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Reading Lsd and the Mind of the Universe right now, he takes reincarnation as a basic fact of nature. Then he goes on to talk about the Elderly Council and all this elaborate stuff that to me seems like nonsense because even if it were "true" (this kind of elaborate afterlife with soul groups and whatnot), it's like "you" will never really remember it (for long enough) so basically it doesn't exist or carries no relevancy, and we are always stuck in this oh so perfect reality.

Alright This is dumb as fuck but i was at a clinic for depression and smoked weed with two other folks under a bridge whilst there. The stuff was starting to hit me hard when suddenly two really rude little boys came over and threatened us to call the cops. They simply wouldn't leave, they were very obnoxious. Triggered some paranoia in me and my short term memory was so fucked that I was unable to unlock my phone. I simply ran away and then threw up all over my carpet, the others had to clean that up. Not a fan of weed

I'd love to know as well

I tried fluvoxamine and fluoxetine. They rendered me unable to laugh and gave me cramps in my right leg. Careful with these

I have trouble understanding dissociation/split consciousness and the freeze response. If I were to exercise vigurously for one hour per day, would that shake my system up and let those deeply hidden emotions rise to the surface? Seems a little too 'easy'

Thanks I'll definitely do the breathing. Psychedelics have been mildly interesting but mostly disturbing and not helpful at all in this regard, neither was any ssri I think I have quite a bit of trauma to work trough, already got a talk therapist.

Yeah I've watched some of his videos where he explained emotional numbness as well. I fall under the schizoid category, I am all stuck in my head. I think he said massages, touch and these kind of exercises would help?

Would you mind sharing what exactly you did ? I also feel like dissociation is soooo fucking tricky and for me, at least, runs VERY deep. Emotions are super numbed out and all I get are empty tears from time to time

Imagine infinite happiness and peace as God - it's impossible, it would be "boring", no change of feeling of scenery at all, no meaning to be found anywhere. There must be contrast, impernance and change. Suffering and pain. Notice how your childhood flew by in seconds, how the years trickle by. The heights of Love and the Depths of impossible monotony and misery - all is temporary. Nothing lasts forever. Even nazi camp survivors say that in the moment the suffering felt eternal but afterwards rather short. (At least in the book Man's search for meaning by Viktor Frankl) Pray & try everything you can to either change or accept the given situation and circumstances that can feel like a cage

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Okay it seems as though there are quite a lot of variations as to what comes after Death. Options go from various forms of hell (intense suffering in the ethereal realm with no egoish mind) to almost immediate bathing in God's Love plus Life review. I imagine the lower your consciousness when you go the more likely you stay stuck in the shitty realms

I can also see how perhabs initially there would be relief but then (shame) and regret would take over because the "job" was not finished at all. This is purely thought since Life can get so fucking miserable that a way out would be nice but suicide does not seem to provide such an escape

Ideas and beliefs rule your Life, why wouldn't they influence your afterlife

Yes the key seems to be not to go when in a fucked up state of mind, although that leaves one wondering what happens to the insane or otherwise very unstable people. They just going to "hell" because of genetics? Although maybe genetics have something to do with karma. Ugh

So would the Universe recycle "me"?

Relatively speaking Death does exist. Leo says that you and your whole life don't exist right now either, yet if you were to run against a brick wall, I doubt you would deny that pain and the realness of the brick wall. Yeah the question then would be how to prevent nightmares to occur. E.g. today I dreamed of a demon trying to strangle me and I would like to not have that happen to me for eternity

I mean it's kind of shit innit

This place literally exists becaus it is imperfect, sick indeed. God enjoys creating anatomic sentient beings and we all suffer for it As for rebirth I hope we do get a say in it

Take in 20-40% of the visual field, depends on the scenario

Sorry if this has been asked a lot already but.. There have been 8ish instances where upon awakening (one time when I tried to astral project) I hallucinated these creepy black figures with a long pointy hat. Or I would wake up in panic and have these creepy orbs surrounding me. Always just for one to two seconds I have a bunch of theories behind this. Apart from being really fucking disturbing this might offer some Insight into the nature of mind. Because upon awakening from a nightmare, I starred to the right of me and felt my mind dissociating/literally projecting that demonish figure. Like it was being created, or channeled. Or it tried to possess me. The other time I was in a monastery. The concept of sin and really just the brutal way of Life terrified me and again, I woke up in fear. At First nothing really happened. Then i starred into the darkness and for one second, another demon that resembled the typical visualization of Death appeared. Is this the early onset of psychosis or what

Lack of strategic thinking. Giving in into victim mentality. Not asking for help and living in isolation. Shitty work ethic. Being okay with being complacent and comfortable. Pathologic avoidance of fear and uncertainty will get you fucked hard. Being stuck in a rigid routine Not checking/questioning critical assumptions your Life hinges upon Not having a vision that inspires you And so on and so on. What I regret most is not socizalizing NEARLY enough

where does it say that

@PurpleTree Imagine having depersonalization disorder (inability to feel emotions, everything feels fake and unreal 24/7), no friends, no job, basically being dead but alive. I get dumber by the second. All of this is really terrifying. I get scared that I am the only one that exists and that reality is rigged against me. See I ruined my life beyond repair. Everything I suffer from is a natural consequence from my actions, but I can't take my decisions back the same way you cannot uncook an egg.

The Karma that keeps your physical body together - when not finished in this Life - will just find another miserable body and do it there. I wonder if that's actually true and this Universe really is that fucked up. Imagine having some rare genetic disease, going for legal suicide and just instantly respawning in worse conditions

Well Sadghuru is this famous yogi who has done 60000+ or something hours of yoga and mediation and the other guy apparently is so good at astral projection that he was able to witness what happens to the dead. Every culture forbids suicide so there is something to it