BlueOak

Its stalled until I can heal my addiction to conflict, outcome, and understanding. I just wanted to show you what was possible without even leaving where you are sitting right now. *Hugs are the answer yes. Starting at Gratitude to Joy to Love.

Once you've experienced divine love or pure ecstasy you will never have that question. Its a white light reality that radiates. I was only there 5 minutes and it lasted 2 days afterwards as a cloud around my vision. No drugs, just me. If you ever get there, act as if you are hugging it, I felt that state slipping and inside myself I moved as if I were going to hug that feeling and it stuck around longer. From my limited interpretation, there is no tier, I never thought of things as stacked atop the other. Maybe bodies inside bodies, or auras, or shells, or fields, or eggs, or wombs whatever works for you. Things blur together in that state of consciousness. Will there be other things to experience after that, absolutely. Is there anything i'd like more than to sit in divine love again, no. I'd give up every experience from now to eternity to be there. Which is what I am told you are outside of the dream. To get there. I had to detox the body/mind, energetically, mentally, emotionally over 6 months, then you'll practice being in a loving state toward everything. This post you see. That bird in your window. That noise you hear in your car. That policeman that pulls you over for a flat tire. The angry person that is upset. The tree. The food. A war. Weather. Warmth. Cold. Everything. Especially yourself. You will change many things around you and interactions you have. I had conflict bring me down to earth. I didn't love the person that brought it to me. It hurt a lot. *I didn't know that all was mind, I had a an 'all is one' spiritual practice so maybe it would be different this time. All the best *Of course 'you' don't go anywhere. There is no distance.

Also please reflect that if you can help people get into joyful states then that is a huge gift to give, never forget that. Its massive, it ripples across that person's entire life and everything they are going to experience. If you can do dream yoga while sleeping. Maybe its time to help people while sleeping too? When asked and you feel like it. Maybe work on a skill you've been wanting to learn (though i've never consciously done this, unconsciously I do it all the time seeing if I can exist in that state) I don't want to expand too much. But only do that for others when asked/accepted or sought out. And only in joyful states. Everything is a creation of your mind. All the best.

If you are a joyful person that is nice. Its a good place to start from and go back to. Like starting in a field on a sunny day, as opposed to a highway with oncoming traffic. Joy is a very spiritual tool, its one of the big three. Gratitude, Joy and Love. If you can put yourself in these states well... I don't want to bias it more than that for you. But practice them toward yourself/others - same thing. You've probably seen some of the benefits already and perhaps are not even aware of it. Energetic activations bring things to you quicker. Spiritual activations make things clearer or more evident. Again I don't want to bias it more than that, because it leaves room for anything. Gratitude. For this thread I needed it today its been tough. All the best.

@Razard86 I don't know if it matters but thank you that was much better put than I would have done. Gratitude.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_wars_involving_Russia 16 Wars since the 90's. 3 of them ending in old soviet times. If we were to extend it to proxy wars we'd have a list as long or longer than the US. Scroll to modern here to see the updates. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_proxy_wars If we were to extend the list of countries they've armed, it'd be a very long list. They armed, trained and supported governments in Iraq and Libya for example both before and after their wars with the US. Many US wars involved Russian influence directly. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Libya–Russia_relations https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Iraq–Russia_relations In fact I want to edit this to say reading the proxy war list there are a ridiculous amount of smaller countries, not just the big ones, I never knew supplied arms overseas.

Russia is a brutal barbaric country and should be treated as such. We are weak in the west, afraid of conflict, afraid of coming out of our comfortable lives to face the reality of what we and they do. We make war. They make war. That is what happens. Western countries hide behind a veneer of respectability while we do our killing. Russia do it brazenly and in the open. Russia is rubbling 80 something villages, towns and cities. Its set a country on fire. The weak denials here of the reality are as bad as west, denying the reality of what Russia is or they have done. Its trying to imitate the west, badly. They are both dangerous opponents, neither can be trusted to be peaceful. People denying the reality of what they see cannot accept reality. We must distance ourselves from this old construct of wars between powers and the current systems of government wherever it is possible. Azov were a neo nazi brigade of 900 men and women, armed by the west, they had been expanded into the national guard and so had an influx of non nazi members, their leader stepped down to try and run for office instead. He got 2% of the vote. Russia has killed tens of thousands, levelled cities, town, villages. Gunned families down, shelled civilians for weeks and lied about to their own people. Trying to make out they are the victim. Almost brought us to nuclear war. I want nothing to do with their current way of thinking, and I will continually make the case that they are someone we should stay as far away from as possible. So I choose the division again most of you want and have constantly asked for. There is no coming together when this is going on, only to accept the barbarity as part of us. But I will make the same case, as I always have, every time the west does it. We as a world are primitive in our ways. We war and we kill, we blame the other side. We imagine we are right, so we can do these things to the perceived other.

