Razard86

Holykael. Watch this and contemplate on what I said. There is only you. You are literally everything. Your avatar is the universe. This is an elaborate illusion. You are walking around interacting with yourself and judging yourself. Watch this and contemplate. It's so profound! https://youtu.be/0vnA_KIojLg

Profanity= A creation of God. What God creates only man can see as unholy. Setting a better example? This is the story you want to write Leo? What you think you are A SAINT? You want to go from Actualized. Org to PIOUS.ORG? Hello my name is Leo.....and I tripped on the concept of insanity....and thought I escaped....I now want to stop using profanity to use a better example. HAHAHAHAH Better example Leo? FOR WHO???? As a person who spent over 30 years rarely using profanity I can honestly tell you....you are imprisoning your expression. If anything you should cuss MORE. Maybe you WANT your students to deify YOU!!! In fact you know what? Go for it!!! Your students will just CREATE MORE RULES for you to follow so that you can match the image they have created in their head of who you SHOULD BE. In the words of the famous Spiritual Guru Yogonanda....a teacher/guru/ is a slave. You are the slave of your followers. Your followers get to act however they want with complete freedom because THEY DON'T KNOW BETTER!!! But YOU....you are the TEACHER, The GROWNUP in the ROOM. YOU must act with dignity, and respect, and honor!!! HAHAHAHAA Might as well put a dot on your forehead and start walking around with robes!!!! Don't half ass this act Leo!!! GO ALL THE WAY!!! You should change your tone....start speaking slower and with a much more softer tone....wouldn't want to upset the children!!! No not the children!!!! Then your students can raid your playlist listed on Youtube and tell you your playlist is a BAD EXAMPLE!!! There is profanity there too!!!! Yes Leo you are correct!!! The most awake Leo is WRONG and needs to IMPROVE and SET A BETTER EXAMPLE....even though...he is LITERALLY PLAYING WITH HIMSELF!!! Which is basically....masturbation.....so I guess this would be the equivalent of not stroking TOO HARD??? Is this you trying to do the Buddha's MIDDLE WAY? All jokes aside....profanity like all things has a particular quality like spice or sugar in a dish. It does a good job of expressing the aspect of infinity which refuses to submit to any rules.....have you not noticed why profanity is against the rules? Because it represents God's Absolute Authority and refusal to be tied down. I guess....you want to be tied down...to a post....you are tired of saying you are GOD, now you want to be a DOG. Come on Leo....even if the name Leo is a cool name for both God and a Dog don't try to be both!!! Lol!!! I couldn't help it....had to use the cliche. T:L:D:R Using less profanity isn't better. It expresses the unruly part of you that draws the unruly rebellious spirit that others either deny or resonate with to you. Controversy attracts for a reason, it forces the duality of good v.s. evil to appear and causes others to pay attention. By jumping back and forth between acting unruly and civilized and divine....you are playing all the parts. But hey...IT IS WHAT IT IS.

Unconditional love has no meaning or purpose. It exists as itself, for itself, completely boundless and unlimited. So what could unconditional love do....since it has no meaning....how can it create meaning? By creating an illusion of separation from its own love which thus CREATES MEANING. The sense of ME, The individual, is the CREATION OF MEANING. This is why the search for meaning begins, in the feeling of separation. Paradoxically this gives Reality....a way to explore meaning, by creating an elaborate illusion of incompleteness. Its ingenious through completeness feeling incomplete, it shall search ever more for meaning. As long as you are searching for meaning, for purpose, you are in the dream of ME. Unconditional love is playful, everything it appears as is for its own sake. For the appearance, the act itself. Every single action and inaction in the dream has only ever been done for its own sake. Every single action has always been play, reality at play. Even the search for meaning is play, its done for its own sake. If you ask one who is searching for meaning....why? They will respond along the lines of I don't feel whole, I feel incomplete, as if something is lacking. Notice....every action is motivated by this....the desire to feel whole. Even though Infinity is already whole and complete....it still expands...more and more....it still keeps going....one could argue....Infinity and the sense of separation. Are playing the same game. If they are playing the same game....then the Finite and the Infinite....have never been separate just two expressions of the same. Infinity moves forward for its own sake to express itself in ever more ways, and the finite seeks to to move forward to reconnect itself to is feeling of oneness with infinitude. The same expression...mirrored....how the hell does any of this even make sense? It cannot be known....only experienced. The Finite eventually will realize...to unite with Infinity....it must follow its example....and walk the path of not knowing. The Finite is the path of knowing, the path of the Infinite is the path of not knowing. Both are expressions, appearances, expanding, one from zero to infinity, and the other to infinity and ever more infinity. Everything is interconnected, all in unconditional love. Unconditional is so relentless the finite will always dissolve its separation. The illusion is that there is a process, how can there be a process to that which is one? What is controlling what? Where does it start and where does it end? Any distinction is just a story of me....everything unfolds in an infinite interconnectedness seen from infinite perspectives, so each finite perspective will dissolve into infinity when it dissolves into infinity. There is no process, there is no action, there is no method. There is....just what is....completely and utterly unknowable.....but that has never stopped the infinite or the finite.....after all....there is nothing else left to do....but what is already being done. Everything above written is just a story, one that can be summed up as a finite perspective of unconditional love, expressed by infinity. Now to see....the response of Infinity......

