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what do you mean "producing the center point through mental images" ? @pluto IT's really plausible, in some religious tradition there are darkness retreats where you enter a dark cave/room for extended periods of time and after a few day the mind starts to produce Tons of DMT. My meditation teacher told that this meditation is also really effective on DISMANTLING the subconscious. Sometimes I think I can kind of feel it.

well shit, I was about to skip my run today but after seeing how much you accomplish every day I feel lazy and gonna run. Anyway great journal with many interesting insights, very inspiring

for me it's more an emotion / physical sensation, I am resisting "in the body",usually tensions in the body, but there is also a thought. Never tried Sedona

A few things that might help: 1) when you are watching your anxiety, what do you watch exactly? because a sort of resonance can happen: you are giving attention to your anxious thoughts, and the negative thoughts create negative feelings, and those negative feelings amplify your negative thoughts etc... So the better method to be aware is to be aware only of your negative emotion, the pain, and to focus on it, and if the attention shifts to a negative thought return it to the pain. be aware also that you are the watcher and not that pain. 2) ask yourself the question: Is the story that I tell myself the truth, the reality, or is it only in my head? ask honestly don't rush to the logical answer that you may know. 3) maybe the most important is to see if you are resisting something that is happening in reality and dropping that resistance. ask yourself, am I resisting something? what am I resisting? can I drop that resistance? notice that there can be numerous layers or resistance, maybe you see that you are anxious and you don't wanna be anxious, so you resist the anxiety. can you drop it? can you see that any suffering can happen only when you resist something? that's why it's super critical to always monitor yourself and when you are finding yourself resisting something, drop it, and if you can't drop don't try forcefully because it will only create more resistance. So basically you are accepting what is by stopping resistance to what is.

what do you mean by that?

@Leo Gura That's what I started doing Any life experiences you recommend that helped you understand yourself better? I guess 5-MeO is number one

I'm 29, Live in the tiny country of Israel. I have B.Sc In physics and was accepted to a masters degree in Applied physics. I did the life purpose course and from it I understand that my passion is consciousness work and helping others, and also creating beautiful art to an extent. what I'm good at is understanding people and their problems and being emphatic. So my current LP is something like "help people solve their life problems through empathy and raising of their consciousness ". The thing is I spend too much time of my life in my room / university and I feel that I do not know the world well enough to know if those are truly my passions or if there are others things I may like more. I feel I really lack world experience! on the other hand I also lack work experience, I didn't really work for 5 years (1 year of law degree that I dropped and 4 years of physics) so I am quite hungry to earn money. So I have some options but can't decide. My first option is to continue my Physics studies (Two years). Pros: - I find the studied quite interesting (although hard), - I think it will open many doors for different career paths (although i'm not sure exactly what) - It will sure as hell challenge me and grow me - I'll have to be a lab instructor and to do my thesis project - which is a kinda scary for me) . cons: - My motivation for physics is not so great, I studied it because I thought it could help me understand the world but obviously all I feel is that I know it's mechanics but nothing more really. I don't think my Life purpose is in this direction, but maybe it will give me tools to follow my life purpose through science? - I don't feel this path works on my strengths - I feel like physics comes hard for me, like I'm not so talented in it like other people I know. 2nd option: Programming course for high tech - it's a very intensive and hard programming course - 6 months long, 5 day per week, 9 hours every day of studies, but when you finished you almost guaranteed to find a nice job in software development in a high-tech . the course is FREE but you are obliged by contract to work through the company for two years after the course (they get a share of your salary). pros: - after 6 months I get a good salary - Tabula rasa start compared to physics, a new city to live in - Programming is a useful tool that could help me later (I think) - after 2 and a half years I will save money that could help me pursue my LP - could help me achieve my minor LP of creating art (a video game on spirituality :D) Cons: - not directly connected to my Life Purpose, I will probably postpone stuff for 2.5 years - not sure if in a high tech job I will have the time and energy left to pursue my passions 3d choice: pursue / find my passions So like I said what i'm most passionate about is finding truth (consciousness work) but whats the practical things to do with it? become a meditation instructor? travel to India for a year and find a guru/teachers? go live in a monastery for some time? (if you have more ideas they are welcomed! ). on the other hand most people here seem to separate LP and Enlightenment work, maybe it's better? another option, (Like many here...) I guess that I could achieve my current LP by becoming a coach. but for some reason where I live (family and friends) coaches don't have good reputation so it makes me hesitate. I need to heavily research this, maybe move to the US :D. what's the qualities of a good coach? Another option is to go see the world, I have a US and a french passports so I can go live and work in the US or in Europe for a year or so, to see the world and know myself, but I'm not sure how to do this exactly, try to find a job somewhat related to to my LP? I'm not sure where to start and how to research this. Again I would LOVE to hear your ideas / advice. Pros: - follow/understand my passion in the most direct way - getting to know the world cons: - no clear picture of what I want exactly, - probably won't be able to save money (of course I can also play with the options, Maybe First to do the programming course and only when I have some money/decent job to follow my LP full force?) would LOVE to get feedback\ opinions, what would you do in my situation?

