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I don't know. Perhaps he feels justified to rape her because women treated him bad in the past, or something like that, and he's doing a good thing because they need to be punished. Perhaps he feels he's doing the Lord's work. I'm guessing stuff like that.

Very interesting, I'm looking this up now. Edit: "Because the Brix reading is mostly affected by sugar and water, it is not very useful for measuring nutrition in food. A high Brix reading tells you nothing about nutrition, unless you are looking to consume more sugar." From what I know, you can put veggies and fruit in a water mixed with vinegar and sodium bicarbonate to do the trick.

I tried to medidate on LSD, but no go. Perhaps if I reeeeeealy reaaaaaaly microdosed.

In his mind the 'Good intentions' were purifying Germany of Jews. Everyone sees himself as doing a good thing - from their POV.

Money is also God. Why not love it the same as everything else.

Yeah, I've already been doing it for a few years now, every since I lived with her and now as alone. I just wanted to ask the people here to get some debate. I agree.

I read somewhere this is not true, the figure is much much lower and 80% is exxagerated as hell.

One of the other Gods still owes me 2k. Go to him. And tell him I approve of the transaction.

The Golden Shadow symbolizes withheld courage, hidden talents, repressed passion and stifled creativity. It’s the unfulfilled potential that people fail to see or develop because of fear and a lack of risk-taking. Making the darkness conscious is an artform. It’s a precarious endeavor, a delicate and dangerous undertaking.But no other practice is more vital to human flourishing. No other task is as critical for achieving balance and integration. Easier said than done, but the discovery of gold makes it all worth it. For this type of gold reinforces our confidence and courage. It bolsters our self-esteem. It makes us more resilient, more imaginative and more spiritually robust. It reveals hidden talents, repressed passion and stifled creativity. https://fractalenlightenment.com/47576/self-actualization/the-golden-shadow-stepping-into-the-power-of-who-you-really-are

Nothing you enjoy is a waste of time! Treat all experiences as enormously valuable. Because they are. Anything for that tingling sensation in your heart. The highest feeling of all. The King of feelings! That is God having the most fun. Exactly what you came to Earth to do. Why take it away from him. Edit: everytime you get that sensation trying something that sparks you, is God cheering you on. But often times our ego says "yeah or maybe I shouldn't, I don't know". The killer of dreams and our potential.

It just gave me an ease of mind. Some veil has been lifted. I didn't need to search for the meaning of life anymore, I understood everything and why I am here. To live. Whatever I decide to do is right. I don't need to search for some holy grail, I've found it. It was also absolutely terrifying. Being presented with such a big truth is not a small task. It made me appreciate the depthness of life more. I often think about it just to be in awe of the magnitude of what I've seen. But the biggest thing was I was sad for God. What terror to be all alone. That's why I appreciate my life more. Edit: And a lot of the times - mostly while driving my car or if I was watching from some mountain at the valleys below - I look around at the scenery and think "Fuck, I made all of this, I can't believe it. Everything just for me to enjoy. WOW!" And I try to soak in that feeling of absolute majesticness.

As someone here wrote a few days ago: "The Buddha didn't medidate, he just sat down with his thoughts." - something like that. So he just sat there , observing and not judging, and meditation came by itself. But we hear the word meditation and think this is something that we have now to do, but I would say meditation is the result, not the doing.

Not a SINGLE thing is a waste of time in life. You are God who came here to understand itself. And the only way to know itself is to go through every single thing there is and try it all. Even doing nothing is a learning experience. Does your heart light up when you make music? Then do it. Does it interfere with your main passion (engineering?), then you have to decide what you want more and plan accordingly.

I've had this once on DMT. Suddenly I was in a MASSIVE space (or some void) and I could just feel the infinitness and the infinite loneliness with it, cause I was the only thing floating there. The only thing in existence.