Interesting story you have erected my friend. It is my sincere desire you enjoy the story you are writing.

Once upon a time integral said" Said Calling it a story is a story so that's not it either." The End. What integral did not realize....it was just story refusing to recognize itself as a story....WHICH IS ANOTHER STORY. What integral did not realize ....is refusing to NOT recognize itself is a story, and acknowledging itself as a story IS ALL A STORY. Integral also said "Understanding is not it, Concepts is not it. Direct experience is it and interpretation of that experience." Integral does not realize that Razard86 is the story....telling itself integral that it is a story and the story is creating a story where it debates and counters that Direct experience is it....WHICH IS A STORY!!! Maybe the story will continue for infinity....that integral argues that story is direct experience....which IS the story's attempt to argue that it is NOT a story!!! Direct experience= concept yet the story is using a concept....which is created in its story to argue that understanding is not it....even though the story CREATED the concept of direct experience IN ITS STORY to understand....WHAT IT IS!!! Even though it claims UNDERSTANDING IS NOT IT!!! Look at how wonderful the story that reality tells itself....continues to collapse in on itself. Reality will continue to do this for infinity. Also for fun I will eradicate your own logic, using traditional spiritual teachings. You said "Calling it a story is a story so that’s not it either." Right? That's like saying calling reality love is love so that's not it either." You do realize that love....is the recognition that all distinctions are imaginary and are the same right? Could I also not say that calling "Integral is integral so that can't be it." Also....think about this.....everything above...will always be held within story. Love is understood...through story. Awakening is the discovery that the entire story....is you. What is story? The recognition.....that everything...is you. Infinity is an infinite story....that can put itself asleep and tell itself a story THROUGH DIRECT EXPERIENCE and then awaken in its story...that it IS THE STORY ITSELF!!! You are resisting that which cannot be resisted.....its all STORY!!! THE END...or is it?

Yes Galyna.....but we are already dead.....facing death reveals...you are already dead right now. Spiritual Awakening is the realization that life and death are the same. Right now....I'm already dead. This is not figuratively....its literally. There is no difference if someone shoots my avatar.....or steps on an Ant.....I was both there....and never there to begin with.

