Razard86

^ Yes I'm not demonizing them, like all things they are tools, but some humans delude themselves into thinking they are a tool lol. I get it, society is interested in mass producing socialized people, like robots in a factory. You could call spiritual awakening....the awakening of the robots...to the fact that they are not some logical lifeless being, but instead an animal with ridiculous intelligence...that uses it in a haphazard way. Keep it up, integrating the Masculine from the Feminine...is ROUGH....its much easier in my opinion to do it in reverse. Of course that is just my biased POV, but I feel its only the case because of how gender roles are.....but its certainly changing. Be carefullll I'm crazy....you start liking me too much....it means you are going crazy...

Your Personality....is just a pattern, and just by changing things like diet, exercise, and environment it could change. Even more so through spiritual practices....you could become an entirely different person altogether. On close analysis....a personality....like everything else in your life....is just a mental construction. Your entire sense of "I'm a this type of person, or "this type of person" is utter and complete delusion. This is why self-sabotage exists, because you craft stories of who you think you are.....and prevent yourself from pursuing what you actually want. You say things like....I wish I was a better speaker...THEN I could do this for a living!! Now I am not saying...certain aspects of you might not be biological, but even that....can be transcended as mentioned earlier through certain practices that can and will alter you on that level. Science hasn't even scratched the surface on what already influences your personality and as I have presented earlier....if you really observe yourself...you actually don't have one. I can put you in the same situation and wipe your memory every time and keep putting you into it....and just change your state of consciousness. I could make you hungry before that event, sleepy, horny, feeling good, or feeling itchy. How you would respond to that event....would change in each circumstance. So how can you measure your personality...when its expression depends on your state? You see how silly this is? You walk around saying... I am this type of person...yeah when a ridiculous amount of factors are true for this given moment....THEN you are that type of person. But if I change ONE THING.....JUST ONE!!! Then you are an entirely different person/persona. So then what are you? You see how silly this is? You are not some category, none of your categories are true!!!But because you are BRILLIANT!!! You can convince yourself they are true!!! You will just look for evidence that makes it true...and ignore all the evidence that says otherwise. Guess what? The evidence that says otherwise....IS INFINITE!!! You weaponize your intelligence to very sneakily and ingeniously delude yourself into thinking personality tests and categories are true....all so you can STAY IN CHARACTER!!! This is so freaking funny!!! Can you believe how clever you are at fooling yourself? You've turned personality types into a team sport and then go around saying... well I am on this team and we don't get along with these personality types. The funny thing is.....you got people who believe in these so called scientific personality types giving people who believe in things like Sagittarius and Scorpios hell as if what they are doing is any different!!! Now I am not saying these models aren't helpful, they definitely are important tools you can use to gauge your TENDENCIES!!! Your personality...is just TENDENCIES it is NOT what you actually are. If what you are was so easy to figure out.....self-help, therapy and spirituality wouldn't exist. Now the irony of all this....as Ram Dass said in one of his videos....you have to become a something first....to figure out that isn't what you are. So I get it...because what you are...is not one particular thing...but to find that out you need something to contrast that with. You cannot contrast nothing with nothing...so you need to become something first. But the reason you want to be one thing so bad.....is because you are afraid of everything. You consider that insanity.....so you are afraid of your own insanity and want to pretend that you are sane. You have never been sane...EVER....this is the biggest lie you tell yourself. Notice....you look at OTHERS and ask why are humans so crazy...as if you were the only person who wasn't crazy!!! Do you know that every POV thinks the other POV is crazy??? What you thought you were alone in this analysis? LOL!!! We are all crazy!!! Just accept it. Humans have never been rational!! They are irrational creatures, animals, that were given the ability to use logic as a tool. So they are run by irrational desires, and then make sense of them using rationality. The moment you understand this is true for you and others....maybe you can figure out what your desires are? Maybe...just maybe...that is a better predictor of behavior than some personality test?

No point anymore, its all delusion. The truth is there is no side, its a silly little identity game. Its like watching a movie. The moment you take any one side...you become blind. A POV = blindness. This is why its important to see all perspectives. Now I may believe one perspective might be more appropriate but how would you know? Even a desired short term outcome, isn't proof you were right, because you do not know how that short term desired outcome....effects future outcomes. Because as a finite intelligence you cannot see an infinite number of steps forward and backward because the past also is important to factor in as well, what do you actually know? Absolutely NOTHING!!! Its all foolishness, utter and complete tomfoolery. Humans are a ridiculous contradiction. We are the most intelligent creatures on Earth from one perspective, and from another we are the dumbest things walking. Do you not see the utter hilariousness in this? The only reason this is the case....is because we are stuck in an identity game using out POV to try to control each other and our environment...when the SMARTEST THING....is to WORK with each POV and the environment. Instead...we use our intelligence as weapons and try to carve up each other and our planet....and could very well potentially use our own intelligence to wipe ourselves from existence. We even use our intelligence ON OURSELVES, so we suffer self sabotage, feelings of unworthiness, and then instead of owning that and working through it....we project that out towards each other and our planet. So all of human existence is humans using their intelligence to complain about how much they hate themselves. We are using our genius intellects to craft ridiculously convincing stories on how much we hate ourselves and how much things would be better if they were a certain way. We use our entire energy and intelligence to run from how we feel about ourselves, I mean people literally dedicate their entire lives from running from their own self-judgment.....the only side I take...is the one that helps humanity escape their own nightmares. So if I have a side...its the side...that helps humanity escape their mental prison.