I found out that I was constantly pushing away my distracting thoughts, even though everything I've ever read about meditation says to just let them be. I thought I understand this and this is what I was doing, but I was not. One day I had enough of this constant struggle and tried a different approach - when a new thought came I said I'm gonna view it as a child. I started looking at it as each thought that comes and demands my attention is a different child inside me that came to tell me something that IT thought was very very important. But it was only important for it, I had other plans. So I always imagine me as being in the middle of a room hundreds of children coming into my mental room (the empty space where I see myself in my mind) yelling "Heeey, look at me, I have something very important to tell you! You need to know this!". And to children, as we know, everything is important. So in my mind I was like a father or a mother who smilefully listens to his child (because children need to be heard) and then I say "That's great, I like very much that you told me this." - and I'm just really appreciative, so the child sees he was heard. And once he is heard, I see him happily not having anything else, since his goal of telling me has been reached, and goes aways or now just sits with me in that mental room and we sit in quiet together. After that is done, another thought comes - this is now a different child/person (whatever you feel it to be) - also having something very important - for him! I as a mother/father have heard them all, but I need to give my child the feeling that he is appreciated and heard. So I listen to him tell me what he came to say, and shower him with compassion (again - "How wonderful that this has happened to you, wow.") - and now that child is satisfied. Now I have two happy appreciated children in the same room besides me. They've exhausted what they had to say, now they just exist there with me, and we sit. Until the third child comes and the whole story repeats... The point is giving each and everyone your complete love and compassion. Every single one needs to be heard. That's why they come. And this was the first time I realized what it means to acknowledge your thoughts and just let them be. And I've really read this so many different times but I never trully understood it. And it's tricky, because you think you understand because it's not rocket science, right? Funny. So I needed to make this mental trick through this visualisation. Until then thoughts always came and my mind was like "Oh what now? Yeah ok that's nice, now please be quiet, I'm working on something imporatant here." I wasn't really agitated, but you understand - it was something not wanted. This was not letting it be, but me trying to quiet it down. And when you want to push something away, we know the harder it keeps coming back. So my focus was really not meditating but waiting when the new thought would come so I can shoo it away. I just thought that was meditation. In the end there were a lot of children in the room with me. Each one said it's thing and now satisfied and depleted of that energy, quietly sat down and was quietly enjoying it's space with me. Then perhaps some child that is already sitting there would have another just WONDERFUL idea he just had to tell me. And I would again smile and say "Oh really? Wow." And it was happy again and I was happy again. Since this is my view of a perfect parent, I wanted to be a perfect "parent" to my thoughts aswell. And the thing is, each time you give that thought your love and compassion - "For telling me such a wonderful story!" - you yourself become more and more joyuous. Each time I gave my love to it I got that same love back and it kept adding up. Until at one moment I came into a very relexed state and very loving state. You let the thought do its thing and then you return to what you were doing, this time a tiny bit happier. I've had some succes before with meditation and forcing it "till you make it", but this was the first time it felt different than all other practices. And that love stuck with me after the meditation for some time, which it never lasted before. This was my trick, perhaps you can try with something different, something more personal to you. To me it's just a cacophony of voices - or children - running around in my head and I just let them run themselves out of energy. It's counter intuitive, because you desperatly want to quiet them down, but you should be doing the opposite. And the peace comes by itself. You don't search for it, it just dawns on you slightly each time more and more. Hope you find your way. Edit: Oh yeah, and it does take its time. And once in the future everything will be immediate, you'll be better and better at it. The children will have told you all they had to say and it will be much more quieter. They grow up so fast.

Do we know what these supposed abilites are? I'm curious.

Dismissive/Avoidant Ayyy

He looks more feminine.

Ok, I don't know that. I know a lot is possible that we haven't discovered yet. He might tell the truth, he might not.

I think that all (or most) of the people that didn't masturbate and achieved something, it just came to them by itself, they didn't really search for no fapping. Then they told other people what happened and others wanted to recreate it too, but the internal drive was not really there. Perhaps some people just have a calling for it and they do it because it pulls them there effortlessly. And people who don't are trying to forcibly push there, and should rather find their own calling, which might be totally different. We try to copy others but then forget to live our own lives. This is just my theory, though. You might still try to overcome this obstacle and you do find the correct way to not fap. Who knows. Don't take my words as gospel. Just ramblings of another soul. One of the possible perspectives on it. Perhaps you have something other in your life that pulls you to your highest self and you should do that. And perhaps no fapping would help or perhaps it would not.

This is because you are forcing yourself to NOT do something. That means in your mind you will only want it more. What you resist, persists. So this has to come by itself. That's whyI see no reason forcing yourself to do something you don't really want to do. In your mind you think you want it, but deep down you know you don't really. When I had my longest streaks of not masturbating it was because something in me just let go of it and I didn't search for it. Mainly because there was something more important in my life then, I had a focus to something which I wanted to achieve and I forgot about masturbation. And when the urge did come I tried to prolong it even further because I wanted to break some internal record, but at that moment I also started thinking about it a lot more. Until I just did it. So the best advice for no fapping would be a strong passion for something else. For example if you really PASSIONATELY wanted to achieve some higher states of being, then you would understand it on a deeper level that masturbation is going to hinder that. You wouldn't have to think or question about it, the need to do it just wouldn't come up. When the WHY is strong enough, the How is easy. You just haven't found a strong enough WHY at this time. My passions at those times were different, sometimes it was making music, other times was some other major life goal that I worked for, some totally different area of life. But it consumed my whole being and overshadowed everything else. So I didn't even remember about masturbating. And when I did remember, the need just wasn't there because all of my energy was directed towards my goal. Right now you are just trying to trick yourself, because you know in your mind that no fapping has benefits. But your deeper side still loves it and you're in conflict. They have to both want it. Edit: To me it's like some people going to the gym. They see other people looking great and having muscled bodies and they want to look good like that, too. But the passion is not really there. They just want the same thing as others do, because they were conditioned this is what socieaty wants. So they go to the gym but it doesn't last long and they eventually quit. While the people who are really doing it for themselves, just the thought alone of working out ignites them. I don't know if this is a good analogy, but I tried.

What about constant meditation? Not just sitting for an hour and then forgetting about it when it's over, but for example like a walking meditation. If there exists a meditation while you're walking, I guess you could expand that to every act you do. I know that meditation originally really just means a certain way of life, but we usually associate it with some thing you do at one point in the day and then stop, so I wanted to clarify. Edit: I remember Osho explained it as observing feeling yourself as like you have no head and only the body from the neck down is walking around. Also, I have a book The Mind Illuminated and there's a walking meditation inside that goes in depth how exactly it should be done, but I haven't reached that part of the book yet.

What abilites?

This was my realisation as well. It's the only logical thing, too. But people laugh at me when I tell them God is lonely and that's why we are here. Oh well.

Hm. I quite like this game.