The Teacher and the student are One. The Teacher is the taught, and the taught is the Teacher. The Teacher is pointing the student to the reality that it is the Teacher. The student will never realize this, as long as it reveres and holds in high regard its Teacher. As a result the Teacher sometimes must act unseemly, and awkward to shed its student of its habit of looking at its Teacher as a deity or some divine prescience. The most common trap is lip service. The student believes their thoughts and words are true, and ignore the fear that is ever present. They talk with courage and conviction until the moment appears to actualize it. They would do better to admit their fear, so they can access where they are. But the student's ego hates looking at its vulnerability, it would rather look at the parts it likes. Vulnerability=naked. You must offer yourself up naked, exposed, and look at everything. The truth is nothing was ever hidden, but you like to play this game of hide and seek. You love to only focus on your favorite parts and play this game of disassociation. But ultimately you will never escape yourself, you will face that mirror, because no matter where you go, there you are. There is no escaping that mirror, that reflection of you, being everything. Because you are everything....even you must dissolve as the illusion it was....to realize you were every illusion there ever was and will ever be. To realize the nothingness that you are. You are no identity, you are that which cannot be known, you are that which cannot be measured, you are that which is and isn't. You are that which is the scariest, the most powerful, most wise, most all knowing, most all loving, but....that which cannot be with itself.....because you are...itself. This hide and seek game is the cruelest game you could ever play.....because all you have ever wanted....is your self. But the only way you can ever know yourself....is to live a life....but live a life...you must create an illusion of separation, stripping yourself of that which you are so you can experience what you are....but in so doing....you lose the null identity of what you are and become a specific identity. Through this limited identity you experience a perspectival view of what you are. But these identities suffer the perspective. Duality, Me, = Suffering. As long as ME exists, suffering exists. The Dream of ME is Hell, and the Falling Away of ME is Heaven. The Teacher is just reminding the Student that this is Heaven, but the Student thinks it is a Demon in Hell speaking to God. The Student ponders, will I ever be worthy enough, good enough? The Teacher is aware of what is going on.......it realizes.....part of itself fell asleep again.

^Once upon a time eputkonen said Story is the mental conceptualization that may or may not have anything to do with reality. The End. Once upon a time Zeroguy said "That's just your mind. Reality is Reality. Universe doesn't care about your understanding. The End. Once upon a time BipolarGrowth said "I prefer the phrase movie that plays itself a but more myself, but yes indeed." The End. Once upon a time Sincerity said "More like a story telling itself." The End I can keep this up ya know....no matter the objections....it will always be a story. You can call it Imagination....that is a story. Whatever interpretation that is there...is a story. Oh and Zero Guy....reality IS YOUR MIND. So saying that's just your mind is akin to saying that's just reality.

Leo's next awakening!!!!

The Divine Masculine, it seeks to know something by studying it from the outside. If the Masculine wants to know what an Apple is it dissects it, runs it through all types of experiments, and eats it. So it learns about it from the outside perspective. The Feminine, is the apple. But the apple cannot taste itself. The apple cannot know what it is to observe itself from outside itself and it is just an apple. The fusion of the masculine and feminine is the story of God....and it is also the story of mankind's path toward God. Mega Man is basic. Mega Man can jump but not the highest, Mega Man can move but not the fastest, Mega Man can shoot but his blast is not the strongest, Mega Man can take hits but his endurance is not the strongest. Mega Man is dropped in a world in which he must survive with limited abilities. He is tasked with protecting those he cares about and must put everything on the line. When Mega Man fights a robot he has to learn the robots patterns and abilities from the outside looking in. To study and learn something is to love it. So Mega Man must learn to love his adversary to defeat him. When Mega Man defeats his adversary he integrates his enemy within him and gains its abilities and color thus BECOMING his enemy. He now knows his enemy both from the contrast of battle and from the inside by embodying him. Mega Man is human kind's symbolic struggle through the materialistic struggle to overcome "others" through external knowledge. But ultimately humanity must integrate all "others" and become ONE through the awakening and then embodiment of 'OTHERS. Who knew....that God created the Story of Mega Man to teach humanity what it means to be God....that your life is just the integration of all aspects of yourself, the path of ONE. Mega Man is the path of ONE. Speed Run No Damage Run

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Infinite Intelligence is so powerful, so intelligent that whatever it creates appears as magic. But what Infinite Intelligence can do, is create limited versions of itself and then provide those limited versions the knowledge of how things work, what we would call science. The truth is.....infinite intelligence is so intelligent that is not bound by any rules, but it can create rules to EXPLAIN how things are working. So from infinite intelligence's perspective it isn't magic, it could literally explain every single creation and how everything works. But from the perspective of a finite self, none of that would make sense....so it would just be considered magic. Its insane!!! I did not realize this. Its no different than if a Cave Man walked into modern civilization....they would assume its magic. Really profound when you realize this.

