Mixcoatl

Huicholes in my country use to eat peyote for five years everyday in order to understand the medicine and become marakames (a kind of shaman). But they are respected just because they follow ancient rituals from their ancestors. Psychedelics have shown me things that were unimaginable from sober state or methods like meditation. I agree that once you have had the insight, it's the best thing to integrate it to life. However, I'm very curious about psychedelics and I don't have any problem to keep on doing them as they have shown me a lot of things of myself. "If you can't notice it sober then you can't notice it sober". You're just eliminating the possibility that one day I can reach that state as sober that I've only reached with bufo alvarius so far.

Science is true in the relative! And it works inside its domain. Science is not even untrue outside of this domain, it's useless and meaningless. Leo has already a video series about science and he explains these topics with a very holistic perspective. You should check it, it's very entertaining.

As I understand, you can recognize God with your current mind because it is infinite in some dimensions (try to find the limit of your imagination, you can't) I think that's God. That's why there are some techniques that could approach you to recognize God. Your mind is already God as your imagination is infinite but as the Cantor theory says, there are always larger infinites. I already said that it's about being bc you have to be your mind to recognize the infiniteness of your imagination. You don't have to know it, you just have to be. You smoke bufo and you become a larger mind, you just have to be that mind to recognize it.

Existence is the only thing that can exist. Existence is. Everything ok so far... Then you're saying that when you see what's behind the curtains of existence, is there nothing? Like there's nothing beyond existence? When I'm high, all the sounds are contingent and appear in the silence, it's crystal clear. I think you mean that.

Yes. You changed the subject.

When I am on a deep sleep, nothing appears but I know it happened when I wake up. I know I was there.

Yes, that's right. My brain is the character that is asking the question. My guess is: if there isn't difference between physical death and psychological death, what if that day they picked up my body and delivered it to my family and they performed my funeral, later in that dream? Creepy!!

It's not about knowing. It's about being. Knowing needs an outer set. Being needs only the initial set to be.

From my understanding, non existence is somehow the prerequisite for all of existence. There can't be a substance without the nothing. You can't reach the ultimate substance without thinking in the nothing. I think that's why many say everything = nothing. Physicists say "strings aren't made out of anything... Fields aren't made out of anything... These things are fundamental, there is nothing beyond that". Mystics say "reality is void... Reality is nothing" nothing is somehow necessary for existence. Limits always contradict themselves. Set theory paradoxes, for instance.

Though I have had great insights with 5meo, like oneness and ego annihilation, I still don't feel that I have had an awakening. I am patient but persistent. I hope one day I can have such realizations.

One night I had a dream that someone shot me in my chest with a gun. I felt the bullet getting into my chest, I felt the pain, I felt the distress of my death and suddenly I woke up. Today is the day that I am still asking to myself If I really died that night.

Oh, I see!! This phrase you just have thrown makes me feel closer to the answer. The emotion is just arising in me, not precisely in my brain or body. Maybe that's why I can't locate it. I think you nailed it. The emotion is not necessarily stick together to the song as I could think. It is just appearing in The Field. I have a certainty: The emotion is happening, and that's already too much!!

After years of thinking about what is the ultimate substance of the universe, I finally had this insight that everything necessarily has to be nothing... And it was thanks to the quantum field theory that suggests that fields are the most fundamental or simplest structure of existence which is crazy because if it is so, they must "remain in the nothing". You can't even imagine a "something" substance that is fundamental unless it remains in the nothing, unless it is nothing. If this ultimate substance (let's say X) is something, it is forced to be made out of anything more fundamental, therefore, X cannot be a fundamental substance. It applies for strings, space, fields or even consciousness. Anything that you can think is the more fundamental thing. For me, nothing is the most fundamental "thing". I love this insight but at the same time it feeds my nihilism and my sadness.

Yes, definitely there must be a brain and some ears and some music in the game for the emotion to arise. Many will say "it is not located, perceptions occur without owner...". But that is not convincing. The damn song and my ears appear located. This is not happening to my cousin in Atlanta.

I mean, yes. I agree. But that is not precisely the answer I'm looking for. We all agree that every form appears without subject or without owner. I wanna know why when a song occurs, there's also a feeling and where it occurs. Is it the same as the song? Is it in the air? Is it in a body?