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@Leo Gura Yeah I wanted to contemplate that on truffles or lsd. You speak about degrees of awakening. Can you realize immortality on a lesser degree? Because the other member that commented here seemed to have an insight into immortality although it’s unlikely that they all had a full awakening although I don’t want to exclude that possibility. Not sure if I can access a full awakening on my small-mid doses of lsd or truffles right now but death and love are the facets I want to access the most.

@Loba ????

You could be a teacher or professor in philosophy. That’s pretty well paid.

I disagree. Philosophy is so incredible diverse like nothing else that you can definetly specialize. There are big philosopher who didn’t read much from other philosopher. Nietzsche for example he only read the old greeks and Kant if I remember correctly and he is a big name. But to be well rounded is of course pretty cool.

@Verg0 All tickets are sold out now. Please report if you got 5meo malt there ??

@Loba That sounds like a pretty advanced way to contemplate. Like you need a lot of concentration to pull it off correctly. But it does sound like it could work. Did you have success with this exact approach ?

Although that’s true I don’t think you can rationalize yourself out of the fear of death. My belief that I will die and then have to face eternal darkness is too deep I need a direct insight/mystical experience to crush that.

I also did that in my last trip. Somehow I completely forgot that I did that. I was super confused in dizzy the next 8 hours. Maybe I was at the right path thanks I will try it out.

I don’t think Kant was much of a mystic, he was a hardcore rationalist. So nothingness as the noumenal part of something probably wouldn’t be his first idea. But it’s an interesting idea.

Yeah from a spiritual point of view this is all mental masturbation. But sharpening the concept of an "objective world“ can have its practical uses. Science isnt right but science helps you live in a cauchy place.

Kant would probably say that that would never happen because the subject doesn’t have access to the objective reality. hmm do you want to say that in this logic it’s basically pointless to try to get closer to the thing in itself because no matter what you come up with, as soon as you have it, it’s part of your experience and so it’s impossible to be the thing in itself? I mean there a different levels of being wrong probably, so could try to be as little wrong as you can although you can never be right. The body soul dualism. It’s a big question in philosophy how you could merge the physical world with the mental world. Nobody succeeded in it. In spirituality the physical world is a concept and an experience in the mental world. So there is only the mental world. Do you mean the self referring problem? Alan Watts says it in this way, you can’t burn fire with fire, you can’t hear your own ears, you can’t taste your own tongue and you can’t touch the tip of this finger with the tip of this finger. yeah like what is an apple without somebody experiencing it. Is the Apple even existing then? In first order truth no, in second order truth yes. Yeah I am tired now ?

I am not sure if Kant says that it has to exist or if we merely says that it can potentially exist. Yep exactly.

Thoughts are also a direct experience just their meaning second order truth. Do you mean that? Yes. Imagine an apple. I see the different from you because maybe I see slightly different colors because of my biology and somebody else might see it in higher resolution because he has better eyesight and a bat might see it in waves and an eagle also completely different. So there infinitely many ways to see that one object. Kant says that there is potentially one objective way on what the Apple actually is but no subject can ever access that. But of course that’s all just concept and not directly provable. We have no choice, we can only access noumena. I believe Kant says that we should at least keep in mind that noumena isn’t objectively true and shouldn’t be fooled by it. Haven’t read Hegel yet.

Exactly! Direct experience is first order truth, concept is second order truth. Rationalist value second order truth more then first order truth so they mix it up.

I want to do a heavy metal test. The problem is I have a wire in my mouth which is left from my clamp. It is made out of around 99.85% titanium and 0.15% as far as metals go. Heavy metal tests don’t track titanium and iron but I am still worried that the titanium or iron might change the result of the other metals. Is that possible or can I do the test with the wire in my mouth ?

They have been fake for so long that they aren’t aware of it anymore. They think they are being authentic. They don’t know what they do ?

@Sugarcoat ?

What about healthy cooking courses? Maybe there are things that you kinda like or would like to try out? Haha I get you ?? I hated the process of first getting psychedelics as well and now I hate the process of getting the "more advanced psychedelics“. Where do you live? Magic truffles and certain lsd Derivats are legally available in many countries.

