be a great intellectual in my life, I want to have a very broad perspective on life, I want to understand reality deeply, all that stuff. I feel discontented with the fact that I forget about so many nuggets of wisdom which could certainly be of use in my journey. So I ask You for your advice. Is it a matter of better organization and workflow with my commonplace book? Do You think one can develop their ability to hold more things in their mind at once? Or maybe I should let it go and stop trying to save most of my insights? Ultimately I will solve this myself somehow but hey, some input from outside is always welcome. Please grant me your wisdom!

Healthy Orange Entrepreneur Role Model - Conor Neill https://conorneill.com/new-here/ I found this guy's blog posts and videos valuable. He feels mature, considerate and intelligent and I think he's integrated stage orange values in a healthy way. Some links to give You a taste. How to Improve your Clarity of Thought There is no Freedom without Self Discipline How to find Opportunities (Increase your Luck) Don’t Make This Mistake: Good Intentions but No Actions

Sheesh.