
SimonaMay
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Thanks a lot to both of you for your replies 🙏🏼 I think you're right, trying out new hobbies or going to some spiritual events might actually be a good idea. Otherwise, it feels like the chances of meeting someone somewhat awake are really low in my current environment. And yes, staying authentic and showing my truth sounds like a good idea too — although I find it a bit harder to open up here in Europe without the fear of being judged, compared to how it felt in the US.
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I'm at a stage in my life where I deeply crave intimacy and sex. I consider myself an attractive woman, so finding a random hookup wouldn’t be difficult. But every time I see a guy and feel a flicker of hope — thinking maybe this one carries some depth — I end up disappointed really fast. Over the last few years, I’ve grown a lot spiritually and emotionally. I’ve become highly intuitive, and I can usually see through people almost instantly. I feel their intentions, their level of self-awareness, and how much emotional depth they carry. And the truth is — most of the time, I see none. And that, for me, is a huge turnoff. I sometimes wish I could turn that part of me off — just disconnect for a while and have sex for the sake of physical pleasure. But I can't. I sense the shallowness too quickly, and the attraction disappears before anything even happens. I find myself walking away again and again, unable to follow through. Does anyone else feel this way? Craving not just any intimacy, but the kind that feels sacred — where you feel truly seen, where both of you can drop the masks, be vulnerable, and meet in presence… but instead, you're met with surface-level energy, performance, and ego? Lately, I feel like I’ve grown enough to clearly recognize what doesn't align — but I don’t see anyone around me who does. And that’s the hardest part. It leaves me feeling like I’m hanging in this space alone.
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SimonaMay replied to Wisebaxter's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
@John Paul that could be true, I actually almost never take any kinds of pills -
SimonaMay replied to Wisebaxter's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
@Wisebaxter I felt a little dizzy for aproximatelly 5 hours, at first I doubted if it was from modafinil, as I have recently experienced quite often dizzyness caused by stress at work, but I took a half of the pill yesterday again and after a couple of minutes I experienced a light dizzyness and a little bit of tirednes( I think caused by dizzyness). I was perfectly fine driving thought. And about the positive effect: for sure not when I felt dizzy, maybe just in the evening, but even then I couldn’t say if I could concentrate more ? so strange -
SimonaMay replied to Wisebaxter's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
@Gregory1 thank you for the advice! -
SimonaMay replied to Wisebaxter's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Hello, I took a half of the pill of Modafinil yesterday and today, but it makes me dizzy and a little bit tired. I wonder if those are common side effects? And do they go away when you gain the tolerance? Or do you think it is just not suitable for me? That would be a shame, since I‘ve just got a 100 pills. I‘ve also got Ritalin, but I didn‘t try it yet.