@Leo Gura Damn, accurate read of me I'm sitting and contemplating the stuff. [after two days...] I came to the conclusion there are two issues: 1) In a way I really feel like a child who doesn't know the world, I really lack world experience, and that makes me unsure of my life purpose. So I need to fix this first (or together with pursuing my LP), I will focus on experiencing the world while finding, researching, and refining my LP. 2) LP vs Enlightenment the only thing that burns in my heart is yearn for Truth, if there is any greater truth I must find it. It was the theme of my life since I was a small child trying understand existence, then when about 18 years old I bumped into the idea of enlightenment and was hooked, Tried a lot of different meditation techniques and other stuff but ultimately didn't feel I progress in anyway so I kinda lost faith in it after a few years (except in practicing self-awareness which I found beneficial so I continued to do ). After that I decided to pursue the closest thing I thought will lead me to truth, physics. But like i said now i see the futility of it bringing me any closer to understanding my existence. And when I bumped into your videos about half a year ago I finally understood Enlightenment and what it entails much much better then the first time so I have the motivation again. But my intuition right now is telling me to not go live in a monastery, just to keep practicing, reading, maybe snorting and deepening my understanding on the subject. So I feel I know what to do right now. bring it on

It's the only thing you did regarding the issues? I would think they are very beneficial when combined with Actual active practice.

@Skenderberg ok thanks, I'll try it!

@Kvath sounds like it's the right decision, good luck! What's your blog going to be about?

@Skenderberg the point I hit, what is it? I can hit the edge of a table for example? A stick?

INFP I scored ENFJ and ISFP with only F dominant but reading about the traits I'm convinced I'm INFP.

Interesting, how to do the chop exactly? What to hit, for how long?

~30 hours of watching videos ~10-15 hours of exercises You watch online. It's full of insights Like his YouTube videos, some of the advice, at least for me, was pure Gold. You will know yourself better and what's important to you so it will be much clearer what you want in life. You will come out with a sentence that describe your LF. Anyway, Do it in less than 50 days then you will able to refund it if you are not satisfied.

@DimmedBulb do you have experience with other girls? Asking because sometimes when you have nothing to compare it's hard to say if it's "true love" or "first love". It's noble of you to want to save her and help but why do think you can do better than the first time? Maybe you need to work on yourself first for some time and only after growing and gaining more experience decide what to do? I'm not sure I'm getting the situation exactly though

Wow, interesting. What are your feelings towards her?

Have you decided yet? I would say suck it up and do it. It seems to me that you should finish your degree just so who knows it might be useful one day and it's always looks good in a resume, and for the sake of finishing things. One semester is really not a long time, think of all the time you invested in your studies, at least you will get recognition for it and you won't feel you wasted all that time. It's just 14 weeks!

How old are you? Did you see her in real life before? Can you go and take care of her for a period of time before deciding? Is this a romantic relationship? There is kind of consensus about relationships that they tend to not work if the man put the woman before anything else, that a man should have something more important than his woman, otherwise she will resent him. Leo in his dating videos and David deida in "The way of the superior man" advice so.

I would suggest doing the Life purpose course as there is definitely a lot of focus on motivation in it. It would also help you understand yourself and whats important for you, and that can really help in your indecisiveness. If you see yourself wasting your time doing unproductive things that sure as hell you should do it instead.

@Vibivub thanks, sounds interesting right now I'm just a hopefully Videogame Designer

@Live Life Liam Thanks a lot, I'll check out Journey and "the Stanley parable". to be honest I too do not own now any gaming equipment and the height of my gaming career was 10 years ago, but many of my best memories were during those days (games like the Gothic series ;D ), and I still feel a huge excitement thinking of being involved in quality games.

@Alphard If you have different view on the subject, can you share it?

@Leo Gura seems wise So for the sake of communication, someone who experienced a "no ego experience" is an enlightened person and someone who transcended his wife completely is "fully enlightened"?

Eckhart tolle enlightenment experience for example would classify as "complete enlightenment" in your book?