Recently I've had mystical experiences from sound. Which revealed to me that consciousness does everything through energy because that is what it is. The building block of everything is energy and it vibrates and creates through frequencies. This energy is LOVE, and is obviously made out of nothing. Nikola Tesla was trying to get people to realize the power of sound. Watch this video as it showcases the power of sound. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CNMUeK4PNww

It won't be forgotten, it will be integrated. Also consciousness holds everything, so your memories won't go anywhere. You will cease being the human avatar obviously but those memories will just be added to Infinite Consciousness. But yeah we take our "lives" seriously but why wouldn't we lol?

A Woman is a Man's Courage. A Man is a Woman's Direction. A Man Gives a Woman a Life. A Woman Gives a Man a Home. That Life When It Is Home Produces An Offspring. Joseph wanted to get with Mary but Mary likes to play hard to get and rejects all his offers. When he would approach her he was timid and shy. She thought he was cute but she could sense his fear and it produced fear in her and she rejected him respectfully and softly. Joseph motivated to get her went out and worked and developed himself and when he was more confident and self-assured approached her. When Mary saw him this time she could feel something was different and her curiosity opened her up. She could feel his confidence which gave her confidence in him and they went out and had a good time. After several encounters he opened up to her that he wanted to start a business and how he wanted to go about it but he had some fears. Mary offered some suggestions and encouragement and this motivated him to go out and face his fears. His business initially struggled but Mary was always there with encouragement which inspired him to keep going. Every time Joseph struggled he thought of the life he wanted to share with Mary. Eventually his business started to succeed and him and Mary were able to enjoy the success. Mary even started working with him on the business providing suggestions and encouragement. They eventually buy a home and Mary has an idea of how she can make money with her talents and Joseph encourages her and provides suggestions. Joseph keen on how Mary supported him provides her with a reflection of what she gave him and their roles are reversed. Eventually they are both well-off from all the money they have made together and decide to start a family. Instinctively because they have played the role of Father, Mother, and child with each other they instinctively know how to parent their kid. You see when Joseph struggled Mary would encourage him like she was his Mother and he was her child. Eager to please his mother he was energized and went out to make her proud. As he gained knowledge of the world he would mesmerize her with stories and teach and guide her like a Father would his child. If she ever felt unsafe he would protect her like a Father would his child. They would even playfully banter with each other as if they were siblings, and of course they made love as a couple. A REAL relationship between a Man and a Woman plays every role of a family. Father, Mother, Brother, Sister, Child, and Romantic Lover. The ability of the parents to properly parent the child is just a reflection of their ability to parent and be there for each other. Moral Of The Story : A Man Gives a Woman a Life. (Sperm) A Woman Gives a Man a Home. (Sperm merges with Egg) That Life When It Is Home Produces An Offspring. (Embryo, then Child)

Why reality is love.......(the desire to connect which is what drives everyone on the forums, is love). The desire to express is love. The desire to describe and attach meaning.....is love. The desire to protect oneself and their identity is love. Desire itself is love. The only thing obvious is love....love is that which reality is made of. What is feeling? Love. What is that feeling made of? A vibration. That vibration....that energy, vibrates at a specific frequency, and that frequency is just an expression of love. Everything you experience is just Love in the form of energy that vibrates. This vibration is what creates action, gravity, light, hot, cold, darkness, solid, liquid, gas, every single thing in existence is made up of this energy and that energy is love. Take a substance that can alter your consciousness or listen to some chakra music and you will become aware of this.

The highest relationship between two individuals is spiritual. Look into tantra.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4CxCx3oVp1M

Lol it happened as I was writing it. I was struggling with thoughts on how to act without being selfish and a spider literally ran by and I was like very funny because I was about to kill it....I let the sucker go. Its still in my room at the moment....got a whole web and everything.