Maybe I needed to be okay with violence as an answer. I was too much of a coward in the past whenever it came up. That we need to realise and accept a more dangerous world to be closer to what it actually is. That will go both ways, war needs to be accepted as a new norm. I fought against this when China was invading regions around it, Russia the same, America the same, Other regional powers the same. Maybe I was wrong. Doesn't mean I want it but I have to be okay with it. We in Europe have become rich fat cowards unable to accept the reality of war. With the new nationalist empowerment i've fought against this change since about 2012 when I gave up on spirituality because I saw it accepting this aspect of us. I saw it there first because those people were more openly conscious. I feel that I have to accept it as part of me. I had suicidal thoughts last night, only briefly. First time in a couple of months. I used to get them every couple of weeks. So life isn't as bad as it was, as I accept more of it. It was why I isolated myself completely for so long, and stopped interacting with the world. Because I was in so much angry resistance to this aspect of me. So today I accept war as part of me. Violence and brutality as an accepted way for countries and people to act. Doesn't mean I want it, but its accepted. *This is harder than powerlessness was to integrate. Its not as soul crushing but its certainly more difficult.

The rest of the day went downhill. That 70% became 5%. I painted another fence, and was getting some mental chatter some stillness, and a few dips into imagination entirely. I was somewhat happy though. So I went back to check on the war and the news. I got increasingly angry, to the point right now that I've almost lost my temper completely. I made a conscious choice toward division and separation. I found that question in my mind and have a burning emotion inside myself, like I almost felt at the start of this conflict. I hate the Russian arrogance i've seen, and so the Arrogance inside myself. I hate the desire for one perspective alone to be correct, inside Russian speakers and so inside myself. I hate the brutal use of force to solve a problem. I understand I could be driven to that if I was indoctrinated and forced to at gunpoint but i'd just as likely accept the bullet. I hate that Russia could get a limited victory from this, and will be rewarded for slaughtering people in their homes and turning cities into rubble. I hate that violence is an answer. I hate that a year from now people will be doing business again like nothing happened, that people want that rather than consequence. I hate there being no permanence or real consequence for actions. I hate that no lessons will be learned from this, they barely ever are. I hate people using this war to make political points about other situations, even as I said in another post I know its effective. I have a lot of hate right now. Toward those supporting this war, those wanting to forget, those wanting to continue making money despite it all. While I work through it I know that's hating parts of me. So it lessens as I type this. Its all green emotion that I chose to engage in again. I could just stop watching and take the easy way out. But if I can't stop reacting to conflict like this, its going to blindside me at another point in the future, just like before. If you are spiritually and/or energetically active and it does, then its really painful. I can't go through different spiritual routines and practices, while still having these emotional attachments. There has to be a better way than just ignoring it now like the population is beginning to do. I also hate that, I hate when people look away and so I hate the want to do that inside myself. A hateful day. I hope yours was better. At least I got a fence done. *shrug*

I've only just found this, it is a step by step breakdown of the war day by day on the map with video evidence where possible:

Today I have straddled the types of mind/body I spend most time in, as well I spent a few hours outside in meditation in the sun, I have been feeling love from gratitude toward food and people. I spent some time watching news on the war. I spent some time watching Mooji and Greg. I spent some time full condensed in immediate imagination of 'want' and also almost felt the physical start to shift or come undone when I tried to observe what was observing the sensations in meditation. I made a few small prayers from a place of peace. I would describe these bodies as physical - emotional - inner spirit - imagination - consciousness - (sub consciousness?) - energy body - the immediate body beyond the subconscious For sometime it has been obvious to me that my consciousness contracts when I spent it on conflict. It expands when I let go of attachment. I'd always liked Mooji because how can you not :D, but i'd never found the subtlety of his teachings enough for understanding, only reassurance. Letting go of needing to understand perspectives or draw identifying conclusions I now feel more drawn to his videos. Especially given its opposing balancing nature to the current output of media, focus and conversation I also feel 70% of the day is now not in the direct egoic consciousness. Which is great.