Reality has distractions everywhere. Where ever I look there are things that trigger me in some kind of way. Like flowers that spread an inviting smell. They want to pull me into a dream. That’s how I lived almost my whole life, jumping from dream to dream. Yesterday I spent 5 hours on YouTube just listening to music coming off the afterglow of a lsd trip. I could have clicked on so many videos just like I usually do but I didn’t feel the need to, I just listened to music.

Are there things you are passionate about in terms of hobbies ? Making friendships while doing some activity is a lot easier especially if you are more introverted because there is always something going on that you can talk about. And you can find people who are more similar to you. I couldn’t really see myself finding friends in a job for example. You could also try out microdosing. It can bring you into a more confident and extroverted mindset.

Only have access to lsd and magic truffles at the moment. Lsd seems to be a lot better then magic truffles at least.. I believe you I hope I can get my hands on something like 5meo at some point.

On a recent lsd trip I got in touch with my love for discovering and understanding. I always loved to introspect into my psyche and to really penetrate into some areas where I could find resistance. When something cracked open and I understood new connections I always jumped in circles out of joy. Even if I realized how much of a devil I was I was still in so much joy when I understood something new. I remembered one really conscious moment where I realized that this is what I want my life to be around. This natural joy is still there but often really suppressed in spiritually which is crazy because spirituality is basically all about introspecting and wanting to crack something and you can only do it for yourself and it’s possible to gain the biggest rewards from it. What an incredible joy!! It’s like everything that I want to do anyway. But somehow I don’t feel that joy because everything feels so heavy and out of reach. I watched most of Leos videos about spirituality and intellectually I understood most of them but I couldn’t verify pretty much anything. It feels like I can never catch up but have to catch up because otherwise I am still a stupid donkey living in the matrix. And it’s so painful because I constantly have to reject the materialism paradigm but also can’t accept the "God-paradigm“ because I haven’t experienced it yet and therefore would be no better then a stage blue religious person who says god is real because some authority figure said so. And then there are all of these incredible maps that Leo made. I want to feel like a pioneer but I don’t feel like I could ever make maps as good as Leos. And then all of my survival issues eat me up inside and overtake most of the time from psychedelic trips. Can anybody relate? I feel like most of these fears will just be swiped away if I reach a mystical experience but I still wanted to share this, idk why.

Shaky hands trip report (≈110ug lsd) 09.09.2022 Followed Leos video (guided exercise for realizing you are god) again. I became so conscious of my hand that I awoken to the fact that my hands dont exist in time. Simply the fact that they exist as in that anything exists at all shocked me to the core. I didn’t dare to be conscious of it for more then a few seconds. It was so shocking that my teeth bit together as strong as they could and I almost had a panick attack. Don’t know what a panick attack really is but that almost was one. Then I wanted to eat some chocolate cookies because I felt hungry. In the eating process I became conscious of the fact that I have always eaten things because I thought that I am a human and I need food to survive and by eating it it goes into my stomach and stuff but I broke through that fantasy and ended just with my sensations "in my mouth“ completely confused by why they were there and what their purpose was. What am I doing?? … Holy shoot What have I gotten myself into, .. , or out of, AAAAAAGHH!! Yeah there isn’t much else to the trip. Just felt like I got overrun by a concreting machine. But it was great. Looking forward to doing it again ?? Edit: A lot of stuff also seemed to be healing in my psyche.

So the worldwide inflation is mostly seen as a negative. But for the western countries where we already have enough luxuries to survive extremely well I don’t see why we should be so concerned. We as humans always want more and more and so we don’t see how much we already have. No matter how much Technologie evolves we always want more. So that guarantees that we will destroy our environement. But honestly I would be just as happy with old technology and less luxuries if that were the norm. A big inflation forces us to live with less and so we can see how much we actually need and maybe become conscious enough to not strive for more. Thoughts ?

I like lsd for the effects because it’s very clear and good to contemplate on but it lasts too long for me. Looking for something that lasts roughly around 6 hours like magic truffles or magic mushrooms but with the clearness of lsd.