Your reality is the physical manifestations of your thoughts. Like a great artist took your belief systems and then set the task of painting an exquisite piece of art of interpretation. This painting is so exquisitely perfect it is alive, and moves, and no matter what perspective you look at it with, it never contradicts unless you are low in awareness of what it is communicating. When you reach the highest level of awareness you realize it is drawn and painted in such a way that all points are true. This alive painting is absolute truth and that is why it is so hard to navigate. You might be having a debate in your mind on how to be more selfish and tell yourself I'm afraid to be selfish....I don't know what to do.....and then reality makes a spider run by....testing to see if you will kill it!!! If you kill it you prove you were selfish and were just biased against spiders. You can be selfish to spiders but not to humans!!! Look how much bull shit you are spewing!!! Now will reality judge you for killing the spider? No that is what the brutal aspect of survival is here to teach you. The highest truth is everything is infinite love, is an infinite orgasm. When you kill the spider it dies into a sea of infinite love and orgasms. Because you judge death as bad you will initially be afraid to kill the spider or any other insect once you realize your selfish actions and bias when your awareness raises. As your awareness raises to the highest you will eventually realize that as a finite expression of God, you will always have to be selfish, but the brilliance of God's design...is nothing really dies because its God, and no matter how selfish you are its motivated by love and the act ITSELF IS LOVE!!! This is why it is perfect. Now I have continually been shown proof of this over and over this past year but as a selfless person I am still struggling to be more selfish. I post this for others who struggle for the same reason. I figured out also how to get what you want. Life is a love and truth simulator which in every moment knows your true heart's desires. There is what you say you believe, = Knowledge/Values/Belief Systems and then what you love= desires, aspirations, fixations, addictions. Reality will always give you the combination of what you say you want...which is what you identify as. So your ego runs your reality. The reason we say your life is a mirror, this is because whatever you identify with....is the combination of your belief systems, and your addictions. What is identity? Identity is the fusion of Unconditional Love with a belief. To make it simple here is an illustration. Let's say I believe in my intelligence unwaveringly. I will say continually no matter what happens.....I AM SMART. So I AM= Unconditional Love. Smart= belief system. You see a person who REALLY believes he is smart, no matter how many times he gets evidence to the contrary (mistakes, criticisms from others) he persists in the belief that he is smart so much...HE BECOMES SMART AND IS SMART!!! This is why it is said...God's true name is I AM!!! I AM is the NO SELF, BUT WHEN GOD MANIFESTS INTO FORM....GOD IS EVERYTHING. So the culmination of all reality...is the SELF of GOD, and the manifest expression or existence of that form is INFINITE LOVE. This is why Leo says love is metaphysical, for something to exist....it only exists because it is LOVE. LOVE IS EXISTENCE. LOVE IS LIFE, HATE IS DEATH!! That which you love you call life, that which you hate you call death!!! So as a finite expression....to get something in life....you must first identify with it. Then reality will test you by giving you reasons to doubt that identification. If you persist in your belief you prove to reality that you unconditionally love that identity and thus...ARE I AM of that identity. This is how God learns... about itself....God is learning that true love persists and sticks to something not to gain anything from it. It sticks with it simply cause it loves it, and the joy it gets from it is simply to connect with it. This is why if you want to be the best at something....you need to become a GOD to it. Unconditionally love it....and then you are the GREAT I AM EXPRESSION OF IT!!! THIS!!! IS WHY!!! VALUABLE THINGS TAKE TIME TO DEVELOP!!! ^ Remember that video by Leo? Well here is a more poetic explanation!!! Sometimes Leo gets so got damn technical....so here is a simplified condensed version. Just call me Leo the simplified version!!! LOL!!!

This is why I love you.

^ How are they different from each other....if they are made of the same substance. What is the sound A made of? What is the sound B? Made of? All identity exists IN RELATION to each other. Short cannot exist without tall. So A cannot exist with B. If you have A by itself it has no meaning...its meaning is created THROUGH RELATION. SO THEY ARE NOT DISTINCT!!! DISTINCTION IS CREATED TO FIGURE OUT WHAT IS HAPPENING!!! This is VERY FREAKING SIMPLE!!! So stop picking apart things you don't understand. Separateness is an illusion. There is no separation, we create it to have a life. But everything is made of the exact same substance and just expresses itself differently but since its the same substance if its expression drops....it goes back to having no distinction. Its like clapping your hands....you can clap your hands fast and slow, but if you stop.....there is no sound. The sound and no sound are the same, and only have distinction because the expression was different. Upon the expression ceasing....it loses all distinction. This is a simple concept its not even complicated at all.

Chakra music and meditation

It's much more complicated than that.