When we seek to understand something we identify with the conclusion. We form that as the basis of our new reality or relationship with it. Guard it. Fight for it. Every action is then based around what we concluded, even if we revisit the identity created to expand it, we are doing so from the point of attachment. If I can give up the need to understand, I can be free of attachment to the need of identity. I won't fight to defend what I have considered my reality or attack other aspects of myself for expressing outside of what I have accepted as reality.

Light is perceived and perception is everything. But there is nothing uncreated in infinity.

War will bring the worst out in people. The animal. Rapes. Torture. Murders. Its why it should never happen. For western audiences the closest is like WW2, artillery going back and forth. People living in rubble and inflicting horrors on the people around them. The first case of Russian soldiers raping a woman in front of her child, after shooting her husband, has been announced by the Ukrainian court. These are just the first stories you'll hear from both sides of the horrors that will last 20 years, some will be fake and some true but nobody will be an angel in war. Ukranians are identifying bodies of the dead and contacting Russians on social media for example, because the Russian military are not telling them. That is both psychological warfare against Russia and also for the family, hopefully to cause enough unpopular sentiment that Russians help it end.

Here is a good tactical analysis of a few of the conflict points. It is somewhat western biased but he also criticizes things like aspects of psychological warfare from Ukraine as well or the reality of what is happening vs the fantasy. He raises important points like there being many more weapons than advertised being brought in, to be sustain the war, and those 300,000 Ukrainians that re-entered the country, what training and weapons they've received to assist. I like him because he doesn't sensationalize anything. Kind of person I can listen calmly.

@Ulax Yellow? The perspective you are disagreeing with here also needs to be accepted. Turquoise? Accepted in yourself. Just like I have to tell you this by accepting your view 100% and understanding it 100% and giving this in the most respectful way I am able. I failed to be respectful in my first comment here in this thread and I apologize to everyone for dismissing their identities. I have done many times in the distant past on this subject. I understand why its empowering and helpful to have this ideology and why its structure helps people relate to the individuals in the world around them.

Vice is often a decent source of news. Gritty and realistic, doesn't sugar coat it like the regular channels do Here are some flashpoints Something more graphic Kharkiv: Most of these will probably end up age restricted.

Understanding or What can't be understood. Identity or Dis identification. Want or Sacrifice of Want Conflict or Wholeness. Every action chooses. Reality is addicting. The want for a result or to be right, or to win is intoxicating. Its like a mild high. Conflict is taking that want to an intensity even further. Surrounding myself with identities is emotion, fuels it, its safe and powerful . The need to understand or interpret a greater meaning draws me in every time. Then I want to win, or be right when I interpret it, even if I try to be as broad or just deep as possible. I know why I am here right now. I understand why I am doing what I am doing and I understand the purpose. Understanding isn't enough. Detoxing the mind is the most important and its one I least want to do again. I was so happy before when I did, but I am addicted now to the intensity of conflict I find it difficult not to engage in it. I used to write stories that were so intricate and fascinating, the characters drew people in to be part of their world of conflict. In that sense I was a cause of addictions. A month ago someone asked here how to create world peace. Conflict will exist while people are addicted to how it makes them feel engaging in and watching it. The need to win, to be right, to defeat the perceived other part of themselves, the intensity of emotions. Its so easy when you are not in physical peril, but even that physical peril doesn't deter some.

Here would be a milk toast UK view on the Nazi propaganda. The BBC is about as status quo as it gets here and generally as close to state TV as we get. Here would be a far right march in Moscow: And to show less bias, one in the UK. All countries have them.

Well we cannot ignore, and I should have mentioned in that comparison that of course the reason Ukraine is holding and in some areas beating back Russia is not only down to their fighting spirit, homeland advantage, but also the flood of weapons from across Europe into their neighboring state. Its also simple things like civilians in their homes telling the Ukranians where the Russians are, because Ukraine itself is fighting Russia. Its all the people making roadblocks or getting supplies or men to the front in their cars. Everyone is involved. Its Russia fighting let's say 20 million people. Maybe that's an exaggeration maybe they are fighting 10 million, but that's not a cost Russia is going to want to pay in a conventional war. They'd need to draft most of their young into the fight, like Ukraine has. So its more that its the Russia military vs the Population of Ukraine, because Ukraine really feels like they are in a fight to the death for their identity.