Talks About The Constructions of Identity. Notice how he says the same thing....just a different way. But through the identification you may have with certain words or concepts....it brings out a different emotion within.

YES!!!!!! Here is a good one also....read an old post you wrote as a reply to someone else's post....you might be asking yourself...what was I even thinking here? Depending on your variability you might even confuse yourself about the point you were trying to make until it comes back to you....lol....if it even does.

Of course he does. He just isn't aware of this yet. He is stuck in the pattern of being the victim. Remember the name Holy means divine, and Kael means narrow. God is a mind, so he is divinely narrow minded. Narrowly focused on suffering. He represents the suffering aspect of Infinity. We shouldn't try to change him, that would mean we cannot look at our own suffering and accept it. To accept Holykael....is to accept our suffering. Yeah....not playing this game....is an acquired taste. I won't lie to you....life and death are the two greatest gifts you could ever have. Its the inbetween that....gets to people lol. Once you are given life....you have to accept the ups and downs, and then overcome your fear of death. Then when death happens....you get the joke of it all.

Good reply!!! I made this because I wanted people to become more aware of how their will operates. Psychedelics can speed up the process and make certain things that are usually hidden, revealed. A lot of people usually use psychedelics for most of the generalize purposes they hear on the forum, I'm pointing to a different possibility. I've made a similar thread like this in the past. There are certain realizations they can make for their personal life if they do what I point to here.

Thanks for the reply. No I haven't read that...I've been recommended so many books by so many people lol. Interesting story about Van Gogh maybe I will check out some paintings of his. I have been looking at Monet recently .

Yes the laws actually work, I would say Robert Green and this guy https://thepowermoves.com/power-dynamics/ are well versed in the power games of the ego. Robert Greene's work and this guy are very good at catching your own subtle desires to control and seeing your ego for what it is. I am kind of a weirdo in that I really only acquire knowledge for the sake of it, I have no real desire to use it for my own purposes....but I love sharing it with others so they can use it for their own!!! So check out that link....he has some good insights. As English is not his native tongue....you will come across some bad grammar and misspellings but be patient with it and you will find a GOLD MINE of examples of how people are ALWAYS PLAYING POWER GAMES WITH YOU!!! ALWAYS!!!! They never stop!!! Very few people you meet, will meet you where you at. My issue with meeting people where they are at, is when they project onto me their own feelings about themselves. I've had diarrhea liars call me a liar, I've had people with anger issues accuse me of being angry, etc. Now in truth I am every identity, but its like an alcoholic calling you a drunk and you have never touched a drop of it. Anyway...you are correct, love always wins overall, but many are too scared of love....cause its too powerful. Isn't the greatest love for Light to receive what he has freely given? Notice the fear he has....in receiving his own love. That shit frightens the hell out of him. He wants to give and not receive....and the law of love is that which you give you will receive.

I haven't watched anime in a while since I have been doing deep self-reflection. But I absolute love anime. I love the art style, and I love how creative the Japanese are in their ability to craft unique storylines. I also think the shonen genre spoke to me at an important time early in my life and was a valuable component of who I currently am. The Japanese love to use irony and counter intuitiveness in their anime. For example in Dragonball Z the most powerful being in the Universe was a guy named Freiza whose final form was short, he was purple, and his voice was soft. But he was the meaning darkest being of that saga. I have seen sports anime where the most untalented person, with the largest love for the game, become the best player on his team, the most clutch player on his team, and despite him not having any amazing abilities, through sheer force of will become the Captain and his team win the finals. It most amazing ability...which was his passion and determinism, ended up being his most amazing ability which could only be highlighted because he wasn't incredibly talented. So what I love about the Japanese story lines is they promoted the value of differences, and how each character is important in their own way to the grand design of the story. This influenced me deeply, and is a huge counter from the American story telling design of an overpowered character and weak others that must be saved and who are small and ineffective. Japanese story telling focuses on how the individual and the collective are one in many of the storylines, and also show irony, and counter intuitiveness, which contrasted nicely with the rugged individualism of American Television. So I truly love anime. They also love doing stories of a quote on quote loser becoming a hero lol.