Evidence on the ground. Kherson for example, Russia is losing ground. Kyiv Russia is losing ground and getting units encircled. Chernihiv in the north east its more even, they may even be making ground there. In the south east its hell for all involved. Russia is not the second strongest military in the world anymore. Its equipment is outdated, its logistics are garbage, its coordination between air and ground is terrible. Their communication systems are not at all sophisticated and easily hacked. Their men are undertrained and their officers often don't have a clue. The men on the ground don't have enough supplies or the gear they need to do the job. If it truly were the second best military in the world this region would have been completely overrun in a few weeks. Ukraine IS winning against Russia. This is the reality check you cannot see. Russia is no longer all powerful, you are thinking of their neighbor China. Russian technology is a million miles away from American equipment. Its economy is less than the size of Texas, a powerful but single state in America. There is no comparison. They spend a fraction of the US budge on their military. As for tanks being generally less useful elsewhere, yes Tanks are not all powerful anymore, and guess what that's the bulk of the Russian army, Tanks. This is a budget comparison: https://cdn.statcdn.com/Infographic/images/normal/16878.jpeg It gives you some idea of the gap, over time this gap means an increasing divergence in the quality.

My common sense tells me to stay as far away from this topic as possible. But I sometimes don't listen to it.

Not if its what's called post op. (Operation). Even Pre Op you'd have people using Testosterone which would give an advantage. I think the only way would be either muscle mass / weight or checking for Testosterone levels and limiting based on that.

Some clubs tried unisex bathrooms when I was at university way back when. There was some funny moments and some embarrassment but the guys were okay with it obviously. I'm sure some of the women had a laugh but I am equally sure some would never go near them, other than to be curious then immediately leave. I bring it up because that applies to athletes too. I don't suppose any guy is going to mind competing physically with anyone else, even if there is moral or ethical objection from some. Its the woman that rightly have concerns over their body in the sauna for example, and the physical fairness of such a matchup in their sports. But beyond that I have no solution that isn't overly complex. Like weight categories at the Olympics for example, or measuring levels of testosterone in female events. It does take stepping outside of identity to find a solution not based on identity. *And also to add, personally I have no problem with what anyone does to their identity or body, its entirely nothing to do with me. So this comes from a consideration of others.

When will Russia's pride stop them fighting a battle they have no chance of ever winning? Not without 10 times the forces they have currently assembled and a nationwide draft the likes of which it hasn't seen since the USSR. A return to the cold war and possibly war with everyone west of you? What pride is driving Russia to continue to beat their heads against a wall? Or is there more to it than just pride, like with all things? For Ukraine I see: Fear of death and loss of what they are. Death of identity drives most decisions. Blue Pride and sense of national identity yes. Green Sense of Community and Open Liberal Sentiment. Orange Western Business Models and Individualist Choices. Red thrill for the violence and hatred of Russia. Yellow analysis of the two options compared to each other in relation to their own life, democracy and autocracy. The want for democracy which is orange/green/yellow orientated to have a say in their leadership. Family. Home. Country. Revenge. You name it. It isn't Russia anymore. It evolved to be something different (not better or worse different) This war has completely severed any hope Russia ever had of integrating Ukraine in my lifetime. Ukraine has every chance of winning it, they've got momentum currently. If winning means keeping their national identity, way of life, personal preference, and values in tact, then yes that. The Russians are held and being pushed back. Can they invade Russia and beat them, of course not. Can they slowly push them out of their territory until they meet a concentration of force that will hold them. Like after the next Russian draft in April? Perhaps. Its perhaps. Perhaps they might take Kherson back for example or the Russian's might hold it. They just lost another LT General there, the commander of the region. I think that makes 7 generals dead for the Russians. They might well encircle the Russians in the north too, they've been capturing more prisoners there of late and are attempting to. We'll probably get to where we were headed to at the start, some territory given up and a stalemate nobody is happy with.