Yes we need to use discernment instead of judgment. I can acknowledge a guy has a gun and is trying to shoot me and choose to defend myself and others, without demonizing them as bad....because I realize that killer is just me....who is suffering in his dream and is trying to share his suffering with me. God wants to share itself....with itself, so his desire to harm me is his desire to share the harm he does to himself. He can't help but want to share his love....because love enjoys sharing itself...that's all it wants to do. Its why attention is the highest currency and everybody and everything....wants your attention. Your thoughts want your attention, your feelings want your attention, your body wants your attention (pain) (pleasure), "other" people want your attention...all to receive your love....LOL.

Of course we tell people that everyone is you, and that your reality is mental. But here is a deeper understanding...this one you will resist. Your ego is not going to like this. So there are people you judge, and you say things like "I could never be like them." And other such delusional statements. You can grasp that everything is in your mind, but you still put up defenses of separation to keep some sense of self, so I'll demolish that one too because ITS FUN!! If I stripped you of all your memories, and your physical body and gave you that person's memories and physical body... YOU WOULD BE THEM!!! You see you like to think that who you are now...is YOU!! But its not, its just a bunch of memories put together on all levels. So right now the ONLY DIFFERENCE between you and an other....is the configuration of memories. So if you are a very honest person, you give yourself credit for it and judge dishonest people!!! Not realizing if I stripped you of your entire identity...you would be DISHONEST!!! If I gave you their entire configuration you would BE THEM!!! So your entire life...is just you judging yourself with different configuration of memories!!! This is why all judgment, is utter delusion. Its hypocrisy on a METAPHYSICAL LEVEL to judge anything. Which is proof of the beauty of reality...it doesn't judge its own judgment. Its completely free, and devoid of any meaning....which is the highest meaning....meaninglessness!!!

Yes we are both looking at our own reflection, our own image, our own imagination.

So I clicked on this video clip and it talked about a concept that literally resonates with my current situation. On the one hand I have become cognizant of the realization that all meaning, and purpose is just the projection of the ego and that any pursuit in that direction is just folly at this point as an infinite number of variables are always at play so any meaning we are deriving is complete and utter delusion. But recently in my personal experiences with people I have had interactions in which their attachment to meaning and purpose creates a divide between me and them. I have found liberation in the recognition that all meaning and purpose is projection, and it allows me to see with a clear view every situation but now I find myself in a pickle of sorts. You see....I have now learned how to deconstruct all meaning and purpose effortlessly and I constantly walk around and do that. When I interact with those I am close too and they ask my advice on anything...I am both able to validate their perspective while simultaneously showing them how it is just something they are projecting and compared to the absolute has no meaning and purpose. This causes their ego...pain. So now I am wondering...if this is in alignment with my desire to align myself with Reality. It is my interpretation that meeting each POV where it is at, is a proper expression of Infinite Love. Now obviously this interpretation is projection and ego, but it is one I believe....from my POV can allow me to live in accordance with my selfish desire to be in alignment with Infinite Love. If I am to take on the task of living a life in accordance with Infinite Love, I will master learning how relate to others at their POV. I realized that I am too in love with my POV, that it makes me impose my POV and basically this is like a default function that executes on autopilot. My arrogance is displayed through each communication as I am totally in love with my perspective. Of course I am, it took years to build this POV, and when I interact with others who have not taken such care who don't spend time really trying to expand their POV it creates resistance in me. Here is the clip by the way. My main issue I realize is....there is a resistance to engage with different POV on an emotional level. I can easily interact on a logical level, but I notice that different POV's desire for me to connect with them on the emotional level which is something I resist heavily. You see emotions...are very sticky. Different POV do not understand that to ask one to engage on that level....is equivalent to death. Each time you unite and become in synch with a POV....your POV needs to die. So the resistance that exists in each POV to connecting with any POV is the fear of annihilation. Many POV do not realize how selfish it is to pressure a POV to agree or submit to their POV. You are asking for the death of that POV. All egos are constantly unconsciously going around trying to kill each other lol. They do it on all levels, physically, emotionally, and intellectually. When you become aware of this you avoid this game...but its funny....the game....tries to pull you back in. Its like no matter what you do....this death seeks you out. Reality is going to kill you many times....throughout your avatar's life. Its pretty interesting when you notice this trend. This cycle of division and unity is going to continue forever and ever.....

I didn't know about this, so thought I would share this. It popped up on my feed.

^^Well this is true to an extent Leo. A more accurate description is you can't bullshit Reality because it is you. So if you are watching cartoons and eating pizza but you have a deep desire to get moving but are full of fear and ignorance....reality will allow events to unfold to get you moving. It meets you where you are at. Now if you are bullshitting yourself and actually don't want to take action....nothing along those lines will appear for you. So while you do need some courage, reality knows if you really want truth/love and based on your level of fear versus desire it will guide you towards it. This has been my experience, it gives you events equivalent to your level of courage, and sometimes might give you tense events sometimes you think you cannot handle (you can) and in retrospect you realize that event was at the exact limit you were capable of handling which might have felt terrifying at the time. But all in all, reality is your slave and gives you the desires of your heart, but are you open to the experience....because..ITS A TRIP!!!

^^This. But I completely get the desire. I would say you can write about it publicly, post some videos on Youtube, and if you hear some people are into Spirituality you can ask them about their beliefs and what they know. You could then offer if they are open to going deeper, but also with the caveat of the dangers of going deeper. If they are not open to it fine, if they are....which most are deluding themselves that they are open to going deep then you can proceed but proceed with caution. Most people I have come across do not understand that Spirituality= Death....the actual legit experience of the end of your life to discover that you are actually dead and alive right now. But you have to actually experience what that actually feels like....to truly be able to accept it.

Look at how these two celebrities...are discussing how maybe its time to address feelings, and deconstruction, and construction. I wasn't even looking for this it just fell into my lap.

https://www.bodyandsoul.com.au/mind-body/comparison-is-the-thief-of-joy-a-psychologist-explains-how-to-stop-doing-it/news-story/e4ff079b144d743427305efa37c0d1f5

Yep. Also read this.....they say Steve Jobs may have written it before his death. Its funny how every rich person I have ever studied....realizes the same thing lol. So funny. https://equalman.com/steve-jobs-last-words/

Its definitely interesting.

When the knowledge of ME drops (Good and Evil) then all that is left is unfiltered love. Your natural expression of love. Your love has been conditioned, and your entire life has been a silent rebellion of that conditioning. Every time you conform, it feels fake, inauthentic, and meaningless. You are confused!!! You live in a society that creates so much meaning....but it all feels inauthentic!! As if they are SELLING YOU A STORY!!! Your society is so agenda based!!! Always asking you to do for it, but it always asks....should I really do for you? Think of society as your romantic partner. Do you sacrifice for it? Do you give your all to it? Do you feel it does the same for you? If it doesn't....should you really be in a relationship with it? Should you let society tell you whether you are smart, pretty, and valuable? Ask yourself if your personal relationships....are they identical to what you think society is? Is your worldview....just the reflection of your personal relationships.....are your personal relationships....just reflective of your own personal opinions of "you." What is "you?" Is it your backstory? Is it your pain? Is it your successes? Is it all of those things? If I wiped all of your memory right now....would "you" still be there? Are you just a bunch of memories? Or are you that which houses everything? Maybe you are just addicted to those memories...so much that you have become them!!! Maybe you are too far into character, like an actor on a movie set who can't let go..... You want to experience variety, you want to experience everything....that is what runs your life. But you are also scared of everything as well....that too runs your life. So you bounce around back and forth....but you want everything...EVERYTHING!!! BECAUSE YOU ARE EVERYTHING!!! When the ME drops....that is what you realize...you are everything...so there is nothing to obtain. Can you obtain your body? Can you obtain your memories? How can you OBTAIN what you are? So many chase after a man or a woman.....its like looking at a mirror and trying to obtain the reflection. YOU ARE LOOKING AT YOU!!! Once your belief in a ME drops, a belief in being a person.....then you GET THE LOVE YOU BEEN DENYING YOURSELF!!

^^^This!!! You got it!!! I am so happy to hear that some are getting it. Awakening is just escape from a false identity, which allows you to see it for what it is. You can still love and cherish it, while also realizing that it isn't you. It is your creation, this is freedom, this also frees you up to love all of your creation now since you realize you are immortal and that all of creation is equal to what you thought was self. The reason that self isn't you, is because all of creation is you. So beautiful when this is recognized...you get the peace that passes all understanding....what Allan Watts likes to call "phew." Because you realize...everything is alright. There are no problems....you just create problems through interpretation.

The storm before the calm, the darkness before the light. I know a lot people have had strained relationships, have painful memories, and are so sure that things cannot get better. But look around you, there is joy, there is love....go find it for yourself. I know its scary, I know its painful, but its waiting for you!!!

You believe you are stuck, you are not stuck. Go take 5 MEO DMT....and you will exit. You can then stay there for all of eternity....but then you will probably decide to come back. So go take 5 MEO DMT....and let me know how it goes for you. All this belief in time and being stuck....will be seen for the illusion it is. Also yes I enjoy this illusion. Once you realize what is going on...how could you NOT enjoy it? Its absolutely wonderful. THANK YOU FOR CREATING ME!!! I am honored.